Inception n a rainy night

Chapter 6

Disclaimer: Twilight and its characters belong to Stephanie Meyer.

JPOV:

I lay in bed, quietly holding my girl in my arms as she slept. I had no shame in admitting that I was a coward. Yes, the creature that instills fear in the heart of the strongest creatures on the planet, the God of war, was a coward. Scared of one mortal girl, who had the power to shatter his heart of stone by a single disdainful curl of her lips.

Shit! Now I was beginning to sound like an 18th century writer.

I pulled Bella close to me, burying my face in her hair, breathing in her scent. I knew she would be cold, I knew I should wrap her up in the comforter, keep her away from my cold, dead skin, but I was a selfish creature. I needed to feel her warmth, her softness against my skin. I needed to know she was close to me. She had stirred three times since I had smuggled her out of that dingy bar and brought her home. All three times, I had sent her a dose of lethargy to keep her from waking up. I couldn't face her yet. Not after the brutal way in which I had claimed her in a semi-public location.

I had screwed up, badly.

I placed my hand on her bottom, still slightly pink from where the rough wood had abraded her delicate skin. She squirmed slightly and I stiffened, afraid I had woken her up, but she just snuggled into me and continued to sleep as a soft sigh left her lips. I hated myself for having hurt my Bella, all the more because the animal within me continued to purr at the proof of my dominance over her and how she had accepted it.

My girl was so remarkable, she not only didn't run when she discovered what I was, but also showed me affection. Affection, that I was sure would no longer be granted after what I had done.

Downstairs, I heard my mobile ping, indicating another message had been received. That was the forty-sixth message I had received in the last two hours that I had been home.

Damn that pixie!

I didn't want to pick up, but I knew I needed her help. Unfortunately, I also knew the lecture that was coming and I was not looking forward to it. Besides, to get to the phone, I would need to leave Bella, and the thought of loosing her warmth, even for a second, made me ache. But then I noticed the goose bumps on her body, showing clearly it was time that I wrapped her up safely. With a heavy heart, I gently pulled myself away from her and tucked her into the warm comforter. I as moved downstairs, I stoked the fire in the fireplace, and added some wood to it hoping it would warm up Bella faster.

The phone began to ring before I reached the last stair. Quickly, I picked it up hoping Bella wouldn't be disturbed by it.

On the other end, I heard nothing. Absolutely nothing. It would be so like Alice to start ranting and raving as soon as I picked up the phone, but her silence unnerved me.

"Alice," I said as calmly as I could.

That triggered the deluge.

"You moron! You absolutely fucked up little piece of shit!" she hissed, even as I heard Esme's admonishing words in the background on her choice of words. I took the blame for the deterioration of her vocabulary; five decades with me had rubbed off on her.

"Do you have any idea, any idea at all of how close you came to hurting her?" she shrieked. " I saw you, saw you holding a bloody Bella as you rushed her to the hospital! Do you want to kill her? Because if the answer's yes, there are more merciful ways of doing it. Fucking someone to the point of death might sound good in a book, but you really don't want that to turn into a reality with your mate, do you?"

A growl escaped my chest as she blatantly mentioned me killing my Bella. That would never happen, I had sworn to that. I could never let anyone, myself included, hurt her.

"You would have pulverized her pelvis, you wouldn't even have been able to explain her injuries to a doctor!" she continued to shout.

I reigned in my temper as I took a deep breath. She had no right to talk to me like that after what she'd done to me. It was time I reminded her of that.

"Nothing of the sort happened, Alice. I would never hurt my mate, the woman I love deliberately." I knew it was a low shot, but she needed to know I hadn't forgiven her, I didn't think I could ever possibly completely forgive her.

"Jasper," her voice sounded pained and I heard the apology in that one word, but I needed time before I could even begin to forgive her. I had made as much clear to her.

"What did you need to talk to me for?" I asked instead of rehashing the same old topic.

"You need to tell her, as quickly as you can. Before she goes to College on Monday. Even her innocent actions will set you off Jasper; you need to take this seriously. It has not yet hit you completely, but you are going to get increasingly possessive of her. Trust me, you'll need all the help she can offer to be able to stay in control."

I could clearly hear what she wasn't telling me. She'd had a vision of me, doing something obviously terrible.

"What did you see?" I asked her through clenched teeth.

"Nothing that can't be changed, Jazz. I am going to wait till you tell her, so that I can see how that changes things, if it still doesn't change the future, we'll think of something else."

"Did I hurt her?" I asked in a voice so low, I was unsure if Alice had heard.

"No, Jasper. I know you could never willingly hurt her. She's your mate, technically that makes it impossible for you to hurt her deliberately, but you need to understand that the dynamics of your relationship are very different compared to other mated vampires. She's human, but that doesn't change your mating instincts. You'll want to dominate her and you'll expect her to submit. When that doesn't happen, you will get rough with her and while it doesn't matter to mated vampires, you will hurt her in the process."

"I already hurt her," I said thinking of her bruised bottom.

"I can't tell you how she's going to react to that. She hasn't made up her mind and if you don't want her to get the wrong impression, you need to come clean with her. Explain to her what being a mate constitutes, tell her how your relationship is going to be a lot more strained due to the difference in your… species," she said as I snorted.

Carlisle always insisted that we were a different human species, closely related, just infinitely superior in some areas. I knew because of my talent that though he may say so, he felt no pleasure at belonging to this particular group.

"How can I explain everything to her when I myself don't understand the phenomenon clearly? I've never felt it before," I blurted out and the next instant I realized my mistake. It must have hurt her, but she was the one who'd known that we weren't mates from the beginning of our relationship. I decided to continue as if I hadn't noticed what I had said.

"And there are too many variables, when was the last recorded case of a vampire mating with a human? I asked.

"Eight hundred and sixty three years ago," came Carlisle's voice from the background. I knew he'd been researching my situation relentlessly since the day I had set my eyes on Bella and called him up frantically. I had been completely bewildered. Her blood called to me like no other had and yet, I had felt no thirst. It was impossible to explain. My throat burned, but I couldn't bear the thought drinking from her, hurting her, killing her.

I had wanted to pick her up from the crowded classroom and keep her a safe distance from all those hormonal boys in the class. I wanted her to see only me, hear me, touch me… me, me, me! I had wanted her so bad that even today when I think of it, I can't understand how I had controlled myself.

"That's it!" Alice screamed. "It's perfect," she continued as she started babbling at a speed difficult even for my vampire hearing.

"What are you talking about?" I asked, irritated to no end with her antics. I couldn't believe I had once found such behavior endearing.

"I was just thinking about how Carlisle was the one with maximum knowledge about vampire mating and then the vision stuck me. Carlisle needs to come over there tomorrow so he can talk to the both of you and explain things clearly to Bella. And it's not that I don't want you telling her yourself, it's just that you'll let either your or her emotions get in the way and that conversation is going to go around in circles and you're not going to get anywhere," she huffed.

"Jasper, would you mind if I came over to talk to the two of you?" asked Carlisle, and a growl ripped through my chest before I realized it. As soon as I realized what I had done, I apologized.

"I'm sorry Carlisle, I don't know what came over me."

He chuckled to my surprise. "It was just as I had expected, Jasper. You perceive me as a threat to your mate. Not just me, any vampire will make your mating instincts heighten. It is not so strong towards humans, though from what Alice described, you came pretty close to losing it towards a human yesterday," he said and I could hear the smile in his voice.

"He was putting his hands all over her," I defended.

Now he laughed out loud and I could hear chuckles and snorts coming from the rest of the family members.

"Don't blame yourself, Jasper. It's completely normal, in fact I am extremely proud of the fact that that boy is still alive."

"I had some help from Alice," I grudgingly admitted.

If she hadn't seen what was about to happen and called me up, screaming in my ears for a good twenty five minutes, threatening me with all sorts of scenarios where Bella would never want to see my face again, I probably would have given into my instincts and ripped that piece of shit apart.

Nobody messed with my girl.

"If it makes you uncomfortable, I am sure we can arrange a video conference where we can talk to each other. I do not want to stress you unnecessarily."

I thought about it but if I needed to learn how to stay in control, Carlisle was by far the best person I could start with. He had an air of complete ease about him and I figured while it may make me uncomfortable, his visit would be helpful in the long run.

"Do you think you could come here tomorrow? I would really like to do this face to face," I told him.

"I think you are making the right choice son, I'm proud of you. Also, I can't wait to meet Bella. From what Alice tells me, she's an amazing creature," he said.

"I'm sorry you have to do this on such short notice…" I trailed of but Alice interrupted immediately.

"Oh don't worry about that Jazz, it'll only take him about an hour and a half to reach there."

Alarm bells started going off in my head at her words. "Alice, where exactly are you at the moment?" I asked, dreading her answer.

"Oh we didn't tell you Jasper, we didn't want to burden you any more, but we moved about four weeks ago," she said in dulcet tones. I knew there wasn't an ounce of innocence in that sweet honey voice.

"What did you do?" I hissed. " I told you to stop meddling in my affairs."

"Oh don't go all emo vamp on me Jazz," she said carelessly. "You are going to thank me later on."

"Where did you move?" I asked impatiently.

"Forks, Washington."

A/N: Sorry it took me so long to get this chapter done. I hope it cleared a few things about the background.

An important thing, I am sure you have noticed that I've used more profanities in this chapter than I have ever used before. I have read several B/J fics before and know that I loved most of them. A lot of them have influenced my thoughts and that'll probably show as we move forward in this story. Most of them have excessive use of profanities, something I don't agree with or am comfortable with. Call me a prude if you want to, but my writing will never be needlessly peppered with profanities. I'll use them when the situation really calls for them, and even then I'll try to limit their use. I am a big advocate of using verbal filters.

With that done, what do you think of Jasper and Alice's relationship? And what will happen in future?

Up next, Carlisle visits Bella and Jasper. Will Jasper be able to control himself? And how will Bella react to Vampire mating 101? Let me know what you think.

Thanks for all your love and support.

Hugs,

KT.