There are reasons – good ones – for the fact that she refuses to go into the field anymore. She knows what they say about her, that even though she used to be one of the best agents to get into the field, she had lost her nerve completely after what had happened.
She's more than happy to let them believe that. She can still function just as well as always in the field, she knows that better than anyone, but she's not ready to lose another team. She's not ready to let herself care.
When Coulson approaches her, offering her a new job, one that takes her away from her desk and fortress of protection that she's built, her reaction is visceral. She cannot let herself be put in that position again.
But Phil Coulson isn't known as the best handler in S.H.I.E.L.D for nothing. He pushes and pokes at her, until there's no way she can continue to argue. So she agrees – she'll fly the bus for her, just like he asked, but she won't step into the field. She won't do that again – there's nothing that builds bonds between a team more than fighting together.
And then they're called to Peru to track a 0-8-4, and there's no way she can stay away. Not when they need her.
Because as much as she's tried to fight, it had only taken her one mission to get attached all over again. No matter how much she protests, she knows that this is her team now, and she's not about to let anything happen to them.
A/N: I have no idea why May was so unwilling to be part of a team, but there has to be something to it. This is just my shot in the dark :)
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