Chapter 5
BPOV
I broke down after Edward left me in the room. I cant believe I did that. This is all my fault. I should've told Jasper to get out instead of saying that I have been having the same thoughts as him. God, I'm suppose to be getting married to Edward and then this happens. He must hate me, even if he doesn't no one can hate me more that I hate myself right now.
A knock at the door interrupted my thoughts. I got up to go answer it not trusting my voice right now. I opened the door and it was Alice on the other side of the threshold. I didn't even think I just automatically ran into her arms. She hesitated but she hugged me back.
I cried into her shoulder as she cried into stayed like that until or tears stopped coming. Alice and I sat down on the bed and I started to tell her how sorry I was when she cut me off. She got up and started pacing the room.
"I didn't see this coming Bella and it hurts more than you could possibly know. Knowing that your husband has been having conflicting feelings for your best friend and almost your sister-in-law is a hard thing to over come nonetheless deal with." she paused before continuing," I just want to know one thing Bella. I'm not mad at you. I'm not even mad at Jasper, disappointed and hurt yes but, not mad. No one can control how they feel about a person, you and Edward are a perfect example of that. So I wanna know if you have been having the same thoughts as Jasper but about him?" she asked me.
I didn't know what to tell her. She's not mad at me so should I tell her the truth rather than lie to her to make her feel better. These thoughts were swimming in a hurricane of confusion in my heard, which one will get to shore. I don't want to hurt anybody else so I quickly answered her question."Yes, I have had some of those thoughts toward Jasper. I never meant anything by them. I just thought it was normal since he has been so nice to me and using his power on me. I simply ignored these feelings. But Alice I swear to you would never intentionally hurt you or Edward. I don't even know what I feel for him" I confessed to just sat there quietly listening to what I had to say taking it all in.
I hope I convinced her that I really didn't mean to cause all this trouble and that I truly was sorry. She absorbed what I just said and looked deep in thought."I just have one question for you, Bella. Answer me truthfully please. Do you love Jasper?" She asked me. She doesn't realize that she is the second person to ask me that.
I quickly think it over and then answer her truthfully like she said. " I don't know, Alice" I whispered. I knew that she heard me though. She sighed and then said and I just talked about how our talks went with both Edward and Jasper. We also talked about how we were going to resolve this, because knowing Edward he is probably furious right now. So Alice and I decided we should all talk. Me, Alice, Jasper, and should at least try and talk it out among ourselves first.
Once me and Alice thought this was a good idea. We set out to go find Edward and followed there scent all the way to the woods and found them talking, more like arguing by an oak tree about a mile ahead of us. When we got close I heard Jasper say something about he didn't mean anything by Edward saying something about using me.
Automatically tears stung my eyes threatening to spill over as we approached the two men. Jasper and Edward both looked at me and all I saw was red for he using me? Did he lie about feeling something for me? Then heard a huge BAM! And realized it was Edward's fist slamming into Jasper's jaw. Here we go