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"What the fuck are you doing here Rachel?" Beca said, still managing to not lose her calm demeanour.
"I'm here to talk to you. I never wanted fo-"
"No. shut the fuck up. Its past midnight and you just turn up at my door supposedly trying to fix things. Who do you think you are?" Beca's temper seemed to half sober her up. From the other side of the room, Chloe could see the fury In Beca's eyes and knew that this could not be good. She felt her heart pounding faster and faster in her chest and was more than ready to stop the brunette lunging at Rachel. For the next few moments she simply watched and listened as the brief conversation unfolded.
"I'm your girlfriend Beca…" Rachel said quietly, looking down at her feet.
"No you're not. How could you even call me that? You cheated on me and left me six months ago for a guy because I was 'too much to handle'. You stabbed me in the back and left. You can't come back here when I'm actually getting over you and just expect me to welcome you with open arms! You ruined me. You made me lower my walls just to raise them twice as high!" Tears where brimming in Beca's eyes now, but she kept her calm angry demeanour towards Rachel. "Now, if you don't mind. I was enjoying a lovely night in with my beautiful girlfriend. So it would be wonderful if you could just fuck off and never try to see me again." With the final words, she slammed the door in the other brunettes face.
Beca stood facing the door in silence for a few moments before turning around and wiping her hands around her eyes to make sure she hadn't actually let a tear fall. From the corner of her vision she caught Chloe staring at her. A look that just speaks "Are you okay?" was covering her face. Beca cleared her throat and walked over to Chloe, who had been standing ever since Beca had closed the door. Beca walked up close to Chloe and they both stood, inches apart, looking at each other.
"You called me your girlfriend…" Chloe choked out, trying not to let herself cry at how broken Beca looked. "Yo-"
"Shhhh." Beca said soothingly, reaching up and bringing one finger onto Chloe's lips. "I want that. I want you. You're amazing and I want to be your girlfriend." Beca moved her and to Chloe's cheek, brushing her thumb over the taller girl's bottom lip. She had her eyes locked on the redhead's for a few moments. Beca started to raise herself up on her toes, bringing her lips less than an inch from Chloe's.
Chloe was fighting an internal battle as not to grab the smaller girl and pull her into a searing kiss. Chloe wanted to completely have Beca, emotionally and most certainly physically. She couldn't help but let her eyes flicker closed at the feeling of Beca's breath against her lips, and then, after a few seconds, the feeling was lost. Chloe immediately opened her eyes to find Beca stood back on her heels with her eyes squeezed shut in what seemed to be a mix of confusion and concentration. Beca was still cupping Chloe's cheek until the older girl brought her own hand up to take Beca's. She lowered the hand to her lips and placed the most gentle of kisses on the brunette's knuckles.
"It's okay. I understand." Chloe said extremely quietly.
"I- I don't know wha- what happened. I was going to kiss you and then I just didn't and I- I want to but…" Beca murmured, still looking down with the confused look on her face. Chloe immediately knew what was happening. Beca was panicking and Chloe was scared. She recognised the look on Beca's face mixed with the way she spoke from the night she found her in the bathroom. She immediately pulled the brunette in for a hug, murmuring calming, softening words as Beca gripped at Chloe's dress.
"I think you should get to bed Beca." Chloe said, eventually breaking the silence that had grown between them.
"I think we should go to bed." Beca said. She was still gripping onto the taller girls dress. Thoughts ran through Chloe's mind about the many different ways she could take what Beca had said, but knew from the sweetness the brunette had uttered the words, that she was vulnerable and just needed to feel safe. So she simply held Beca by the shoulders and pulled her away from her own body. Chloe looked straight into Beca's eyes, let out a small reassuring smile and nodded.
"Okay." She whispered. The two girls walked with no words into the bedroom. They both removed their clothes and changed into their PJ's. Beca and Chloe snuck quick glances at the each other's bodies as they changed. Beca was in awe of Chloe's toned physique, and couldn't seem to take her eyes off the redhead. Even when the older girl had finished getting changed Beca was still locked onto her figure. She was so deep in her trace she didn't really notice her turn around.
"See something you like?" Chloe said in a playfully husky tone, making Beca's face flush crimson as she smirked. Chloe let out a little giggle then made her way to bed.
"Yeah, I think I do." Beca said, playfully winking at the older girl. Beca couldn't help but let herself go around Chloe. She knew that now the redhead was her girlfriend, there were only a few bricks left in the wall to bring down.
After both of the girls had gotten into bed with Chloe spooning Beca like she had a couple nights before, Beca decided to speak up from the silence.
"Chloe please don't interrupt me with what I'm about to say, okay?" Beca said, hesitant. A small squeeze of Beca's hand from the redhead was enough for her to know the Chloe was saying okay. "That was Rachel. She used to be my girlfriend. The first time I let myself get close to someone was with her, and as you probably heard. She cheated on me and then left me. How you saw me the other night was nothing compared to how I used to be and…" Beca's voice wavered and tears pooled in her eyes. "And she couldn't cope with it. She couldn't cope with the stress. So I'm warning you again Chloe, you can leave now if you want… but if you stay I can't promise you it's going to be easy okay?" Chloe gave another reassuring squeeze whilst also pulling Beca closer to her.
"I'm not leaving." Chloe said softly. "Now come on, let's get to sleep okay? You have a class at ten so you need some rest." Beca lightly nodded in reply. Letting a tear drop, but not in sadness, not like the blood in her nightmare, but in happiness. No matter how scared she was of losing Chloe, she was happy that the gorgeous redhead now led behind her, holding her, was there and hopefully there to stay. With a smile on her face and warm arms around her, Beca let herself slip into a calm sleep, and again, in Chloe's arms, her nightmare ceased.
. . .
Over the next few weeks Beca and Chloe spent at least a few hours together every single day. Sometimes they would study together in comfortable silence and at other times Chloe would make Beca sit down and watch a film, which Beca would never admit to actually enjoying in case Jesse found out. It was perfect for both of them. Beca was feeling safer and safer and even though she still had nightmares when Chloe wasn't there, they were more distant.
Everything was getting better.
Beca was getting better.
It was just a Saturday afternoon and Chloe had told the younger girl to pick her up later because she had to help Aubrey out with something. Beca was walking past the coffee shop and was sure she saw the familiar red hair through the window, but she brushed it off as a trick of the light and continued to the shop to pick up some groceries.
On the way back she looked back into the window of the coffee shop and there again was the bright red hair of her girlfriend. Beca kept walking and when the refection of the sun was no longer interfering with her view, she saw not only her girlfriend, but a brunette, with long straight hair. Beca couldn't see the girls face properly but came to only one, horrifying conclusion.
Rachel.
The brunette couldn't help but stare for a while. Chloe broke from her conversation and locked eyes with Beca. Chloe looked between Beca's hurt expression and the brunette in front of her, a look of pure panic fell onto the redhead's face. Beca turned and ran, hiding her tears. She knew exactly what was going to happen to her that evening and she wasn't even partially considering anything else.