LIMSS 13

"I AM NOT WEARINGING THAT-THAT THING!" I shouted absolutely disgusted

"Why not?" The twins questioned, "It'll look good on you!"

"I do not WANT that to look good on ME!"

Okay, I'm sure you all must be confused on what's happening at this moment. Unfortunately for me the only way I can really explain this
is by starting from this very morning..

*Earlier today*

I woke up feeling much better than I did yesterday and changed into my Ouran uniform. Walking out of my room, I had my bag in hand as I greeted father pleasantly in the kitchen. "Hi dad," I smiled slightly as dad handed me my cup of sweetened coffee.

"Hello Harou, you look better." Dad said, tucking a strand of his red hair behind his ear.

"Thanks dad, do you know if Haruhi is up yet?"

"I believe so. I heard getting around in her in her room."

I nodded my head and ate a muffin we had in our cupboard as Haruhi walked into the kitchen wearing her oh so beautiful (Note sarcasm) Banana yellow dress. "Took you long enough" I joked, tossing Haruhi a jug of milk and a blueberry muffin, "Here, If we don't leave now we'll be late."

"Are you sick?" Haruhi asked, not used to me acting kind and well, happy.

Frowning I resorted back, "Is it wrong for me to be nice and cheerful?"

"No, but it's weird…"

I sighed ruffling my already messy hair, "I know. I'm trying to be more positive, though I doubt it'll last…" I quickly pulled dad into a one armed hug and ran out the door with Haruhi in tow.

*At Ouran*

Haruhi had finished her muffin and milk on the train and we were walking to class 1-A. Everything seemed normal until I opened the door and was instantly tackled. I fell on my ass, with four bodies piled on me. "Harou!" The four people cried together sucking the life out of me, as they cut off my air supply.

'Okay screw positive!' I thought burning with anger, "Get the fuck off of me!" I shouted deafening the people on top of me.

"We're sorry!" the boys shouted quickly removing themselves from me, allowing me to breathe once more. Looking up I saw Hikaru, Karou, Mitsukuni, and Tamaki sitting beside me, as the two blondes had tears in their eyes.

"Harou, I'm sorry! I hope I didn't upset you before!" Hunny sobbed holding my scared hands as I sat on the floor.

"No I'm sorry Mitsukuni, I over reacted…" I said ruffling the short blonde's hair.

"But you didn't" Mitsukuni said rubbing his eyes, tears still in his eyes.

"What are you talking about?" Tamaki asked not sure what Hunny and I were referring too.

I smiled up at Tamaki, the smile was small and fake, but a smile none the less. "It's in the past Tamaki. Now if you don't mind me asking, but why are you here, I would have thought you had class."

"I do, but I had to make sure you were alright! I was… Worried when you didn't come to school yesterday," Tamaki explained, his tone soft.
I got off the floor and pat Tamaki's shoulder, "I'm fine! Go to class, I'll see you at the club before the dance."

"Alright, come on Hunny-sempai, Mori-sempai must be worried."

"Okay! Let's go Tama-chan!" Hunny hugged me one last time and walked to his first period class, Tamaki beside him.

~~

Class flew by and school finally ended. Haruhi and I were about to walk to the train station when a pair of hands grabbed my shoulders.
"Harou!~" A familiar pair of voices sang, "The boss needs to see you!"

'Oh god…' I thought as the twins lugged me to the third music room where the hosts that were there consisted of Kyoya, Tamaki, Hunny and Mori. "Why am I here?" I asked as I was put on a small stool.

"Simple we need to get your measurements" Kyoya explained walking over and slipped off my glasses. I tried to grab the black frames when Kyoya's words finally sunk in.

"WHAT?! MY MEASURMENTS?! WHAT FOR?!"

Kyoya chuckled and asked, "Do you remember my question yesterday?"

My eyes widened, "You're not serious are you?" I tried to step off the stool but the twins held me in place.

"Oh Harou, we're VERY SERIOUS." Kyoya then whipped out a measuring tape, and took my measurements

~~

"So explain this to me again. At this dance we are getting Ms. Kanaka and her fiancé Toru together so we need someone to act like a love interest for Toru? Now my question is why me?"

It was finally time for the dance and everyone was getting dressed. I was given a small fancy suit. It was a simple maroon color with a pale peach button up shirt. I myself felt lucky because I was wearing my gray converse today so I'd wear them during the dance and not stiff dress shoes. "Harou, are you changed yet?" Tamaki asked standing outside my dressing room not answering my question.

"… Yeah, I am. And you still haven't answered my question. Why can't you use an actual girl, and not me? A boy" I walked out of the fitting room a slight frown on my face. I didn't want to be here right now and this suit felt really awkward, I didn't feel that I looked right, but the looks from the hosts told me otherwise.

"You look great!" Mitsukuni ran up to me and gave me a hug.

"Uh… Thanks I guess." I patted the top of Hunny's head.

"Alright!" Tamaki shouted, "Our dance can now get started!" Everyone ran to the ballroom so we could greet our guests. Many young girls were waiting in the noiseless ballroom chatting away with one another.

"Welcome, one and all to our Ouran host club Christmas party!" everyone shouted letting all the girls gasp and blush.

The hosts went to their "Stations" while I just leaned up against the wall board out of my mind. 'Why am I even here?' I asked grumbled, 'It's not like people are asking ME to dance. And they still ignored my question…'

As I was leaning against the ballroom's wall Tamaki walked up to me, "Harou! You seem tense!"

I gave Tamaki a 'No-Shit-Sherlock' look. "Well excuse me for not being a social butterfly that eats the fruit cake that came from my dad's work."

"What? Harou, how do you spend your Christmas? With your sister?"

I crossed my arms and hummed in thought, "Let's see… Last year I spent Christmas in my room listening to music. I didn't want to disturb Haruhi because she was watching 'the Kato family's dining room Christmas special' she seemed really into it so I kept to myself."

"You poor thing!" Tamaki cried holding my face in his hands, "You sacrifice your time to be with family to have your sister feel joy!"

"It's not really sacrificed time if I enjoy being alone."

"I guess, but don't you get lonely?" Tamaki asked sadly

"No," I shook my head out of Tamaki's grasp, "I mean not really, I'm used to being alone and I feel awkward when I'm around people, I've just become accustom to being by myself."

Tamaki frowned, feeling the sorrow and emptiness that filled my words. "Anyways, I noticed that you have yet to play anything for the host club when you had gotten a music scholarship."

Sighing, I run a hand through my short hair, "If you want I can play for the last dance. I mean that's meant for Ms. Kanako and Toru right? Just give me a violin and I should be set"

"Splendid!" Tamaki smiled widely clapping his hands together.

"By the way Harou," Kyoya cut in, "Since we have a wide variety of food here is there anything you would like to have?"

I turned my head away from the hosts and muttered embarrassedly, "Is there any chocolate cake?"
After hearing my words the host club seemed to freeze. Hikaru and Karou wrapped me in a hug as the hosts went crazy. Quickly they fled
trying to get me some food with a small cloud of dust trailing behind them as they trampled off.

~~

Blushing heavily I lean against the wall with my hand covering my face, "Oh Harou there you are" Miss Kanako said walking over to me holding her dress all lady like, "Would you dance with me?"

"Yeah, sure" I said pushing myself off the wall, about to take miss Kanako's hand when Mitsukuni shouted,

"There you are Harou!" Suddenly I was swept off my feet and dragged away by who I would assume to be Takashi.

"Stop it! Let me go!" I screamed, my voice cracking slightly. With Takashi sprinting down the halls I couldn't tell exactly where we were headed but I highly doubted I'd enjoy our destination.

Mori slammed a door open and the twins shouted, "Here he comes!" as the pulled me off of Mori and then shoved me roughly into a dressing room. The twins tossed some clothing into the room with me, "Change into that" they said in unison.
Looking down at the clothes I was given my eyes widened and I screamed in horror, "OH HELL NO! I AM NOT WEARING THAT-THAT THING!"

"Why not?" Hikaru and Karou questioned, "It'll look good on you!"

"I don't WANT that thing to look good on ME!" I shouted, clenching the evil piece of clothing in my fists.

"Well" Kyoya said making himself known, "It's either that or the pink dress we have. But it's your choice, even though I feel like the dress you have would look better on you than the pink."

I glared down at the dress an angry blush on my face from Kyoya's words, but none the less I slipped off my maroon suite and changed into the strapless deep maroon dress that had sleevelets that ended right before my fingertips. Once the dress was on I sat on a stool that was in the dressing room and put on the black thigh high socks I was given along with black platform boots that came just under my knees.

"You done changing yet?" the twins asked impatiently

Quietly I sighed, 'there's no way in hell that this is gonna work. I look like a boy who can't cross dress properly. Hell dad looks better than I do right now.'

"Harou!" the twins whined, entering the dressing room and dragging me out, "We need to give you your wig and make up!" I gritted my teeth together in anger. I really hated make up and dressing up like this, but I had no choice in this matter. "Come on, come on!" the twins brought me to a styling chair and plopped me down, "Harou we want you to hold still while we do our job to make you beautiful. Okay?"

"Fine" I grumbled, letting Hikaru and Karou cover my face with the ungodly substance called make-up.

~~

"All done~" the twins chimed after they finished the final details for my make-up, "So what do you think?" They asked holding a mirror in front of my face to show what they had done. As I stared into the mirror I felt like crying. I actually looked like a girl; the twins made my face look pretty. They skillfully covered the small sets of bags I had under my eyes. They also concealed the scar on my forehead better than I ever could. My lips were painted with deep plum lipstick that seemed to make my face paler than it already is. Thick black eyeliner made my large eyes look more defined and feminine, and let's not forget my hair. The twins gave me a long dark brown wig. The wig's artificial hair slipped down my back, about five inches below my bare shoulders, as the bangs swept over my forehead and framed my face.

"I hate you" I growled, though I'm not sure if I was directing that to the twins and the hosts or to myself.

Completely dismissing my comment the twins crushed me in a tight hug between their chests and cooed, "Aw! Harou's so adorable!"

Suddenly the door opens and a violet eyes flirt entered the room. "What's going on here?" Tamaki asked, referring to the twins smothering me.

"Boss, we're just giving HER a hug!" Hikaru said holding me tighter

"Yeah Mi'lord, isn't SHE adorable?" Karou continued

"That you are madam." Tamaki said as he waltzed up to Hikaru and Karou and ripped me free from their grasp. Unfortunately for me Tamaki then decided it'd be a good idea to slip his delicate fingers under my chin, tilting it up some. "Now Princess, I hope those nasty twins didn't do anything to harm you."

I clenched my fists at the word princess as I thought about how my childhood tormentors would constantly call that with venom laced in their words.

'Oh princess still waiting for your prince to come and save you?' An upperclassmen from my school asked as he slammed his large and scared fist against my face as I laid weakly on the dirty ground in a dark back alleyway

'hehehe' his two lackeys chortled along with their bullheaded leader, 'I bet even she's given up on that prince of hers. I mean why would anyone want this ugly mess?'

'Hear him princess?!' the first lackey asked, 'No one wants you! I bet even your parents want you dead.'

"Stop it…" I muttered still picturing the painful scene from my past. I could almost feel all the pain I had felt that day. A busted lip, a skinned knee, the cuts from sharp rocks and crudely cut nails that had dug into my pale sleeveless arms

"Princess?" Tamaki asked, unknowingly making my condition worse.

"Don't call me princess!" I cried angrily smacking Tamaki right across the face with the palm of my scared hand. My fight or flight mode was activated and I did both. After my painful slapped Tamaki I ran out of the room leaving all the hosts completely shocked at my actions. 'Why does everyone call me princess?!' I asked myself, the wigs hair flying in my face as tears pricked my eyes causing my sight to blur, 'Am I really that pathetic and weak? Do I act like a helpless girl who needs someone to save me?' I stopped running and entered a supposedly empty classroom. I was afraid that Tamaki and the others would be following me so I wanted to hide. The classroom was dark, the only lighting was from outside where girls were dancing and having the time of their lives. I walked over to the front of the class and sat on the floor and had my head rest on my knees.

"Are you okay?" A person asked in concern. Whipping my head up in surprise I saw Toru, Miss. Kanako's fiancé in front of me worry evident in his face

"I'm fine…" I muttered softly, not wanting to bother Toru when he should be with Kanako.

"I don't think that's true." Toru pressed, "Please is there anything I can do to make you feel any better?"

'Why?' I asked myself, 'Why is it that all these strangers keep trying to help me? First the host club now Toru, a guy I don't even know. Why do you all try and make me smile, why can't you leave me alone to cry by myself!... Why are there so many kind people here? Why are they trying to help me? Why help a selfish person like me? I don't deserve this… But I know someone who deserves to be happy…' Lifting my head up I stare at Toru with sad muddy eyes, "Please… Stay with miss. Kanako… don't leave her, don't ever leave her side or make her sad or feel betrayed. Make her happy, please can you promise me that?"

Toru crouched down next to me, "I think I can. But is that really all I can do?"

I nodded my head, "Yes" I said with a small smile, "Just go find her and things will turn out for the better, I promise."

"I'll take your word for it then." Toru pushed himself up from his knees and offered a hand to help me up.

Graciously excepting Toru's hand I was pulled up and stood on aching feet, when the classrooms door's suddenly opened to reveal Kanako who stared at us with tear filled eyes as she instantly fled, her heart breaking in two. "Go after her" I said softly as I pushed Toru towards the door. The boy followed through as he ran after his beloved fiancé. 'Am I really that sad?' I asked as I walked down the barren halls to familiar music room. Opening the doors it was odd not to have rose petals attack me but it was a nice change. Walking to the backroom I found a violin and took it out of its case, 'he'll always be there for you Kanako' I thought as the perfect song to play came to mind.

/qShwdYfLwwU - the song that Harou's playing

Gently holding the violin and bow I run down towards the ballroom where Toru and Kanako were about to start dancing. As I found a door to one of the many balconies that hung over the dance floor I threw the doors open and saw the happy smiles on everyone's face. For some reason Toru had looked up at the balcony where I was standing and had his eyes widen. Smiling softly at the boy I way and put my violin in position and started playing the beautiful song I thought would be perfect for the couple on the dance floor. Every now and then I would sing the lyrics of the song and have my voice fill the ballroom with the accompany of rich violin notes.

I continued to play as I felt all the warmth and happiness from the people below, 'Am I that sad?' I asked myself again, music ringing in my ears, 'I don't think so. I'm not trying to be saved by a prince on a beautiful white horse like a princess… I think… I'm trying to be the savior. The person who protects and sacrifices himself for the people he loves.' I smiled sadly as my ever present wig's hair fell in my bloodshot eyes. 'Yeah, I like the sound of that.'