Chapter 12

I was lying in my bed in my room crying. I couldn't believe it. I refused to believe it. Aiden can't be gone. I've always told myself that I never needed anybody but I was wrong because I need him. He wouldn't abandon me, yet he did anyways. He left me. He's just like all the rest. Mom, Dad, Carla, and now he left me here to suffer!

Suddenly, rage took over my thoughts. How could they! I thought they loved me! They never cared about me. All of them wanted to hurt me! They just wanted to get close to me so that I would trust them. Then, they would cause me pain!

I got so angry I started tearing apart my apartment room. I ripped the pillows, broke the lamps, and shattered the dishes.

I was about to break the mirror but I hesitated.

"No!" I told by reflection, "They loved you."

"Lies!" I yelled back, "All they ever wanted to do was cause me pain!"

I began to cry, "They would never do such a thing! They were always on your side and only wished the best for you!"

"They never cared about me!"

"SHUT UP!" I threw the mirror on the ground and it shattered into a thousand pieces.

I began to cry once more.

I needed him back. That's all I need. I would give anything just to see him once more! He meant everything to me. He can't just leave like that! I need him back! I just wish that I could see him once more… I wish… Then, it hit me. The words my mother told me, that one-day at the park after Dad died, rushed through my head.

"Mom, what are you doing?"

She turned her head back to me, "Finding a four leaf clover!"

"Why?" I asked."

My mom looked at me with hope in her eyes, "Don't you know? If you find a four leaf clover, you get a wish."

All I have to do is find a four leafs clover! If I find one, I could make my wish and I could get him back!

I ran out of my apartment and went to the park. I leaped to the first clover patch I saw and began to pluck them out one handful at a time in attempt to find one.

I just need a clover. One clover. That will bring him back! Just one clover! Tears began to stream down my face as I found nothing.

I began to yell, "How!? How is it that I can never find one!?"

People began to look at me.

I cried even louder, "Why must life be so unfair! Sometimes it's just like we're fighting so, so hard and what do we get? One bad hand and it's all over!"

I sobbed and sobbed. Alone. Like always. I am alone.

Within a year, I felt no happiness. Pain was all I could feel. I turned bitter over time. My tumour got worse over the year and began to mess with my thoughts and my personality. I remember the Doctor told me that it was in my frontal lobe, which is the part that controls your personality.

I was at the bar working, as always, when something caught my eye. It was a group of people, named the Teen Titans. Apparently, they just stopped a giant blob of purple goo from destroying Jump City. I didn't really care much for the details because the way the green one looked at the one with the blue hood kept bugging me. I could tell that he cared for her. No. More than that. He loves her. Yet, she doesn't even notice how he feels? How could she be wasting love like that? She doesn't even seem to care! I have to do something to stop this nonsense.

My personality altered, and I changed my identity. I was no longer Malerie, a weak and pathetic girl. I became Meckenna, a strong and ruthless woman.

I need no one.