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It was all fake.

The bright smiles.

The laughter.

It was all fake. And Sirius was for once glad he wasn't allowed to be there.

As a child he had begged and pleaded his parents to let him attend their annual Christmas party. The results of his begging had never been good (a few nasty scars had come of it) and he had never been allowed to go.

Then he arrived at Hogwarts...and suddenly he didn't want to go anymore.

Except this year...this year he couldn't stay at Hogwarts.

He had been suspended. For good reason he supposed...if he was being honest with himself he was shocked that he actually hadn't been expelled. Attempted murder seemed like it might warrant expulsion...but apparently not.

Dropping his head into his hands Sirius groaned.

"Siri...?" Jumping in surprise Sirius twisted around.

"Regulus. You scared me."

"Yes...I can see that." Regulus hovered at the stairs for a second before taking a few tentative steps into the room. "I thought you would have tried to escape to Potter's by now."

Sirius stiffened and shrugged.

"Naw, he's still pissed at me. Everyone's pissed at me."

"Oh..." Regulus sat down indian style on the floor and dug a small napkin full of treats out of his pocket. "What did you do?" He asked, offering his brother a truffle.

"I...I...fucked up. I betrayed the only friends I had."

"You didn't betray me." Regulus whispered, nibbling on a chocolate.

"Didn't I?"

Regulus sighed and tossed Sirius another chocolate.

"No. You didn't Sirius. You're my brother, you'll always be my brother. And yeah, despite being in Gryffindor and ignoring me for Potter and those other fuckheads you still love me. You've never given up on me Sirius...ever. You've always had my back, tried to show me what's right in life and even if I go down the wrong path you still love me. You've been a bit of an arse, and a bit of a dickhead, and you can be unbelievably thick sometimes, but you're not a bad person Sirius."

"I tried to kill Snape!"

Regulus rolled his eyes. "Everyone wants that slime ball dead, you're just the first to do something about it."

"I tried...to kill him!"

"Yes...I got that. You had a reason I'm sure though?"

"I...I...yeah..."

"And was it a good reason?"

Sirius faltered...running his hands through his hair.

"I thought it was, but apperantly it wasn't good enough."

Regulus sighed again, eyes flickering back toward the the stairs and the party that lay below.

"This is what I think brother. I think you're a good person, who happens to be a Black. You take too much stock in what our parents say-"

"No I don't!"

"Yes you do. You try to pretend that Mum words don't sting and Dad's belt doesn't hurt, but I know it does. It hurts me anyways..."

"Regulus..."

"No, we're not going there today Siri. This is about you. You are trying to find a balance, trying to please our parents and your friends. But it's not going to work, it can't be done Sirius! You have to pick a side and stick to it, there is no inbetween, not here, not now..."

"I can't do that Regulus...that'd mean leaving you."

"I can take care of myself now Sirius, and honestly...you belong with them more than you've ever belong here." He gestured to the party that was going on below them.

"They wouldn't take me back, even if I tried."

Regulus stood up, brushing off his expensive dress robes.

"They'd be fools not to. You may be an idiot sometimes, and you are a Black, but you're loyal and the best friend they'll ever have."

Regulus paused at the edge of the staircase.

"You really ought to give yourself more credit Sirius. Merry Christmas brother."

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