Santana's P.O.V.
I'm like stuck...with everything. Rachel was right when she said I have to choose but I don't know how. Quinn is...When I sometimes daydreamed of having a normal life, Quinn is the girl I pictured myself with. I didn't have the name or the face but Quinn is everything I wanted, even with her flaws I wouldn't want to be with anyone else. I wouldn't get this close to anyone else ever but her father...he deserves to die and rot in hell. That man destroyed my life and I will destroy him but...If I do this and Quinn find out...I'll lose her. If she doesn't find out I'll always feel guilty for lying to her. This is a lot more complicated than it ever should have become. I should have just killed Russell and left but no I had to make it complicated. Maybe I can get someone else to kill him? But I'll still have the guilt. Why must everything have a consequence?
"I hate you." I say as Rachel walks into the living room.
"What did I do?" She asks as she walks over to me. I stretch my legs out on the couch so she can't sit down but she rolls her eyes and sits on my legs.
"It's your fault I'm so fucking conflicted." I say.
"It's actually yours. You put yourself in this situation, I just pointed out you can't have your cake and eat it too." Rachel says and I roll my eyes.
"That's the fucking stupidest expression. Why have cake if you're not going to eat it?" I say and Rachel sighs.
"You know what I mean. You have to choose and I've already told you what I think you should choose."
"Why should I choose her?" I ask.
"Because love is rare in our profession. You should take this opportunity while you can. Plus she's perfect for you and I've never seen you this happy."
"But he killed my parents."
"And he'll get what's coming to him, you don't have to be the person to give it to him." Rachel says and I sigh.
"But I want to."
"Then choose." Ugh.
"I still hate you." Rachel smiles at me.
"I love you too." Then she gets up and walks upstairs.
Damn it. I fucking hate when Rachel is right. I should probably think on it some more but...what's the point? I've been thinking for almost three weeks and I still have absolutely nothing. Ugh. I seriously hate this. I'm such a fucking idiot. I grab the remote from the coffee table and flip through channels until I hear my phone ring. I pick it up and place it between my ear and shoulder.
"Hey." I say and hear a deep sigh.
"Are you okay?" I ask.
"Can I come over?" Quinn asks and I nod my head before realizing that she can't see me.
"yeah. What's wrong?" I ask and Quinn sniffles.
"I'll tell you when I get there." The phone clicks and put it in the pocket of my sweat pants. I wonder what's up with her.
Quinn gets here about 10 minutes later and tells me what happened. While her father was in the shower this morning, crystal sent him a text telling him how David had been missing his father and then something sexual along with it. Quinn was still sleeping when she heard her parents arguing and when she tried to diffuse the situation her mother showed her the text message. Russell eventually came clean about his affair and Judy kicked him out of the house. That's when Quinn called and came over. I can tell she just doesn't know how to feel about the situation.
Quinn has been...numb I guess. When she first got here she was pissed and I had to calm her down then she was sad and cried for a half an hour. Now she's just lying here staring at my ceiling with her legs dangling from my bed. I'm sitting by the head of the bed with my back against the headboard. My knees are bent in front of me and I'm on my phone playing angry birds. I don't want to pressure her into talking and I don't have anything better to do so I figure playing a game is better than sitting here and being bored to death by silence.
"The man I've known my entire life...the man that raised me and I looked up to...I don't even know him. I don't know my own father...who is this man? I just...I don't get it." Quinn finally says and I look up from my phone to find her head still facing my ceiling.
"You don't get what?" I ask as I sit my phone down on the bed.
"How can a person just lie constantly everyday for 7 years to the people you claim to love? How can you start another family? I just...I don't get it." She says and I sigh.
"Well...maybe he was trying to protect you guys? He didn't want to hurt you."
"If he didn't want to hurt us he wouldn't have had an affair at all." Quinn says and I nod my head. I can't say she's wrong.
"You're right but people fuck up. It happens."
"So you're trying to justify what he did?" She asks and turns her head towards me.
"No. I'm saying people fuck up all the time. We as humans do incredibly stupid shit." I say and Quinn looks back at the ceiling.
"Francine knew. That's why she hates my dad so much."
"You talked to her?" I ask and Quinn nods her head and sighs.
"Are you mad that she knew?"
"No. I don't blame her for not saying anything. It wasn't really her place and I doubt my mom or I would have even believed her." Quinn says and I nod my head.
"So how are you feeling right now?" I ask and she shrugs.
"I guess...nothing. I'm still pissed but I'm slightly calm right now. I guess I'm just letting everything sink in." I nod my head and down the bed and lie next to her but on my stomach.
"I think I want to meet him...my brother...not now but...yeah. I want to meet him." Quinn says as she turns her head towards me.
"You're sure?" I ask and she nods her head.
"No matter what he's my brother and I don't know him, and it's not like he can just call me." Quinn says with a shrug and I nod my head.
"Maybe you can convince Francine to do the same thing. He might as well get to know the both of his sisters right?"
"Yeah. I'll talk to her about it I guess." Quinn says then sighs and looks at the ceiling again.
"You think you know a person...and they lead a totally different life." Quinn says. If I didn't feel like a complete ass already, I do now. I'm no better than Russell right now. I'm deceiving...well deceived...no I am deceiving Quinn. She knows almost everything about me besides the fact that I'm paid to kill people, I want to kill her dad and I only dated her to kill her...well in the beginning anyway. Ugh...I wish I could tell her the truth...well...maybe I can, one day.
"Is it okay if I stay here for a little while?" Quinn asks.
"Uh yeah. I don't care."
"Thanks I feel so welcomed." Quinn says sarcastically but with a smirk. I roll my eyes playfully and wrap my arm around her waist.
"How do I know this isn't apart of some plan you have to get me to move in with you?"
"Who said I'd want to live with you? So you can annoy me 24/7? I think I'll pass." She says and I roll my eyes.
"Well get the hell out." I say and she shakes her head.
"I think I'm comfortable here."
"Oh are you?" I ask and she nods her head. I move closer to her and kiss her cheek.
"You know you can stay as long as you want right?" I say and Quinn nods.
"You're sure I can stay? I don't want to invade your space or anything. I can stay with Britt or someone else."
"You're fine right here and going to Britt's isn't really going far."
"No but it's still not here."
"Whatever, I want you here so drop it." Quinn turns on her side and faces me. I put my hand on her hip and she puts her hand over mine.
"I'm really glad I have you even if you are an asshole most of the time." Quinn says and I chuckle.
"Ditto."
Moments like these make coming to a decision even harder. I don't want to lose this. I don't want to lose this bond we have but I don't know how to let go of the past...Fuck!
Quinn's P.O.V.
Today would have probably been the worse day of my life if it weren't for Santana. She's the best distraction I could ask for and Puck and Rachel were a big help too. I definitely needed the distraction. The betrayal I feel right now is indescribable. I never would have thought my father would be the kind of man to do this to his family. Is there more I don't know about him? And now I have a brother. Or now I know about him, apparently I've had a brother for the past five years. This is just a lot to take in right now. I don't know what to say to him...I don't know if I want to say anything to him. Cheating on my mom is one thing but having another kid...that makes the situation ten times worse. I don't even know how to start to forgive him for this.
A/N: So i decided to take a break from writing. Don't know why but it happened and that's why i haven't updated in a while. I don't like this story anymore, it could have been a lot better to me but i will finish it. I gave you two chapters because this one is really short and i felt like i didn't want to put it up alone. So tell me what you guys like about this chapter and the story in general because I have been considering rewriting it. Bye.