Yea I got nothing except the drama of whether or not I graduated from college….AND I DID! WITH BOTH OF MY DEGREES! HIZZAH!
Well now in the process of writing my resume and putting together a professional portfolio, taking a small break though to bring you the next chapter of this story…which no one seems into, but oh well…
Rescue Me
Chapter Two
It is later in the day as Elsa dismisses her councilmen from the meeting room. Once again, in her honest opinion, the meeting was pointless. Nothing had gotten done, because in their mind, nothing can be done until she is formally re-crowned Queen of Arendelle. She sighs heavily as she swiftly walks to her sister's study. Kristoff had to return to the mountains to start harvesting ice once more, and after the events in the portrait room in the early morning Anna sought the comforts of her study. The only thing she agreed with what her councilmen were saying was that she needed to get Anna to start helping plan the coronation so the country can start running smoothly once more. In which case, she also made a mental note to re-write some of these ridiculous regulation nonsense so that in the event (heaven forbid) this happened again, then there would be none of this lagging.
Approaching the door, Elsa sighed and prepared herself for whatever lay beyond the wooden barrier. Once she steeled herself, she knocked, "Anna?"
There was no response.
Elsa knocked again and she heard, "Enter."
Elsa cautiously entered the room, and closed the door behind her. She does a quick sweep of the room, before settling her eyes on her sister sitting at the desk, a small glass and a half empty bottle next to her hand as she leans her head on the other staring at a piece of paper, "Hey." Elsa greeted going over slowly and sitting in the chair, "How are you feeling?"
Anna did not answer right away as she silently read the paper. It was not anything special or important, but in her current mental state it was the most fascinating thing that ever existed, "How do you think I am feeling?" Anna said eventually as she realized her sister was not going anywhere any time soon.
Elsa chose not to comment as she watched Anna put the paper in the pile and poured herself a glass of scotch, "What are you doing?" Elsa asked as Anna was about to bring the glass to her lips.
"About to take a drink." Anna said as she looked at her sister who was glaring at her, "I am sorry, but do you want one?"
"Not at eleven-thirty in the morning." Elsa said in an astonished tone. Then realization set in and she suddenly realized what Anna does in her study as her younger sister takes a large gulp of the amber liquid, "Is this what you have been doing when you are in here?"
"No…" Anna trailed off as she put the glass down and pulled another document towards her, this one was a list of materials that were needed for the naval ships, "I read and sign papers as well. My duties as it were." Elsa snatched the bottle off the desk along with the three-quarters full glass, "Hey!" Anna yelled as Elsa went to the window and opened it and dumped the contents of the glass out the window followed by opening the bottle and also dumping the liquid out, "What the hell?!"
Elsa glared at her sister, "I am not allowing this anymore! You are not going to shut yourself away and drown whatever is in your head with liquor!"
Anna crossed her arms and came out from behind her desk with a much darker glare, "Oh really? Because, now correct me if I am wrong, but you know oh so much about being an open individual with your problems?"
"I learned. You taught me." Elsa said with emphasis, "The Anna I know would not have turned to this stuff. The Anna I know would come to me or Kristoff, or even Olaf with her problems. The Anna I know is-"
"Non-existent!" Anna yelled cutting Elsa's tirade off with one of her own, "The Anna you know is non-existent! She is gone! Gone, perhaps dead, but she is not here. Not anymore." She finished darkly.
Elsa stood there for a moment as Anna went over to the fire place and rested one of her arms on the hearth. Elsa sighed as she placed the bottle and glass on the desk as Anna hid her face in the arm, "I do not believe that. I do not believe that for one minute." Elsa said firmly as she went over to her sister.
"Well believe it, because it is true."
"No it is not. I know who you are Anna, and you are my best friend…my sister…Kristoff's fiancée…the Savior of Summer-"
"I never agreed to that name by the way." Anna stated a phantom smile forming on her face.
Elsa genuinely smiled as she caught the glimpse of that smile, "Yes I know. I remember how you wanted me to issue a royal decree to ban that name from being used."
"Yea and you told me to get over it and 'let it go'." Anna responded using the air quotes as she went over by the couch and sat down, re-hiding her face, "I am a mess aren't I?"
Elsa frowned this time as she took the chair across from the couch, "I wouldn't say mess."
"Then what would you say? Because I am lost Elsa. Seriously, as far as I know I am gone. The Anna you know is really gone." Anna shook her head seeing that Elsa was going to respond and continued, "When I sleep at night, I have nightmares. It plays out like watching two plays and I am an outsider. I see the two lives and I cannot tell what is real and what is fake."
Elsa sits in silence knowing that Anna needs to get this out, "I try to, I really do try and differentiate between the two, but it is hard; especially when I am asleep. It is also worse in that I feel every ounce of pain and suffering in my heart. Like look at me Elsa, seriously look at me and tell me what you see."
Elsa does so and she notices how her sister's face was still a bit pale and what was especially noticeable was the vivid dark circles underneath Anna's eyes. Elsa does what Anna said and tells her all of this, and Anna nods and responds, "I see this every day when I look at my damned mirror in the morning. However it does deeper than just my physical health. I have contemplated my identity since the damn curse broke and I am still no further to the answers than when I started seeing Doctor Shepard." Before Elsa could talk, Anna started listing her questions on her hand, "Am I really a princess? A sister? Commander? Fiancée? A best friend?"
"Yes to all of them." Elsa stated confidently, "You are all those people."
"But I can't feel that Elsa." Anna said with emphasis, "I cannot feel anything."
Elsa moved out of the chair and sat next to Anna. Giving her older sister a questioning look, Elsa took Anna's hand and placed it over her heart, "Feel that?"
"My heart?"
"Yes feel it beating? You are still you. Kristoff and I got your heart back and I know it is in there because Pabbie put it in there. You are feeling, so you do know that the answers are looking for are in there somewhere." Elsa explained softly as she released Anna's hand, "Also you once said when you did not have a heart, you also do not have a soul. Well now you have your heart which means you have a soul. It is the soul of a princess and my sister and my best friend and a lover. Those mean that you have compassion, kindness, and of course undying love. You also have the soul of the Commander. You have leadership, bravery, a strong sense of protectiveness, and utmost loyalty to your country and duties." Elsa explained as she made Anna look her in the eyes, "I will do whatever it takes to make you see that, and I know Olaf and Kristoff will do everything they can as well to make you see that in yourself once more; however you have to let us help you by not shutting yourself in here and doing whatever else you do in here besides downing a bottle of that stuff. Understand?"
Anna nodded and swallowed a lump in her throat, "Yes, thank you Elsa." Anna hugged her sister and Elsa rubbed circles on her back. After a few minutes Anna pulled away and whipped her eyes quick to rid them of the tears that started to fall, "Well enough of that. I know you came here for something besides my well-being…"
"That will always come first Anna, you know that." Elsa replied.
"Yes I know, but you definitely came here for business aside from social. Spill."
"The council is making me go through another coronation." Elsa said as Anna had gotten up to go to her desk once more.
Elsa followed as Anna took her seat and pulled out a new sheet of paper, "Well we need to make it official again. It is protocol, seeing as that rat faced-" Anna stopped herself when she heard Elsa cough and glare at her as she had taken the other seat. Anna coughed and restarted, "seeing as Hans was officially made king and officially abdicated the throne. It is natural."
"It is stupidity." Elsa argued as she sat back as Anna wrote stuff down, "It was a curse that made him king. He had no natural right!"
"Take it from someone that had gone through this and so called 'witnessed' the proceedings," Anna stopped writing and gave her older sister a look, "it was definitely real. It is on the natural records."
"Through a curse." Elsa again pointed out.
Anna did not look up again as she continued writing, "It did not erase itself like everything else did when he casted it, therefore the reason why your reign needs to be re-solidified. Besides do not think of this as protocol per-say," Anna stopped talking as she finished her writing. Once she was done, she looks up at her sister's petulant frown, "Think of it as a start of bringing some type of order back to the kingdom. It is a show for the people that indeed the rightful ruler has returned, and is bringing some peace of mind."
Elsa's frown disappeared, "Rationally I know that, but-"
"You hate large crowds still, I know." Anna said as she pulled out another sheet of paper and began to copy what was already written on the other, "Don't worry it is just for the kingdom. No one from the outside is coming, since as far as they are concerned you were and are still queen."
They sat in silence as Anna finished up. Once she was done, she got up and was followed by Elsa, "Let's take this to your council and then grab lunch. That heart to heart really got me hungry."
Elsa laughed as she linked arms with her sister, "Step one that you are still Anna, your appetite." Anna let out a rare, but true laugh as they walked down the hall. Maybe things were starting to look up after all…