Saturdays were very peaceful day for Snape. These days he could spend most of the day to himself, and he would not have to put up with insufferable students especially from Gryffindor. This Saturday was not as enjoyable from the others. Even though he was alone his mind dwelled on Maria's dream visit was ringing in his ear like a mad bee.

"Be nice to Potter."

Snape scoffed, even if he wanted to be nicer, he couldn't bear to tell Harry about the terrible past he lived. There was a knock on his door.

"Who is it?"

"Severus. Open the door."

McGonagall sounded worried, but He answered without argument.

"I haven't seen you all day. You are usually in the teachers' lounge. Are you alright?"

Snape rolled his eyes as he sat down on his bed.

"I perfectly fine Minevera."

She sat next to him.

"Professor Dumbledore asked me to keep an eye on you while he is gone."

"He did, did he?"

Minevera saw Snape was holding something back. She could tell by the way he was rubbing his temples.

"Severus, is there something you would like to tell me?"

He looked at her wishing she had to rush off somewhere.

"Well yes…"

Snape took a deep breath and let out a sigh, and a tear fell from his eye.

"Last night my sister came to me in my dream, and I just miss her."

Snape fell into the pillow as tears fell silently from his black eyes. McGonagall was shocked at this.

"Severus what's wrong, maybe I should take you to Madam Pomfrey, and get you a antidepressant potion."

"It won't work Minevera, I take one every single day once in the morning and once at night. It doesn't help me at all. I always wake up and fall to sleep with tears. Most nights I don't even get a second of sleep."

McGonagall lade a hand on Snape's shoulder.

"Is there anything I can do?"

"Yes… Can you take over my classes for awhile? I need to sleep, desperately."

She nodded.

"Anything else you would like me to do?"

"Just tell Mr. Potter that I will need to speak with him sometime soon."

"Sure thing."

McGonagall stood up and made her way to the door, she knew Snape needed help, he usually called Harry, Potter, she never heard him call him Mr.

"Minevera, can you not tell anyone why I am incapable of teaching please. Oh, and Harry's Glasses are still in my office desk I accidently broke them."

Minevera left as Snape turned over and hid his face in his pillow and silent let all his sorrows out into his pillow.

"Why did you have to go Maria? Why!? What am I suppose to do!?"

Snape tears never seemed to end; it was almost nine hours before he got up to take a sleeping potion, which was right next to a picture of Maria holding her baby girl 'Jessica' who had long black hair and baby blue eyes. Snape grabbed the picture and the sleeping potion, and fell into his bed he took a sip of the potion and placed it on his bedside table, he looked at the picture. Jessica let out an adorable little giggle, but not even her cuteness could make him smile now. He wished he knew where she had run off too. She was a student, a Slytherin, the one Slytherin who actually cared about him. His snakes liked him but never really cared, but he had betrayed Jessica's trust. As sleep fell over him, the terrible memories of that fateful night crept up on him.

(Memory)

"What could she be so reluctant to tell me?"

He was pacing his office like a mad man. Jessica didn't show up for potions for the past twelve days and every time he tried to confront her about it she would slip away. This was the final straw, he had to find out. Jessica slept in a room Snape made for her comfort so he could keep an eye on her and she wouldn't have to endure the snide remarks the other Slytherin girls constantly taunted her with.

He proceeded into her room. It was quit hard for Snape to find where she was sleeping, not only because Jessica could find anyplace in her room to fall to sleep, but like him Jessica loved black. Her carpet was black, her walls were black her bed spread was also black. If it wasn't for a magical window letting in moon light Snape wouldn't been able to find Jessica at all.

He could have lit the room with his wand but he didn't dare wake her up, especially tonight. It was a full moon, and Jessica was a special breed of werewolf, another reason she had her own special room at Hogwarts. Instead of changing every full moon, Jessica changed with her anger. She had mastered how to control it, but Snape never would risk it. He was standing over her. She was curled up and sleeping peacefully. Snape pointed his wand at her.

"Lagintamense."

Snape saw flashes of Jessica memories, but one caught his eye. Jessica was walking along the hall way. She looked a little worried. A tall Slytherin boy with red hair and green eye, in his seventh year had grabbed her by the arm.

"Hey Skellington what are you doing out so late?"

Skellington was her last name, even though her real father was Sirius Black.

"Nothing Jack Napper I was just heading back to my room."

Snape didn't like the way he smiled.

"Last time I checked this wasn't the way to the common room. Looks like you're in trouble."

"Severus told me I'm supposed to sleep in the room he provided for me."

Jack started to pull Jessica back down the hall.

"So you are on first name basics now. I am going to have to punish you."

"For what?"

"For trying to seduce a teacher."

Jessica was trying hard to pull her arm away but she couldn't escape.

"Severus is my uncle Napper!"

Snape fallowed them down the hall. He thought they we going to his office, but he soon found out that they were heading to the forbidden forest.

"Where are we going Jack?!"

"I was suppose to meet my friends. You'll be a big surprise for them."

It took a short while for them to get to a opening in the woods where a group of seven year Slytherins stood waiting , what happened next was to horrible for Snape to witness. They started to push Jessica to one another. Jessica yelled for them to stop, but they laughed, till one Slytherin tripped her.

"Okay boys. Who's ready for some real fun?"

The gang laughed as Jack fell to his knees and climbed over Jessica and started to unbutton her blouse. Snape gaped at the sight of this. Jessica's screams painfully filled his ears, as the memory went foggy, what happened next Snape never found out. He was stumbling backwards into Jessica's dresser, before Snape could gain balance; he was grabbed by the arm and thrown onto the floor.

"How dare you! Tu, tu traidor! I trusted you! You said you would never invade my privacy! How could you do this to me I thought you were different!"

Jessica's eye's had lost the sparkly blue, and was replaced by glowing murderess red

."Jessica please I was worried about…"

Snape was then thrown agents the wall then was soon forced onto the floor, by a very powerful slap.

"Oh yes lets all worry about little Jessie she obviously can't take care of herself! She needs someone to watch over her! Newsflash Snivilus!"

She never called him that name before.

"I don't need protection; I don't need help to fight my own battles, AND I DON'T NEED YOU!"

"Jessica please I only wanted to help…"

Another painful slap meets Snape, but this one was a scratch. This made Snape grab his cheek in pain, he looked up at Jessica in shock and to find her eye were still glowing in the dark room.

"Painful isn't, it's a special nail potion I made. Remember when Luscious kidnapped me. Well while I was escaping, I fell into his poison pit, all the scorpions, snakes and spiders bit me, luckily for me I woke up in the hospital and I found out that I had a special ability. I had a venoms bite. So I mixed some nail polish with my venom and made a new undetectable weapon."

Jessica suddenly grabbed Snape by the front of his robes he was forced to look into Jessica's red hellish eyes.

"And the boys who you saw they never bother me again! I left them a message they would not soon forget."

She showed Snape her nails the tips we're red. She grabbed him by the back of night making sure she got a good chuck of hair.

"Now Snivilus, Get out of my life, and stay out."

Snape was forced out of the room as the door slammed behind him. He got up and listened into the door. Soft sobs were all that could be heard. A huge pit of guilt filled his chest, and his heart broke. It wasn't her memory that made him feel this awful pain; it was the fact that he had hurt her more by betraying her trust. If he hadn't barged into her memories, she would of eventually came to him for comfort but the chances of that happening again was next to impossible now.

(End of memory)

Snape eyes shot open with tears once again in his eyes. He looked at the clock and saw it had only been thirty minutes, he let out a grown of deep frustration, as he rubbed the back of his head. He felt his greasy hair between his fingers; he desperately needed to wash it soon.

"How could I have been that foolish? Do I deserve to feel this way? Of course you do Sev."

Snape took a large sip of the sleeping potion, and placed it back at his bed side. He laid his head on his pillow trying to think of more pleasant things, it was quite hard to find one that had a terrible memory to it and once Snape found one he had a splitting head ach.