The Box
Chapter 4
AN: Sorry, wanted to update sooner, but I got sick, now I'm better. I felt so guilty not updating, that I actually wrote this on the bus on my way home from uni, and this was one of the few days that I didn't bring my laptop, so I wrote this chapter on my HTC. xD
She held the letter for a minute or two before reading it. She knew that this was going to be even more emotional than the other things in the box, because a letter was way more personal. A letter from her mother. Beckett started reading, thinking that this would be hard.
Kate,
If you're reading this, it means that I'll not be there on one of the biggest days of your life. I would give anything to be there with you, your father, your husband-to-be and his family, but I can't. Getting in to that case was probably my biggest mistake, I couldn't get out of it, there was no way out, I knew too much.
Being a part of a daughter's wedding day, is every mother's dream. Not only helping with the planning and so on, but just seeing how happy you're to have found the love of your life. It would be amazing to see that. One thing I know for sure is that he is the love of your life. Knowing you and your principles, I know that you're the one and done type, you would never marry a guy without being absolutely sure, you remind me of myself.
Since you question everything, which in most cases is good, you're probably wondering, if you haven't already figured it out, why I gave you those earrings. Here's the answer:
Something old,
something new,
something borrowed,
something blue,
and a silver sixpence in her shoe.
I want to be a part of your wedding day, in any way that I can be, and that's why I gave you those earrings. I want them to be your "something blue". I saw the earrings in a jewelry store and I absolutely loved them, I wanted you to have them. They were expensive to say the least, but I knew they would look stunning on you on your wedding day, and any other occasion. I hope that you can e.g. get something old from your mother-in-law and something borrowed from your best friends, so that they can be a special part of your day too.
I trust your choice of men, so I'm not worried about that. But I'm just so sorry that I can't be there. To experience you being married, having kids, God... I would have loved to be a grandmother. Make sure that I'll be a part of your children's' lives in any way I can. One day you'll feel the love for a child, like I felt the love for you.
Kate, I love you with all my heart and I'm so sorry I'm not there anymore, but don't waste your life on me. Of course I want you to remember me, but sweetie... I want you to move on and make your own life. You deserve.
-Always
That word did something to her, it was her and Castle's special word and it had a deeper meaning for her, than for most people, she felt like her mother was psychic or something, must have been faith.
Beckett was crying, she was so happy, but so sad, at the same time. She missed her mother so much, but she knew that she was right.
AN: I feel so bad for updating so late and with a so short chapter. But I hope you liked this chapter.
TVLINE: "Do you think Johanna maybe left a gift behind?"
Stana: "Wouldn't that be beautiful? What if Jim came in with a box…. Maybe!"
Me: "Did Stana read my fic? O.o or do great minds just think alike?"