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Chapter 2

"I'm really sorry, Spencer. This is nothing like I imagined this to be… I hope you understand, it needed to be said."

Spencer can hear his fath… no, William Reid, a stranger. He can hear him talking, his words confused in his hears, he guesses he's shocked; not surprising after a revelation of this kind.

"You're sorry?" He asks. He can't think properly. "Don't you think you should have told me this earlier? I don't understand…" He hugs his own legs harder, he closes his eyes and tries to concentrate.

"Spencer, I… We couldn't tell you. I don't even think your… Diana remembered it anymore. I realize it must be a shock for you, I really don't know what to say to make you feel better."

He can hear William sighing on the phone.

"Feel better?" He laughs, "Do you really think there is anything that could make me feel better right now?"

"No, I guess, no. Spencer, you know Diana always loved you, she never loved you less for this!"

This is so surreal. "But you did, didn't you? Is that the real reason why you left? It must have been easier leaving me behind."

"No, Spencer! No! I really loved you, you were like my son… I just. Life was just so hard… with Diana's illness and everything. I couldn't stand for you to live like that, it wasn't fair, but I couldn't possibly take you away from her. I just, I took the coward way out."

"You couldn't take me away? What are you talking about! We could have dealt with the situation in another way… you left me alone with her, I had no idea what to do! Genius or not, I was only a child! Taking care of her shouldn't have been my responsibility!"

He knows he's shouting now, he just feels so angry and betrayed, like it's all happening once again. Another bomb is being dropped over his head and he has no idea on how to cope.

"Spencer, there was no way out of it. You weren't… you weren't with us in a… legal way."

Spencer frowns, breath still labored from the shouting. "Legal way? Explain yourself, please." He tries to ignore the way his eyes are starting to water, swiping at them quickly with his sleeve. "This is… there is nothing that could make this any worse."

"Ok, I'm going to tell you what happened. Just, let me finish before saying anything. Diana was already sick, back then. She wasn't so bad, yet, but she had her episodes. She would go out and walk around aimlessly, night and day.

Once, she stayed out almost all night, I woke up in the middle of the night and she wasn't there. I waited and waited.

She arrived back home around five in the morning, she had… well, she had you in her arms. Just a baby, maybe one year old, wrapped up in her coat. Your vest was bloody, but you were ok, sleeping. I tried to ask her where she had found you, what happened… but she wasn't lucid. I wanted to call the police, but… I was afraid she had done something bad… I loved her so much, Spencer, you have to understand! I didn't know what to do.

The day after it was all over the news, a young teenage girl, found dead in the park… the way Diana reacted, I knew it was there she found you. I… don't think she hurt that girl… she just found you and… she was just helping. But she was sick, the police, they wouldn't have understood… so we just… from that moment you were ours. I know it was illegal, we just thought it would be the best solution for everyone… We always wanted a child and you were alone, I thought it was for the best."

"Oh, God…" Spencer breath hitches; He can see black spots in front of his eyes. This is… this is too much!

He interrupts the connection quickly without another word. All his life, everything he always knew about himself and his family… none of that was ever real.

He just sits there staring at the wall for a long time. He doesn't think the tightness in his chest will ever go away.

Spencer spends the rest of the day numb, too many thoughts circling in his head. He can't stop thinking about her, Diana. He doesn't know if he should still think of her as his mother, that worries him.

She surely did something illegal and even if his father didn't believed it at the time, she still could have done something to his real mother. God.

He can't help thinking that maybe his life could have been better, who knows?

They're both dead now, Diana and his biologic mother. He wants to know more but, what's the point? The truth might hurt him more. Knowledge isn't always a blessing.

He looks at the sky getting darker. Spencer sighs and decides to go to sleep, or at least try. He's not in a hurry to make a decision, he'll think about it tomorrow, maybe going to work will help him clear his mind.

He closes his eyes and lets his thoughts drift.

tbc