Hello… Welcome back to Sudden Love! I know some of you might have thought I had abandoned this story, but it was never my intention to do so. I was in an incredibly difficult moment in my life and it made it hard for me to write this story, because it has a deep connection to things that happened to me. But, I've been fighting hard and, now I'm on a calmer period, and feel like I can write again. I hope you all like this and keep enjoying the story.
-I think we're gay... -Lydia said, abruptly, surprising Victoria, who was on the driver's seat. They were driving back home from the mall after spending the day shopping for shoes. That always seemed to distract Lydia whenever she was down. She'd woken up feeling like she didn't want to do anything that morning and Victoria dragged her out of bed. She wouldn't allow her to succumb to her mind like that. The blonde looked at her waiting for a reply. Victoria laughed.
-Does it matter what we are? – she said, defyingly.
-I don't know, really. I mean, I always thought I was straight and then BAM! This happens, so… - she inhaled deeply. – I guess I just don't want to be confused. Maybe, we're bisexual. – she shrugged.
-Maybe we are… -the brunette kept her eyes on the road. She felt light. With no weight on her shoulders. Her chest moved soothingly with every breath. The last 3 months really had changed her. Lydia and her had been together since and the darkness inside their hearts seemed to diminish a bit every day, as they grew closer. Also, there was a process of liberation happening inside each one. – I, honestly, don't think I care much about what category we fit in. – she held her hand. – What matters to me is us. I'm satisfied just by understanding that I love you and that I am attracted to you.
-I wish I was… -Lydia complained. – I guess the categories were just made for people to give names to feelings and to things they don't really understand.
-Do you feel you understand yourself more if you chose to label yourself as bisexual? – she caressed her hair.
-I guess… But I think it has a heavy load. – she looked down. -It's like, if people knew they would automatically associate a bunch of things to us. Things that have nothing to do with who we are really.
-People do that for no reason already, darling. We need to be strong and not pay attention to the opinions of others. – the blonde nodded, with distant eyes. That always seemed easier to say than to do, but she was right. There was no other way to be at peace. Guessing that she was still apprehensive, Victoria continued – Just live one day at a time, Lydia. What you think about yourself today is what matters.
-You're right. -She smiled. She always managed to give her hope. The time they'd spent together had been an amazing journey of discovery for them. They were exploring desires that were inside them, but had always been kept silent and were finally free to flow. Also, they were finally divorced from their husbands, which brought it's own freedom. New winds were blowing in the Hamptons for those two. Winds of Change. – Thank you, Victoria. – She said, sweetly, with far more emotion than she expected.
Victoria pulled over to the side of the rode and parked the car. She turned to Lydia and grabbed both her hands and pulled them to her lap.
-I'm the one who should be thankful, Lyd. -Victoria had never used that nickname before. The blonde couldn't help but give a big, warm smile at it. -I'm so grateful to you. – the brunette repeated in a whisper.
-I… I don't understand… - she looked for the explanation in her brown eyes that smiled back at her. Victoria put her hair behind her year and shook her head, playfully.
-How can you not? – she giggled. – If you had never been brave enough to tell me you were in love with me, we would never be here… We would never have lived the amazing moments we've been experiencing together. I would, probably, not have had the courage to divorce Conrad. – she admitted. -But now, I'm here, feeling like I can breathe for the first time in years. And that's all because you were courageous, Lydia.
The blonde couldn't speak. She was right. There was an enormous courage inside of her, she hadn't acknowledged. Victoria's words had been like a cool breeze for her. Whatever had been depressing her, couldn't contest what she'd said. Lydia would hang on to that and not let whatever fears she had overshadow the joy she'd conquered.
She lowered her head until it was buried in Victoria's neck and put her arms around her, holding tight.
-Victoria. -She whispered. -I promise to focus on the present and on the good things. I won't let my fears take over me anymore. I want to welcome this change in my life now. – her smile made Victoria's heart warm. – I will choose faith and hope.
They hugged tight and smiled, both proud of one another. Suddenly, Victoria burst out laughing. She didn't really understand why, but Lyd started laughing with her. Tears rolled down their cheeks as if they were emotional at the same time.
Before Lydia could realize, Victoria's hands were on the back of her head, pulling her closer. Their lips parted and collided soft and eager for each other.
It was like the weight of the world had been lifted off their backs and they could finally live again.