I'm sorry this is a little long I guess I kind of got carried away a little, also I'm sorry it's a little late but you know school, anyway thanks to witbeyondmeasureXOX, NeverlandNat and ElzyPhangirl for reviewing and I hope you like it!
Chapter Four
The sun shines brightly, sparkling off of the big silver gates which frame the promised land. The place is packed out, with rollercoasters soaring overhead like birds and big stalls all different colours of the rainbow. There are people swarming everywhere, like bees desperate to get back to their honey pot. I feel memories surge inside me as I see myself aged three, riding a rollercoaster for the first time, aged twelve, throwing up on the big dipper and the last time I was here with Dan, back when we were both unsure as to whether we liked each other, back when we were still trying to convince ourselves and each other that we were just friends.
Out of the corner of my eye, I can see Cat, the ever-present camera clutched in her fist but I'm more focused on Dan and his smile, wider than a little kid's on christmas morning, as he stares up at the rides whirling above. Immediately, he points to a gigantic ride, with twirls and drops and water guns, his face lighting up with excitement. Cat looks hesitant but with some nudging and convincing she joins us in the queue. The line snakes around the building twice, the space filled with the sound of tuts and sighs of the general public. We fill the time with a few stories and some vlogging and some snacks that Cat had stashed in her seemingly bottomless bag and in time we are at the front. I am beginning to feel a swarm of butterflies raging in my stomach. Out of habit, I reach for Dan's hand, drawing back at the last-minute when I remember Cat. A giant lump forms in my throat. It's always like this with me, the nerves shred me to pieces before hand but once I climb aboard all the worries fly away and adrenaline pumps through me, surging through my veins and I love it. I just have to get over the pre rollercoaster jitters, I tell myself.
The gates open up and we pile in, Cat with Dan and me all alone. I find myself staring at the back of Dan's head as I wait for the ride to begin, mesmerised by his deep chocolatey brown hair. My gaze snaps when I see Cat's arm on Dan's shoulder. Is she flirting with him? my mind screams as a spike of jealousy hits my stomach. I see her laugh, her perfect white teeth on show for the whole world to see. She is, I think. She's going to steal Dan away from me. The ride starts with a jolt as the wheels begin to turn over the steel tracks but I am no longer fearful. All the fear that was inside of me has been quelled and has been overtaken by the jealousy that is surging through my body. I can focus on nothing else but the burning hatred in my very soul. 'You're over reacting!' I can hear a small part of me scream from deep inside but it is barely a whisper, it is being shouted down by all the rest of me that is yelling at the top of its lungs.
I keep my eyes trained on Cat as the rollercoaster ascends. Thoughts whirl round my mind 'are they holding hands?' 'does she like him?' 'does he like her?' I have lost all sense of sanity and I sense it is past the point where I can just shake it off. As the thoughts swirl round my head I think about how much Dan means to me, I think about how, if he were ever snatched from me, how heart broken I'd be. I didn't even realise I was the jealous type before now. I had never felt even a smidge of jealousy with any of my previous girlfriends. In fact, I had never felt jealousy like this before, full stop.
I am so focused on the jealousy that is invading my mind, that I don't even notice the climb. I don't even notice when we reach the very tip top of the rollercoaster, and so I am very unprepared when the carriage starts dropping into free fall, twisting corners and spinning loops at an alarming rate. I can feel the wind whipping through my hair, working its magic and whisking my problems away as it goes. Opening my eyes, I see the whole world rushing past in a blur of bright colour and stretched images. I feel the excitement in the pit of my stomach as a smile finally creeps its way onto my lips.
I stumble off of the ride, slightly disorientated and a little dizzy and, much like a drunk person on a friday night, I stagger straight into Dan, his strong arms stopping me from falling. I can feel his heart beating against my chest, strong and steady, the exact thing he is in my life, a person to depend upon, a person of security. And I begin to wonder why I ever doubted him, I trust Dan more than any other person in the world. He loves me, not Cat, and if she ever asked I know what his answer would be. Dan hoists me back to my feet, his cheeks blushing slightly and we soldier on to the next ride.
We do this all day, occasionally stopping for some overpriced chips or a drink of coke filled with little ice cubes. The bright summers day is beginning to descend into the dimness of evening by the time we reach thunder, the centre piece of the park, the biggest ride in the whole place. Turning to my left I see Cat gulp a little, fear growing bigger in her eyes. "Guys" she says in her american drawl "I really don't think I can do this one."
"Sure you can." I say encouragingly
"Uh-uh" says Cat, shaking her head back and forth. "I really can't"
"Are you sure?" Dan says "This is the best one!"
"No, I think I'm gonna sit this one out, Cat says pointing to a bench nearby "I've been on and off rides all day, I just don't think I'm up to this one."
"Okay." Dan says "And you're okay with waiting?"
"Yeah, no problem." she says, pulling out her phone, "go ahead."
Me and Dan walk towards the ride, faced with another queue, although this one is considerably shorter than the ones we've had to tackle all day. Once we are round the corner, and out of Cat's eye line, Dan grabs my face, kissing me with passion and hunger and I kiss him back. Breaking away, I laugh "How long have you been waiting to do that?" I ask with a giggle. "Since Cat woke up this morning." he admits, blushing slightly. Snaking my hand around the back of his neck, I kiss him again, letting all the want that had been building up all day just drift away. Linking his hand with mine, me and Dan join the queue. We laugh and make jokes and Dan is in the middle of telling a story when I blurt out "You looked like you were having fun with Cat before." I am unable to stop myself, my jealous streak is coming to the surface. It had been playing on my mind all day. Dan stops talking, his mouth still open slightly, unable to hide the shock coating his face. "Are you- jealous Phil?" he says incredulous. "Maybe." I say, looking down at the floor, regretting having opened my mouth at all. "But- what- what?" Dan says seemingly stunned by the idea. "You know that I love you right, Phil? You know that there's no one else, now or ever, right?" People are beginning to stare but Dan, who is usually quite shy about these things, carries on "Phil, there is no need to be jealous." and with that, he pulls me towards him, kissing me, my heart beating faster than a cheetah, oblivious to the stares and the awkward coughs coming from behind us. We kiss until I have to break off in need of air, both of us smiling like kids in a candy factory. "I love you too." I say, my head against his.
This time, we hear the coughs and, blushing brighter than ever, I turn to look at the people behind us, coming face to face with an angry russian woman who was pointing a gnarled finger in front of us. I turn round to see that we had been so caught up that we hadn't even seen the queue moving forward and, awkwardly we shuffle into the gap.
Before long, I find myself behind another metal gate, the same place I had stood at various different rides all day, except this time I could feel Dan's fingers entwined with mine and this time I could feel his head on my shoulder, his soft breath in my ear. The gates open, and we step through, our hands still tangled, me pulling Dan behind me. Our hands never break as they pull the safety belts over our heads, they never break as the ride jolt's forward or as we begin to ascend the steep track upwards, towards infinity. And as we are up there, the view stretching for miles and miles around us, Dan's hand clamped firmly in mine, I realise that I am happy, for the first time in a long time there is not one thing, not one, that is bothering me, not one little worry lurking in the back of my head. I am happy, and I am only going to get happier from here on out, for I am on a rollercoaster that only goes up.
I'm sorry I couldn't help but add the TFiOS reference, I hope someone gets it. Thanks for reading and please review!