I would've posted this before TBBT but I had a lot of stuff to do. So, here it is now. Did you guys enjoy the show?
DISCLAIMER: I guess I own Danielle. Cool.
I'm very sorry, but it seems like you won't be able to have children.
I'm very sorry, but it seems like you won't be able to have children.
I'm very sorry, but it seems like you won't be able to have children.
Won't be able to have children.
As Penny woke up, her pillow still wet from how hard she'd been crying the night before, the words the nurse had given her still rung in her mind. Penny had never really thought about this possibility before. It was true she'd had late periods or ones that hadn't even come at all, but she'd simply assumed all those pregnancy scares were just because she was promiscuous. But no, it was because she couldn't have kids.
They'd said something was wrong with her eggs – they'd used some big, fancy name for it Penny couldn't remember. She'd heard that she was infertile and zoned out. Just an hour before, she'd been preparing herself to welcome a child into the world, and now they were telling her she'd never be able to do that? Not only was she not pregnant now, she never would be. It hit her a million times harder than she ever thought it would.
Leonard's side of the bed was still warm – he hadn't left too long ago. Penny rolled over, looking at the clock, and saw it was just past eight am. There was a small piece of paper tucked under her alarm, and Penny picked it up, opening the note.
Stay strong.
-L
She'd fallen asleep last night in his arms, both of them crying, her even harder than him for once. They'd spent all night like that, just wallowing in their sorrow together.
They couldn't ever have a baby together, and that devastated both of them.
They wouldn't have any smart and beautiful babies.
It seemed to take days for that news to take full effect, even though it was only about twenty four hours. He'd never have babies with Penny's looks and his brains, their love would never be able to create life. He loved her more than anything, and they'd never be able to have a child. Try as they might, they couldn't. That door has already been closed for them.
Leonard took the steps two at a time, trying to think of other things, but he couldn't. He probably should've stayed home today, Penny needed him, but he knew if he did he wouldn't be able to stop thinking about the news. Even though he'd tried to run away from it, he couldn't. His mind was still racing, trying to process the fact he'd most likely never be a father.
They could adopt, he knew that. He also knew he probably sounded so selfish for thinking this, but it wouldn't be the same. He'd dreamed of green eyed babies that looked like Penny since the day he met her. He'd indulged in fantasies of telling her she was beautiful as her belly grew, and holding her hand while she gave birth, and counting tiny fingers and toes in a hospital room. And now all of that has been oh so cruelly yanked away from him.
They don't prepare you for this.
"So," Danielle said, resting her chin in her hand. "Dr.-Raj," She corrected herself, remembering his instructions to call him by his first name. "What else do you like besides astrophysics?"
Raj was currently having lunch with her, sitting across from her at a Cheesecake Factory table. So far, everything had gone smoothly, and she'd listened, fascinated, as he talked about his theories for almost a half an hour.
"Hmmm," Raj said, thinking. "I do enjoy a good Sandra Bullock movie."
Danielle's face brightened. "Me too!"
"She's a real gem, isn't she?"
"Quite!"
Raj continued to think. "Umm, doing the vocals in Rock Band…"
"Ooh!" Danielle chimed in. "We must duet some time! Go on, go on."
"…and Eat, Pray, Love definitely changed my life."
Danielle nearly choked on her iced tea. "You're kidding! Mine too!"
"Isn't it admirable how Elizabeth found happiness in her life after her divorce?" Raj said.
"It is," Danielle replied, twirling a strand of dark hair around her finger. "It gave me a lot of strength to deal with my own love life."
"You?" Raj asked. "You're a pretty girl, Danielle. Don't guys ask you out all the time?"
Danielle's face faltered, and then she shrugged. "Sometimes. A lot of them turned out to be jerks though. It's really hard to find a guy who wants more than just sex." She sighed, looking dreamily down at her drink.
"I don't want just sex," Raj blurted out far too quickly. Danielle looked up at him and Raj ducked his head, embarrassed. But, then Danielle started to laugh. "What's so funny?"
"Everything," She said vaguely. "Raj, let me just say I really like you."
Raj smiled. "I really like you too."
Bernadette wasn't having a good day. As she sat at her desk, she put her head in her hands, closing her eyes. She'd been so stressed out lately. Not with just this whole pregnancy thing, but with Howard and her job too. She sighed, reaching a hand to rub her back. She'd been cramping a lot today – it wasn't really bad, but just enough to be noticeable.
She was going to tell Howard tonight, and that was definitely stressing her out. Bernadette had kind of wished she'd told him earlier, but she'd just needed some time to wrap her head around the whole thing. Now, she'd wished she'd told him right away. Bernadette wished she had Howard for moral support right now.
But right now, she just had to get this work done. Bernadette shifted in her seat, ready to get back to work, but then she froze. She reached a hand down, and when she lifted her fingers back up, she emitted a loud gasp, her other hand reaching up to cover her mouth.
Blood. She was bleeding.