missuselessmedicwarrior
She is in Hell.
She thought she was equal to her boys, thought the three of them could walk side by side. But in a dark forest that reeks of death and decay, facing three shinobi who could kill her in a heartbeat, her world comes crashing down and she realizes that she is useless. Deadweight. So she slices away her inhibitions, pink locks (chains) falling down to the ground, but it's too little, too late- and how could it ever be enough, when she's so goddamn weak- and once again she ends up cowering on her knees in fear, cowering behind the girl who she swore she'd never lose to again. And then they both leave, the one who would die for her and the one she'd die for, and her world shatters around her again.
(so she trains, trains, and trains more, pushing for more strength, more power, because she will be their equal, but one returns and she sees she is nothing in his golden aura- the one that on the worst days is stained a ghastly blood red- so she trains more and works and works until she thinks she has nothing left but her strength and her healing)
The next time they meet again, the world is ending, and they are the only ones left to save it. She sees her boys working together for the first time in years, (the last time they tried to kill each other) and her heart wrenches at the sight. But she looks again, and she realizes, heart sinking, that though she is now a warrior and an unrivalled medic, though she can rend the earth and sky asunder with one finger, it's not enough. Weak. For all her blood and sweat and tears, those years of pushing herself to the brink and beyond, she is still too weak. She can't stand side by side with them any more then she could all those years ago. Next time, she promises herself, next time, but isn't that what she said last time and the time before that? And she knows that the small, yet powerful stubborn streak within her will never allow her to stop trying, but the larger, and no longer naïve part of her realizes that it will never, ever be enough.
This, she thinks, is Hell.