AN: Im sorry if there's any obvious mistakes I actually started crying while writing this.
As soon as everyone is out of site, I pull of the stupid black feathers and through them on the ground. Belle's face crumples into one of utter brokenness one that I know all too well. Snow looks at me her face grumbled and I don't want to sound bitter or not understanding of her pain, and she doesn't know that I've lost not only a child but possible my second chance at true love, but it comes out before my brain has time to process it.
"At least you still have charming."
Snow gives me a pitying look and I try to glare back but it falls flat, because what's the point in masks, I have nothing and I will always have nothing.
"Regina?"
She sighs in question.
"I don't want to be her, but what do I have?"
I try to stop the tears from falling but am unsuccessful
"And now I'm the most powerful but I not want the power, I want family and I'll continue to walk the lonely road like I've done since you came into my life. But you know what?"
Asking her a question so I can take a breath and get my jumbled thoughts together. But she comes back with an answer faster than I expected.
"I know that despite all the times you had to kill me from when I was a little girl to now, you never took any of them, you sent other people to try and kill me but never once did you, sure you poisoned me and cursed everyone, but I do know what you could never kill me because you cared but your anger was all you had and you needed to aim it at someone and that someone was me because you never could blame your mother as you always wanted to believe that she was doing everything for you not for power. But then you truly knew that I wasn't to blame…"
I cut her off.
"Yes anger was all I had and yes I cared about you Snow do you not remember I brought you up from the tender age of ten and I brought you up with love but I was, I am broken and I will always be broken. Daniel was all I had and I lost him, then I had you but I pushed you away, then I kil-lost my father and that was all my fault"
Slowly I get more hysterical as I continue and slowly I'm a crying babbling mess and I can't stop the tears or the words.
"and then I lost my mother just as I got her back and that one was all your fault, but then i forgave you not that I ever said anything. I've changed I have changed but then the world decides Villains can't change and I loss Rumple, not that i'm saying my pain is worse than Belle's because Belle I know what you're going through and I'm not saying it gets better but take it from someone who grieved the wrong way, take your time to grieve lean on everyone for support rather than pushing away them all away, then learn how to cope in your own way, I did I just choose the wrong way"
Belle looks up from where she had collapsed on the forest floor and gives a small smile, and then asks quietly.
"I know this may sound strange for me to ask you, but will you help me"
I walk over from where she's on the ground and bring her to a log on the ground of to the right of me and signal for Snow to join us.
" This pains me to say because I feel like I deserve to be alone and I'm most likely making assumptions but I think all three of us may all need each other"