Disclaimer: Still don't own star trek :/ do I even need to keep putting these in?

Jim brushed a shaky hand through his hair, willing his face to cool down. Taking a deep breath he pushed what had just happened from his mind, sinking to a crouch on the ground.

If he thought about Spock's eyes or mouth he would just go red again.

Not that he was blushing- James T Kirk never blushed. Maybe occasionally his face appeared a little flushed but that was something completely different.

He brushed the tips of his fingers over his lips.

God dammit, he thought irritably as his face heated up once more.

Jim knew he needed to confront things with his First Officer eventually, (if only to sort their crap out) but dimly he realised there was something else.

Jim was scared.

Despite popular belief, he wasn't an idiot or a masochist.

He knew Spock would reject him, knew the Vulcan wasn't interested in someone like him, and yet he feared that moment with every fibre of his being.

The young captain ran a hand through his hair again with a sigh. Jim would never claim to be all knowing, but of three things he was certain:

One: no win scenarios were bullshit.

Two: if Bones says he doesn't have a hypospray behind his back he's lying.

And three: watching Spock walk away would destroy him.

Dread weighed heavily in his gut and Jim sighed dejectedly. He was so screwed.

A cool breeze fanned over his face, and Jim realised the sun must have gone down. The cave mouth was just below the canopy giving him a good view of the jungle below lighting up.

Mosses and various fungi glowed softly, illuminating the vegetation in pale colours. It was in this soft light that Jim noticed something that did not quite belong.

A man stood meters below, spiky blonde hair and a black suit. Raising an arm, the man beckoned him forward.

Jim stood slowly, walking calmly to the steep drop in front of him.

His eyes, Jim thought sluggishly. I need to see his eyes.

He shuffled forward another step, inches away from the edge. The man below smirked wickedly, arm still outstretched in invitation.

Jim stood on the ledge, the cool wind from earlier whipping through his hair and across his face. Hesitantly, he stretched one foot over the lip.

He could hear nothing but a soft buzzing on the edge of his consciousness, a vague warning ignored by the greater desire to see that man's eyes.

Jim frowned. No, not simply desire; need. The force of which burned through his very being, a tidal wave of necessity.

And all he had to do was step forward.

Foot still over the edge, Jim shifted his weight gently and tipped towards the lethal rocks below.

Calm blossomed through him and he smiled for a moment before gasping in shock as he was pulled backwards, body slamming against the cave floor.

Spock pinned his captain down, straddling the narrow hips as he struggled. The Vulcan grit his teeth and roughly grabbed Jim's wrists.

Snarling, Jim threw himself left and right in a blind rage.

Spock stared down at his captain in shock, the shake of his hands the only thing hinting at the horror beneath his calm exterior.

Jim's usually vibrant cerulean eyes were a lifeless grey colour, unfocused as he struggled and hissed like a thing possessed. Forcing more pressure to still the lurching man beneath him, Spock leaned forward.

"Jim, cease your struggling," he ordered.

At the sound of his voice the blonde redoubled his efforts to escape, body writhing against the Vulcan.

A fleeting image passed unbidden through Spock's mind and he was thankful the low light would disguise his suddenly emerald face.

Forcing down the illogical emotion, one glance at his captain's listless eyes brought him back to the situation at present.

"Jim, you must listen to me. Fight it," he tried again and Jim growled, gnashing his teeth together. He continued to wildly flail and fight, scratching at the Vulcan's wrists and arms where he could.

It was then that Spock realised he felt nothing coming from Jim. His hands clenched against the man's skin and he felt nothing.

This was not his captain.

"Jim!" Spock cried over the lump in his throat, unable to mask the terror in his voice.

And that one word shot through the haze of Jim's mind like a shaft of sunlight.

That was Spock…he thought numbly.

Spock is…scared?

Jim stilled. Spock stared down at him in surprise, hope filling his chest.

"Jim?" he asked cautiously, hands still grasping the captain's wrists. Slowly those dead grey eyes were flooded with blue, the cloudiness within receding.

Spock allowed himself to slump forward in relief, his head resting against Jim's collarbone. Just as quickly, a myriad of surface emotions fluttered against his consciousness; confusion, shock, lust and embarrassment.

The Vulcan hid a smile.

"Uh…watcha doing there Spock?" Jim asked cautiously, eyes widened comically and utterly confused as to how the Vulcan came to be straddling him.

Not that he minded.

One moment he was standing at the mouth of the cave, lost in thought and the next…Jim mentally shrugged to himself.

After all, he'd woken to worse things than his sexy First Officer sprawled over him.

"My apologies," Spock murmured, breath warm against his skin before the Vulcan slowly sat up, releasing Jim's wrists and shifting away from his captain.

Though Jim noted he had placed himself pointedly in front of the cave.

"Um…what happened…?" he asked again,

Spock shifted to his usual cross legged position, hands resting on his knees.

"I am not entirely certain," he confessed, and Jim rose his eyebrows.

"Well that clarifies things," the captain said dryly.

"It was as if you were hypnotised. You…attempted to step off the ledge," Spock said quietly, his voice slightly strained. Jim paled.

"Oh shit."

"Indeed. You responded somewhat violently to external stimuli and so I was forced to restrain you."

"Which is when I woke up?" Jim finished, eyebrows furrowed. Spock nodded in assent.

It was then that Jim noticed the ugly scratches across the Vulcans skin, trails of green where the skin was broken.

"Did I…did I do that?" he asked in horror, and Spock glanced down.

His silence sent Jim's heart plummeting.

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry Spock…I…I had no idea-"

"You were not yourself," the Vulcan cut in, and Jim opened his mouth to object.

"Jim," he said forcefully, and the young captain paused. Sighing in defeat, he buried the guilt for the moment.

"Fine, lets just get something to eat and go from there," he said, pulling out the berries from earlier.

Dinner (if you could call it that) was somewhat strained, as the two ate their meagre meal in silence. No matter how badly Jim concentrated, he couldn't fill in the gaps of his memory.

There was something just on the edge of his consciousness, just barely out of reach. Jim sighed in frustration.

Something about…a suit?

Ugh, that doesn't make sense at all!

"Perhaps it would be a good idea to sleep," Spock suggested, as the young captain growled in exasperation.

"Only if you do," Jim declared, folding his arms stubbornly. He knew the Vulcan had been awake for a full two days, surely he would need to sleep by now.

Besides, stirring up his First Officer was therapeutic.

Spock simply rose an eyebrow.

"I am Vulcan and do not need to sleep as often as a human."

"I am Vulcan," Jim parroted childishly, his voice an imitation of the stoic First Officer's.

"I do not understand what logic-"

"I do not understand-"

"Cease this-"

"Cease-"

"Jim!"

"Jim!"

Finally the Vulcan huffed in irritation, and Jim dissolved into laughter. At the sound, the Vulcan's annoyance evaporated and the edge of his lips twitched slightly.

He realised it had been a while since Jim had laughed, and he found that he had missed it.

Eventually (approximately one hour, 20 minutes later) the young captain fell asleep propped against the rock wall, ironically after almost an hour of refusing to sleep.

Spock was thankful there was no need for a nerve pinch tonight.

Hours passed as Spock slipped into a light meditation, slowly rebuilding his mental shields after the events of the day. Relaxing, he felt the knot of anxiety in his stomach begin to loosen.

The sound of something shifting tightened it again.

Tense, Spock cracked open one eye to survey his surroundings. Whatever the noise was it had been faint; too faint for a human to discern.

A Vulcan however…

Slowly, Spock inhaled and opened both eyes. He had meditated sufficiently.

Jim stirred in his sleep, frowning before rolling over. Lying on hard rock was not conducive to a good night's sleep, he had realised.

Shrugging out of his blue over shirt, Spock balled it up and placed it beneath the other man's head, careful not to wake him.

Sighing softly in his sleep, Jim didn't stir again.

Shuffling past him quietly, Spock walked at a half crouch towards the outer ledge. Perhaps it was nothing, the chances of which were a staggering 87.3%.

Or it was the remaining 12.7%, he reasoned. And in Jim Kirk's case, logical percentages were often turned upside down.

Grey, lifeless eyes flashed across his mind and he shuddered.

Resolving to take the time to rebuild his shields more thoroughly at a more convenient time, Spock straightened out as he came upon the front of the cave.

Fascinating, he thought briefly, noting the dull glow of the plants.

Gazing out, the Vulcan saw nothing else of importance. Perhaps it was nothing noteworthy after all; merely one of the countless mundane jungle noises. After a moment he slowly turned back, crouching slightly as he moved further into the cave. The back of his neck prickled and he glanced over his shoulder for a moment, pausing briefly.

And promptly felt his insides freeze up.

The woman stood barely a metre from him, arm outstretched.

Her skin was porcelain, stark white against the backdrop of her chestnut hair. Bloodless lips opened and closed and her chocolate eyes were wide in terror.

He couldn't move, couldn't breathe.

"Mother?!" Spock choked out.

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