Living In My Sister's Shadow

by bornpuppetdiedcrying

Harou Fujioka, he's Haruhi's older twin brother and he doesn't show lots of his emotions. Harou and Haruhi look almost identical, except for the fact that Harou's hair is a dark brown and his brown eyes have a red sheen to them. And for poor Harou, he's always been living in his little sister's giant shadow. p.s i don't own OHSHC and this story is a SHONEN AI STORY. don't hate me

15. Chapter 15

Limss 15

Waking up in the morning was painful, my eyes stung unremorsefully from all the crying I did while Haruhi and Dad were gone, and I just felt like crap emotionally. I still feel really guilty about slapping Tamaki and I planned on apologizing but I didn't have the blonde's phone number and it was winter break and Christmas was tomorrow so there was no school for a week.

Looking down at my phone I saw I had a single text message from an unknown number.

-(xxx) xxx-xxxx- (11:34 AM)

Harou this is Kyoya, Tamaki forced me to text you to see if you were alright and to say that he was sorry from what he said at the Christmas dance.

-KO

After reading the message I clenched my teeth and glared down at the screen, "That bastard!" I hissed angrily, "He has no reason to apologize! Ugh, I could hit him right now… " I continued to glare at my phone before I added Kyoya to my contacts and texted back

-Harou (11:47 AM)

Hey Kyoya, I don't want to know how you got my phone number but I'd like to ask a favor. Could you see if Tamaki is free today and if he is, tell him to go to the town park at 1:30 PM. I really want to talk to him in person but I don't think he'd willingly come if he knew it was me he'd meet.

~Fuck Life~

After sending the message I rub the gunk out of my eyes and reach for my glasses that were sitting on the floor next to the head of my bed. I slipped on my glasses and got out of bed. Walking over to my dresser I pulled out a black long sleeved turtleneck and a pair of dark gray skinny jeans along with a clean pair of boxers. Walking across the hall I entered the bathroom and took a quick shower before changing into my clean clothes and throwing my dirty ones into the laundry basket.

Re-entering my room I looked at my phone and saw that Kyoya responded.

-Kyoya- (12:13 PM)

I called Tamaki; he'll be at the park at 1:30. Have a nice day Harou.

-KO

Sitting down I smiled, 'Thank you Kyoya.'

*Kyoya's P.O.V.* (Earlier)

I was lying in bed sound asleep when my phone started ringing, normally I would have ignored it since I was still tired but the ringtone wasn't my usual one.

'Kyoya, its Tamaki! Pick up your phone! I need to talk to you! It could be an emergency, please pick up!'

Growling angrily I threw my arm out and clicked my phone on, holding it up to my ear. "Tamaki what is it?" I snarled venom dripping from my voice, "I hope you have a good reason waking me up this early in the morning, especially since we don't have school or the host club to deal with."

"I'm sorry…" Tamaki said weakly from the other end of the call, "I just was wondering if you could text Harou and see if he's alright. I feel really bad about what I said and I wanted to apologize but I don't have his number."

"Fine," I sighed before hanging up and grabbing my notebook from my bed stand. Flipping through the pages to get to Harou's number was simple enough; quickly I punched in the number to my phone and sent the first year a text.

Soon after Harou responded and asked me to call Tamaki Sighing once again I hit redial and waited for the blonde to pick up.

"Hello?" Tamaki asked softly

"Tamaki, it's me, Kyoya, I was wondering if you'd be up to meeting me at the town park at one thrity."

"Really Kyoya? You want to get together?!" Tamaki shouted happily, it wasn't often when I asked Tamaki to hang out; it was usually Tamaki who dragged me along with things.

"Yes, yes. Now are you free?"

"Obviously! It's winter vacation! I was just planning on staying home and watching some commoner movies I found."

A sweat-drop rolled down the side of my head "…Well why don't you save the movies for a later date. I really want to see you today."

"Okay Kyoya! I'll see you at one thirty!"

Hanging up the phone I give Harou the news and finally go back to sleep

*Harou's P.O.V.*

Walking out into the living room I saw dad was sitting at the table eating pancakes with Haruhi.

"Hello Harou!" Dad smiled not noticing my slightly puffy eyes, "If you want some pancakes there are some leftover on the counter"

"Thanks" I smiled softly before going to the kitchen to get me my breakfast. I warmed up my pancakes and got some pure maple syrup and milk to go with the fluffy hot cakes.

Eating my food on the kitchen floor I look up and see the lard stab wound in the counter and turn my eyes away. Leaning my head again the counter I wonder, 'What am I going to say to Tamaki?' pushing the now empty plate away from me I place my forehead on the top of my knees as I hug them close to my chest, 'Is there anything I can say?'

I'm sorry

The words rang through my head I clench my eyes shut and wished to be swallowed by blackness. No matter how much regret I felt, would those simple words take away the guilt? Would the stupid blonde brush me off and hold a grudge? I don't know the answer and it scares me… I'm afraid… I don't want to lose anyone else and be left with no one because of stupid errors in my actions.

Sighing I lift my head and push myself off of the floor. I walk out of the kitchen and back to my bed room, glancing at my clock I noticed that time flew and it was already 12:45 PM it surprised me how much time had passed so I threw on a simple light gray beanie and a white scarf around my neck. I grabbed my fingerless black gloves and stopped at the closet to grab my navy blue thick coat. Passing Ranka and Haruhi I stopped and gave them a kiss on their cheek and said good bye, and that I was going out for a while, but not before slipping on brown boots with great traction. The town park was about 45 minutes away from home on foot so I'd have time to spare before it got to 1:30.

*Tamaki's P.O.V.*

After Kyoya called me I got really excited and got changed into some of my more casual and 'commoner' looking clothes so I'd blend in better. Truth be told I was nervous about going to this town park, I've never been there but I've seen it many times as my chauffeur would drive past it on random adventures. The park always seemed to be filled with life in the morning and evenings, it was amazing how such a simple place could bring so many people happiness.

How do I know that, you ask? Well because so many people stand there watching young children play and just have serine looks on their face, like they're at peace. And I envy them, I feel like I'll never fully be at peace, even though I've been so well off all my life. Those people, some have close to nothing but they always have a reason to smile, but I see so many rich and powerful men have wealth and riches but they never seem to find happiness within their lives.

I sigh sadly and run a hand through my golden locks, I wonder if Harou accepted my apology? I hope he did… I never meant any harm to him and it kills me when I realized I insulted him yet again. Harou, the boy was a mystery to me. He always seemed so closed off and distant, even though he has a twin sister, the fujioka's are nothing like Hikaru and Karou. Harou and Haruhi seem anything but close, like two sides of the same coin. Haruhi just shows indifference to all but Harou… He seems to have so many emotions that are trapped and begging to get out. Like he forces himself to stand by himself, like he expects no one to wish to stand by his side and help him stand.

While eating breakfast I kept to myself, I wasn't sure why but I just had a lot on my mind at the moment. 'I really wish I asked Kyoya for Harou's phone number…' I though realizing it would have been easier for me to contact the short brunette. Slamming a palm to my forehead I try to text Kyoya, but he doesn't reply much to my detest.

"Master Tamaki" one of my butlers spoke, catching my attention, this man's name was William

"Yes?" I asked looking up from the table

"Is there something on your mind?" William asked concern weaved through his voice. William was one of the butlers that I was closer to. William was an older man and had graying honey brown hair that was pulled back into a small pony tail. Will had wise muddy brown eyes that when I thought about it looked a lot like Harou's minus the red glaze.

"Actually there is" I spoke softly to the elder man bowing my head in embarrassment.

William smiled gently and placed a hand on my head and ruffled my hair messily, "Well master Tamaki, if you'd like I could lend an ear to hear out your problem and thoughts."

"Thank you William" I said sincerely, getting out my dining chair to hug my butler, "Do you mind lending your ear now? Or do you have work to do?"

"I'm free at the moment, if you'd like we can retreat to your private quarters to keep prying ears away."

"That'd be good" so William and I walked to my bedroom and I sat down on my bed, pushing my bangs out of my eyes, "William" I suddenly spoke, cutting our silence short, "Have you ever hurt someone. Someone you might not fully understand but truly wish to."

"I don't think I have sir, is this bothering you? Having hurt that person."

"Yeah…" I whispered, "You see, there's this boy whose new to the host club at Ouran, his name is Harou Fujioka and he's just so mysterious… I can never understand him and I know for a fact that he's had a rough past. Although he hasn't full on said it it's obvious to see that he's been hurt one to many times, and yet here I am. Trying to make him happy and I keep screwing up and making him worse!" I clench my fists and teeth in anger, "I keep screwing up and I'm afraid he'll never forgive me for all the things I've done to him! I mean he's already slapped me."

"So that's how you got that bruise?" Will asked gently prodding my left cheek, which had slight bruising from Harou's furious slap.

"Yeah… I had messed up and he got mad. I hope he'll forgive me…" lowering my head I stare at the ground blankly, wishing with all my heart that I would get forgiven

"Master Tamaki" Will said lifting my chin so I could look at his face, which at the moment held a reassuring smile, "I'm sure Harou will forgive you. I've seen many people with horrible pasts get hurt, and from what I've seen in all my years, those who harm and feel guilt are forgiven. If it was a misunderstanding and you harmed Harou on accident I don't think he'll hold a grudge. Just explain your side of the story to him. From how you hold Harou you seem to respect him and in many cases respect goes both ways. Now I'm not telling you everything will be okay just like that. There may be a grudge or resentment held, but like wrinkles on clothing, if you work at it you can smooth them out. Now I say at the first chance you get, you better talk to Harou and start smoothing things out, because I don't want you to be so upset when iot could have been over nothing."

"Thanks William" I smiled at His true words. When I got the chance I would apologize and make things right, but for now I needed to go to the town park to meet Kyoya because it was 12:50 and the drive to the park was well over thirty minutes and I didn't want to be late. "Hey Will" I said getting off my bed and going over to my gigantic walk in closet to get some warm outer gear since the temperature has dropped dramatically.

"Yes Master Tamaki?"

"Could you drive me to the town park? I'm meeting a friend at 1:30"

"Of course sir"

"Thanks" I ran out of my room and to the garage, and climbed into the main limo. William came in not long after words and he swiftly drove me to my destination.

Finally at the town park it looked like it always did. People smiling and being happy at the simple things in life, William had parked the limo a little while away from the park so we wouldn't draw to much attention and so I could just seem like a normal person enjoying a walk through the park.

Noticing an empty swing set I walked over and plopped on a chilly plastic seat and rocked back and forth with my feet. I sat there for a while when I hear a voice behind me, "Tamaki is that you?"

The voice didn't belong to Kyoya, who I thought was going to be here, no it was someone entirely different. Getting off the swing I turn towards the voice and my eyes widened slightly. There stood a red nosed Harou Fujioka. His cheeks were flushed from the below average weather and he had a small smile on his pale, well now red face.

"Harou?" I asked in confusion, my voice hardly louder than a whisper

Harou tilted his head forwards and blocked his muddy red eyes with his bangs as he chewed on his bottom lip nervously, "I hope you don't mind that I took Kyoya's place… he was busy and asked if I could go in his stead…"

Looking at Harou I felt my heart flutter, the small teen looked so vulnerable and innocent at this moment. His face flushed and nervous, it just made me want to preserve that pureness and never have it be tainted.

Cautiously I took a step forwards so Harou and I were less than an arms width away from each other. Quickly I pulled the teen forwards into a hug as I buried my nose into the top of his head. I felt tears of regret and hope prick my lilac eyes.

No words were shared but we both knew what the other had to say. For the feeling of regret had washed over both of us.

I'm sorry

I didn't mean to hurt you

Please feel my regret

Accept my apology

I'm sorry