Hello… It's time for a new update.
I'm also got myself as editor that will be editing this story. Thank you to ToktelasAndTea. I'm really appreciated your hard work. I admit that I was such a rookie in this world of fiction writing. Now I can understand a little bit about it so I hope you will continue to guide me. Hihihi
Anyway, everyone who reviews and read my story, I really appreciated (I could not express how happy I am when someone reading my fic). And I could not wait for JR 3. I heard that it's will coming this spring. But it's just a rumor so I don't put my dream to high.
And I was a little bit frustrated because no one is going to translate JR act 33 (I think? ) *sigh*
Anyway, enjoy the chapter…
Chapter 15: The Painful Past
'Why he is here? Why I have to meet him again? Why I have to face him again after all this years? Why you come back to my life? Why? Why?Masamune…' Onodera sat behind the wooden door of his bedroom. His bedroom was situated in the servant chamber where all the maids and servants live. There were a single bed, a closet, a mirror and a rectangular glass window. He had opened the window to let the winds blow into his room. He sat, thinking about the meeting this evening. All that he can remember was the wretched memory of the past when he had broken up with his lover. Now he had to face him again. Tears started to flow down. He tried to wipe it up but the tears kept streamed, not wanting to stop. He hugged his knees to his chest and cried softly, alone.
~Flash back~
"Get out from here! Just disappears from my sights!" Takano was consumed by rage. He pushed Onodera, making him stumbled and fell
"Go away! You are such a bother. I don't have any damn reason to keep you here. It's will be better if you just go rot somewhere alone! Go away!" Onodera was speechless. He could not process anything 'He was still ok this morning so why he…'
"Takano-san… please hear me first Taka…" Takano kicked Onodera at stomach and cruelly walked from there without sparing a glance at the hurt boy. He slammed the door shut. The loud 'bang' echoed in Onodera's head emptily.
"Takano-san…" Onodera's eyes were wide open, although the pain coiled in his chest, feeding on his heart like a venomous parasite. He looked up to the castle and his vision started to blur. He was not aware that his argument was watched by a man lurking in the dark. He smirked evilly as his plan was working perfectly. Onodera walked slowly to an unknown place. All that he can see was the darkness all-round. The night was very quiet, not a single cricket sing as the moon shyly hides behind the fluffy charcoal cloud. Yes- It was raining. The cold water caressed Onodera's soft cheek. He walked aimlessly into the forest. He needed to find a shelter or he would catch the cold. He clutched his small bag that contains his clothes and money.
'At least he is kind enough to give me some clothes. Maybe I will never be able to meet him again… What I have I done to be given such cruel treatment… ?' He could not stop his tears from falling down. Being betrayed by his own lover was a very cruel joke that he never wanted to face.
~End of flash back~
Knock, knock, knock…
The sound of the door knocking echoed through the small room. Onodera, who was sitting behind the door, wiped his tears and quickly stood up.
"Yes, can I help you?" Onodera waited for the reply. Usually, it is just some info for tomorrow works.
"Onodera… it's me." A husky voice replied. However, to Onodera, the voice alone made his heart felt like thousand knives had stabbed it.
Then, silent fell between them. A second felt like eternity. Onodera just stood there, motionless while thinking desperately how to face his former lover.
"Onodera, please open the door. I need to talk to you. Onodera…" Takano leaned closer to the wooden door, and trying to persuade his love. After the incident that happen five years ago, he thought that he would never meet him again but now after meeting him at last, he will never let his Ritsu get away.
"Onodera, please let me explain first. Then, I will let you decide. I really want to see you, Ritsu…" Takano kept persuade his love. He will kept doing it until, Onodera decide to open the door.
"Please leave, Takano-sama. I didn't have anything to discuss." Onodera just walked away and slammed his body to the bed. He wrapped his body with the blanket, tighter. He did not want to hear anything from his former lover. He did not want his heart to change because of Takano's words. He was tired of this sadness and betrayal. Takano on the other hand felt weird to be called Takano-sama from his lover.
"Onodera, open the door. It's not fair. Please listen to me first. I swear it will not take long. Just please open the door and listened to my explanation first."Takano hit the door with his fist, sending a loud bang throughout the level.
"Stop it, Takano-sama! I don't want to hear anything. Just go away." Onodera buried his head under the pillow while hiding beneath the blanket. The sound stopped. He was relief as he thought that Takano had give in. Now, he focused on getting a nice sleep. He put his pillow back before he landed his head on it while pulling the blanket up to his chest. He lay down on his right shoulder, shut his eyes and tried to sleep. However, it was easier said than done. He kept crying what seemed like an eternity. His heart ached with sadness and pain. All that he could think of right now, was to avoid the man again as obviously, he could never forget that man ever. He eventually fell asleep from tiredness.
"You're still cute after these long years, My Ritsu." A voice whispered between the flown breeze and the sound flutter of the leaves.
Takano gaze locked on the small body that lay down on the bed. He walked slowly to the sleeping boy, not wanting to wake him. He sat beside the bed, facing the face of his beloved. His heart ached with pain when he saw the swollen eyes. He also had the urged just to pull the boy and hugged him in a tight embrace, not letting his lover go. However, he did not want to take any rush decision as it can made his Ritsu go away again.
"Ritsu…" Takano ruffled the soft chocolate hair, gently. Then, slowly, he caressed the soft cheek with the back of his hand and ran his fingers along it. His action caused the boy to flinch and change his position. Immediately the boy felt comfortable with the warm hand. Takano just smiled, thinking that his lover was enjoying the warmth of his hand.
After that, he slowly ran his finger to the soft and sweet lips of Onodera. He gently caressed them with the tip of his fingers. Then, he bent his body, crawled slowly on top of Onodera and caught the soft lips. He slipped his tongue into the hot cavern and slowly he held his lover's hand before pinned them on the soft mattress. Takano deepens the kiss and let his tongue invade the cavern.
'What's this hot feeling?' Slowly, he parted his eyes and he was shocked to see Takano, kissing him. He blinked his eyes a few times, thinking that maybe it was just an illusion. However, the image was real. He struggled to get away but strong arm kept him from escaping.
Takano, realizing that Onodera had awaken, immediately put his muscle arms to work. He pinned the boy hard, not letting him escape. He parted his lips and looked to the boy.
"Takano-sama! What are you doing? ! Let me go!" Onodera tried to pull his hand back but failed.
"Onodera, listen to me first. I know if I didn't do this you will never let me get closer to you. And stop calling me Takano-sama. It's weird." Takano replied.
"No, let me go! Please leave. I don't want to see you." Onodera fought to get out from Takano's grip but it was useless.
"Please, let me go, Takano-sama." Onodera started to cry. Takano sensed this immediately. He released his hands. However, he still on top of Onodera, and he hugged the boy.
"Sorry for making you cry. Forgive me for all the bad things I had done to you. Gomene…" Takano buried his face on Onodera's shoulder. He felt endlessly guilty for all the things he had done.
"Le-t go-sob- of –me" Onodera still tried to struggle free in the embrace. However, his small body was nothing to the strong one. His eyes were full of tears and his vision was blurry.
"Onodera, please listen. Firstly, about the break up, it was my mistake for believing the rumors. I found out about it after two weeks after that. Believing or not, Yokozawa was the person who spread the rumors. I'm really sorry, Onodera. I tried to search for you but I was stuck between the empire and you. At that time, the war was about to erupt and I thought it's better for you, for not involve in the war. It's really a stupid decision. After these five years, I tried to search for you but all I get was nowhere near your whereabouts." Takano let go of all that had he kept for five years to his lover.
"Why don't you trust me? I would never betray you. I would never fraternize with any other man!" Onodera let his frustration go. After all this years, he kept wondering why Takano did not believe him.
"And you said it's better for me to die alone, rotting somewhere. Were you dissatisfied, if I am still alive, and healthy. Or do you really want me to die so much?!" Onodera screamed.
"No never. I'm sorry, Onodera. I fully understand. You can hit me if you want but I really hope that you can forgive me. Although, it's had been five years, I still could not forget you." Takano hugged the boy tighter.
"Please, let me love you again… my Ritsu." Takano whispered.
"Masamune… ah sob…sob.., waaa, Masamune….." Onodera cried and hugged the older man. Although, how hard he denied it, he could never resist the love of this man. He also could never forget Takano although he really wanted to. He kept seeing Takano in his dreams, and sometime their memories, sweet and lovely memory together, kept rushing to his mind.
"Ritsu…" Takano just let the boy to cry. Letting his sadness and sorrow to go. He hoped that Onodera would always stayed by his side after this. He will fight for his love to Ritsu no matter what everyone says.
After a while, Onodera started to calm down. He stayed in Takano's hug and snuggled his head into the broad chest. He sniffed the smell of the one who he really longed for. He clutched his hand to Takano's shirt while Takano wrapped his arms around Onodera's waist. They were silent for a while, when suddenly Takano spoke.
"Ritsu, thank you."
"Emph… why?" Onodera replied.
"Thank you for accepting me back. I will cherish you forever." Takano lifted his body up, wanting to get off the bed but immediately, he was stopped by the pairs of small hands.
"Where do you want to go…?" Onodera lifted his head, looking straight at Takano.
"Why, you don't want me to go?" Takano chuckled when his lover tuned red as a tomato.
"Ah…it's ok." Feeling embarrassed, Onodera immediately pulled the blanket up and hid his body under it.
"It's very daring of you. I thought I would wait for you to be ready, but now I think I don't need it." Takano crawled over the boy. Onodera sensed it immediately and clutched the blanket tighter. His heart kept beating loudly, as if it would explode in mere seconds.
"Ritsu, show me your face."
"No, don't want."
"Ritsu… there's no one here…it's just you and me."
"You're the reason that I'm embarrassed." Ritsu, still hiding behind the blanket, mumbled it out. Although it was just a whisper, Takano could still hear it.
"Then, how about if I do this." Takano slipped his hands under the blanket and ran his finger under the boy's shirt. He pinched the red buds while his other hand travelled down south.
"Ah… Masamune, ya-me-te… ah." Onodera's grip loosed. Immediately Takano snatched the blanket and revealed the blushing boy.
"You're cute and lovely. Onodera, can I kiss you?" Takano looked into the emerald eyes, hopefully.
"Ye-ss…" Onodera blushed and bowed his head.
They instantly fell into a hot passionate kiss.
In Onodera's mind, he remembered a song that he heard a long time ago…
'When I go forward and bump into someone
I only become fearful (of never meeting you)
However, I will face forward and walk
If I can meet you
I'm beat on by rain, and my voice trembles
On sleepy nights I wander
I will go; I can meet you by chance
Until that day…'
Yes, now he had met him by chance…
~End of chapter 15~
So what do you think of the chapter. Anyone can guess what the song is?
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Notes(although I think everyone already knew that) : Yamete – stop
Gomene – sorry