Title: Memory

Author: CreateElements

Rating: T-rated for I don't know.

Summary: Lucy thinks back on little moments with Gray.

Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail!

Memory

"Everyday is a lifetime memory" - Adelitas Way from Alive

So much has happened over the years. I don't even know where to start. It's been such a long time. I forgot how this felt. I seem to have forgotten a lot of things. But I still remember one of the most important nights of my life.

It transpired before everything turned upside down. It happened somewhere up north, while we were away on a mission. I can't remember the name of the town. I wish I could.

I remember it was a clear cold night. All of us sat huddled around a camp fire made by Natsu. I don't remember much about the mission.

I remember the cold didn't affect Gray or Natsu so naturally the two found something to fight about. I can't remember but I wish I could.

I remember that it snowed that night. I remember Erza being the first to head to bed, stating we had a long day tomorrow. Natsu followed quickly behind. It wasn't long before snoring noises from their tents could be heard. Much to my dismay. Natsu always snored too loud. I have no idea how Lisanna put up with it.

I remember Gray asking me why I couldn't sleep. I told him it was cold. He smiled and sat down next to me; taking his jacket off he said, "You can borrow it until we get back."

I thanked him for it and relished in how warm it was.

I remember a comfortable silence settling over us before I confessed that I was nervous about the coming mission. Looking back on it, I can't remember why I was nervous. But, he told me not to be. No matter what I would be safe. He would make sure of it. He didn't realize it at the time but he kept on babbling. I don't think he meant to tell me but he said… he said I was perfect and he would protect me no matter what.

It's funny how I forgot the big deals but remembered the smaller ones.

After Gray unknowingly admitted how he saw me, I found myself making an excuse to see him every day. At some point he caught on and never left my side.

There was a time when Cana got the entire guild sick because of a guild wide drinking contest. Thankfully I refused to participate, Gray didn't either. The next morning hardly anyone was at the guild, and I needed rent money. He offered to go on a mission just the two of us.

Later on the way home from our mission I asked him why he came with me. He said, "I feel alive when I'm with you. Every time it's something new, something different."

We spent a lot of time together after that. I began to know him better than I ever thought I could know someone. We learned a lot about each other. Like the fact that he once squealed when he saw a spider on his arm.

I have never seen him react like that. He froze his couch, his arm and the poor spider. I laughed so hard that day. Every day after that he made me laugh at least once. He said, "It's my personal mission to see you smile."

Before that night, I never knew what it felt like mom.

You always used to tell me I would know it the moment I saw it. You told me I would find true love when I was older.

You were right.

But I didn't know it.

I walked away from him once. I was so upset with him. I saw him with Juvia and I assumed the worst. I didn't trust him enough to think otherwise. I told him I never wanted to see him again.

I didn't listen.

We were on a mission against a man named Rufus Corelius. Don't tell Natsu or anyone else from Fairy Tail. I think it would bother them. Rufus is a rough subject when it comes to the guild. That's my fault… but that's another story.

I have never met a man as strong as Rufus was. I thought I would die that day. I thought I would lose Gray. I apologized to him later that night.

I found true love in him mom.

After my stubbornness subsided I held onto him. When I realized what it was I didn't want to let go.

Eventually I took his last name. We even have a son now. His name is Daniel Fullbuster. He's three. I wish you could see him mom. He looks just like Gray, except for the eyes. Those belong to me. He has our eyes mom.

I don't know why it took me so long to write. I should have written sooner. I am so sorry mom. I meant to. I just got… distracted.

I need to tell you something. I'm scared. Two years ago Fiore went to war.

Gray was one of the first to volunteer.

He was gone for over a year and a half the first time.

That year I had Daniel and became stronger, both physically and mentally. Every day was a new challenge.

Lisanna and Levy often needed me. Whatever it was I was always willing to help. I busied myself so much I didn't even realize a year went by. Before I knew it, Gray was coming home. Gray came home on an injury.

Master Laxus and the others thought it best for him to recover at home.

The first night had been awkward. I had different expectations of what would happen. I imagined wild fantasies that only happen in romance novels.

When he came home he lusted for me. But he had other priorities, to which I am not upset. He wanted to meet his child, Daniel. Gray held Daniel almost all night, refusing to let go of him. I heard him tell Daniel, "I once promised your mom I would protect her. That extends to you. I am fighting for the both of you. So you will both be safe."

In that moment I knew he would leave again. And I was right. The moment Gray's injury healed he left.

I know he has to. He's told me time and time again. But mom I miss him. Am I selfish for wanting him to come home? Especially when I know why he is fighting?

My biggest fear is: What if he doesn't come home?

I want to tell him. I am pregnant with our second child. I don't want him to miss this one mom.

Yet through all of this I still hold onto him. Almost all of my memories have him. I hold onto the hope that he will come back to me and we can make new memories with our children as a family.

Until then, I will cherish the memories I have of him. I will hold to each and every moment until he comes home.

I love you mom. Please watch over him.

Love your daughter,

Lucy

A/N: It's soo late I know! I had a massive case of writers block for this story. Thankfully I am over it. This chapter I wanted it different from all of the rest. Although it's no longer Graylu week I hope you all enjoy this chapter! The next ones will be up soon.

Until next time!

- CE