Chapter 12

JPOV(

Jasper not Jason)

I stood up against the wall in the living room thinking why in the world we just welcomed Jason in the family? We knew nothing about him except that he has the hot for Bella. I mean I can't blame him. I just don't understand why we welcomed him so quickly. I voted no because I believe we should learn more about him and his last thing we need around here is another suitor for , as far as I can tell is intrigued by our newcomer. I don't know how that will effect her decision.

Speaking of decision I find myself thinking about how maybe I misinterpreted my feelings for they were just brotherly feelings and I took them too far. I know I told Bella I have feelings for her but I still love Alice too. I need to get my feelings straight before I do or say anything to I should go back to Alice, and try to fix our marriage before I destroy it any further. Alice doesn't deserve the pain I'm putting her through, but if I run back to Alice Bella will think all that I said to her was a lie. What I said to Bella wasn't a lie; I'm just not so sure it was the truth now.I have competition when it comes to trying to win Bella's heart. I'm going up against my brother and a filthy dog. Plus the mysterious backstreet boy we just recruited. I don't like how the odds are looking. Neither do I like that Jason kid.

An idea started to form in my head as I stand against the wall peering into everyone's feeling about our new "bro", Jason. I figured since most of the women and Carlisle like Jason, then it wouldn't hurt if we took Jason on a little camping the guys and Jake with Jason out in the middle of the woods hunting and playing games. This way I can figure out his emotions while on the trip and Edward can see what's going on in his if things get rough we can use Emmett's' strength.

I think maybe Carlisle should stay home with the girls and let Jason get used to his brothers and our pet, all I have to do is get the guys on board and let everyone know the plan.I leaned forward to stand up straight and support my own wait. I headed towards Carlisle and told him about our plans. I ran through the activities we had in store for our trip. I might have lied or exaggerated a bit but I don't think Carlisle noticed.

"Sounds interesting. Now your brothers and Jake will be accompanying you?" Carlisle asked. He scrutinized me, like he could tell I was keeping something from him. I silently prayed that he would overlook it and let us proceed with our trip.

"Yes "I nodded, "That is the plan. I thought it would be a good idea for him to get acquainted with the rest of us since he already talked to you. The girls will have plenty of time to get to know him while he is here" I informed him. I could tell Carlisle was suspicious of our intention because during the voting Edward, Jake, and me all voted no for Jason to join us.

"I suppose that would be a good experience for him. Jasper you make sure your brothers and Jake go easy on him, okay?" Carlisle said.

I could feel the right side of my lip move up in a sly smile, "We will, Carlisle. Don't worry about it" I said and walked off to go inform the guys about the plan who were all in the living was playing video games, like usual. Jake was pacing trying to keep calm I suppose. Edward stayed planted in the love seat in deep thought, or he could be listening to the girls with Jake upstairs.

"Hey guys" I said cheerfully, they all turned at the sound of my voice. "What do you say to a camping trip? All of us and our new brother, Jason" I said with a sly smile.I let Edward read my thoughts about what I had in plan. He looked at me then looked at Jake and Emmett making sure they got the message.

"I'm in" they all said in unison. My smile got bigger."Welcome to the Cullen family, Jason" This should be fun.

Jason POV

Esme showed me my room; I assumed it was the guest room at first. Seeing as how it has its very elegant and welcoming.

"This will be your room and you can change it up and make it fit you like all the others. I asked them what they wanted and decorated it for them. I would be delighted to do the same with you if you asked me too" she said to me as I gazed at the room.

"I would love that Esme, I really would" I said and went over to the door frame where she stood and hugged was surprised by the action but quickly replied by rapping her arms around me and strokes my head. I can honestly say she is the first recall mother or motherly affection I have had.

"Your welcome, sweetie. You're apart the family now" she said. I released her then. She smiled at me and then left the room so that I could get used to the room.I sprawled out on the bed feeling at home, finally. I felt loved and wanted here. Well wanted by the woman and a couple of the guys here. I think the others don't really care for me. That's ashamed but I'm just glad to finally have somewhere to call home and people to call family.I was on the bed thinking about how wonderful it feels to be able to have my own room. I slowly started to think about my life before I found the Cullen's and how awful it was. My personal hell.

Flashback:

I was back in Alaska with my old coven. I was with the man who made me, who turned my future around.

"Jason when it comes to feeding you will kill. Only the weak feed off of squirrels and monkeys." Kyle yelled at me. Kyle was my maker. He was nomad and a hunter before he was turned. He loves the excitement of the kill. Kyle never understood why I wanted to leave humans alone and just feed of f of animals instead.

"I went out and got you a nice girl" he threw a girl who looked about 15 in my face. I knew I had a would given in if they were young girls that look like my put me in a cell when I didn't do as he asked. Everyday he would tempt me or torture me into killing a human he brought. At first he brought the elderly figuring if they were old and couldn't help themselves that I would put them out of there misery. I didn't.I wanted to feed in a way that didn't harm humans.

Kyle was hunting one day in my town. I lived in a cabin with my mom and sister after my dad died. This was before Kyle turned me.I was out gathering firewood and when I came home, I find my sister bloody and dead and mom limp in Kyle's arms. When Kyle saw me he charged at me fast and I didn't even know what was happening until I heard his voice through the burning sensations I since then I have been in the cell he kept me in. I got away when Kyle came in to check on me, I figured if I played dead I could bite his neck and make him weak so that I could kill him and set myself free from him plan went perfectly and once Kyle was dead I ran away from that terrible place to start a new of life.

I shook away the painfully memory. That's not my life anymore. I can't change the past, but I can write the future.I took out the old wrinkled picture of my mom, my sister, and me from when I was human. The only think I had to help me remember them.I heard a knock at the door and sprang up from the bed to see who it was. I stood up and walked over to the open the door, I didn't realize Esme closed it when she left. In front of my door were all the guys except Carlisle.

"Hi guys, how can I help you?"

I asked, not knowing what they want or why they are in front of my spoke fist with a goofy smile on his face, "We figured since your gonna be apart of the family you should get to know your brothers. So we thought we would take you on a little trip with just us guys" he stated.

I raised my eyebrow, wondering if they are serious, "Really? What kind of trip, exactly?" I asked.

"A camping trip, short bus. You in or not?" asked the tanned one who smelled like a dog.

"Yea" I nodded. "I'm in" I stated with confidents to show that I wasn't intimidated. This was a bit of a lie. These guys have something up there sleeves, I know it.

"Great, lets go camping" said Jasper. Myself and my new brothers on a camping trip out of hearing range.

Great... not!