Chapter 9...
So much for avoiding him. I turned to Dimitri who was standing in the doorway.
"Rose…" he said again. It was if he was looking for the right words to say. If I was picking, he wouldn't be saying many words right now.
"What do you want." I snapped sharply.
"I want to apologise." he started. "I…"
"I don't want to hear it." I said cutting him off. "I am here to enjoy myself with Christian and Tasha, not to be pulled down by your annoying apologies and comments."
"Rose! You need to listen to me!" His voice was starting to become raised. "I didn't want to hurt you!"
"If you didn't want to hurt me, you wouldn't have left! If you didn't want to hurt me, you wouldn't have told me you loved me before you left! If you didn't want to hurt me, then you wouldn't be stood there right now! You hurt me just like everyone else! Everyone leaves me! First you, then Adrian! What is wrong with me? Am I just here for everyone else to use and abandon?" My voice was beginning to break. It had started off calm, been raised to yelling, and finally fallen to being almost silent.
"Rose, you must know that's not t-" Dimitri was cut off by another voice and a shove out of the way.
"Rose!" Christian shouted. "Are you okay? What did he say to you? Why are you crying?" I hadn't realised I had tears running down my face until Christian mentioned it. I just shook my head, unable to form any words just yet. Christian managed to say the words I wanted anyway. "Just go Dimitri." He turned and left. I think he gathered that putting up and argument was a lost cause.
Christian led me to the bed and pulled me to the middle of it, wrapping his arms around me. He didn't speak a word, but somehow, he didn't need to to make me feel better. "Did Tasha hear?" I asked quietly in a strained voice.
"No." he said gently. I didn't want to ruin Tasha's holiday, she was looking forward to spending a nice few days with her nephew who was like a son to her. I didn't want to ruin that with petty arguments.
"Good." I said whilst yawning. I'm pretty sure Christian couldn't have understood what I said, but it didn't matter. I fell asleep shortly after that. I had one of the worst dreams I had ever had.
I was with Dimitri, he was cradling me in his arms, telling me he loved me. "I love you Roza." he said in that tone of voice he had only ever used with me.
"I love you too." I repeated despite my instincts telling me I should never say those words to Dimitri again.
Suddenly he was gone. Vanished. His arms didn't cradle me anymore and I was left with nothing. "Dimitri!" I shouted to no one. "Dimitri come back!" No one answered. I looked around and realised that I was at the gym. I got up deciding I should go and look for him. He wouldn't leave. Not again. He couldn't.
"Little Dhampir." Adrian called before coming up behind me. "What's wrong?" he asked.
"Dimitri, where's he gone?" I asked him, dreading the answer.
"He left. Never coming back." he said simply. "But that's okay. I'm here for you little dhampir. I would never leave. I love you remember." Somehow I believed him. Yes Dimitri might leave, but not Adrian as well.
"I love you too." I said back to him. And I believed it. Just like before. I could let myself trust him. Suddenly Lissa came up to us. She looked at mine and Adrian's intertwined hands. Then, she grabbed Adrian's face and kissed him. He kissed back without hesitation. He started to disintegrate in front of me.
"Goodbye Rose." he said before vanishing completely.
That left me alone again. I had opened my heart up to another person, and they had crushed it. I turned and ran to my room. When I got there I saw Christian sat on my bed. He turned to me and wrapped his arms around me in a comforting hug, just like he always did. Just like he always would. Then he got up. He walked towards the door.
"Christian! Come back!" I shouted. He never turned around he just kept walking. Just like everyone did out of my life.
I woke up with a start. I couldn't feel Christian's strong arms around me anymore. He was walking towards the door, just like in the dream. I had to stop him.
"Christian!" I shouted. You could hear the distress, grief and need in my voice. I needed him to come back. I don't think I could stand my life without him in it anymore.
He turned around swiftly. Not like in the dream. He was coming back to me. He wasn't going to leave me. "Christian." I whimpered. "Please don't leave me. Don't be like everyone else who walks out of my life." He looked at me with a shocked expression on his face.
He walked up to me and sat down on the bed beside me. "I would never leave you Rose." he said genuinely.
"Promise?" I asked. I know I sounded like a little girl, but I couldn't help myself. I needed some kind of confirmation. Anything.
He came closer and leaned towards me. He caressed my cheek with his hand. I started to get lost into his ice blue eyes as they stared at me intently. There was something there I had failed to notice before. Something I couldn't quite put my finger on before. He was still leaning closer. Our forehead's were practically touching when he whispered one word to me.
"Promise."