Sasuke woke up with a pounding headache, he looked over and say Naruto snoring softly. His eyes widened, they kissed last night. Sasuke got up quickly and pushed his hand through his hair. 'What the fuck did I do?' he thought. He stumbled out of his room and down to the kitchen. "Have a fun night?" Itachi smiled. "Are mom and dad home?" Sasuke asked. "No…why?" Itachi asked. "Itachi, I kissed him last night." Sasuke whispered. "Oh, well then." Itachi said, taking a sip of his coffee. Sasuke poured himself a cup. "Did you like it?" Itachi asked. Sasuke was silent. "Sasuke!" Itachi yelled. "I don't fucking know!" Sasuke yelled. "Can you stop with all the yelling?! I'm so hungover I could die." Deidara said from the hallway. "Sorry babe, Sasuke is having an issue." Itachi frowned. Sasuke didn't want to explain him, he chugged the rest of his coffee and put his shoes and jacket on and walked out the door. Itachi shook his head. "What happened?" Deidara asked, concerned. "I'm sure you'll find out shortly." Itachi said, pinching the bridge of his nose, his headache was worse now.
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Sasuke drove to his thinking spot and let the wind blow his hair. He pressed his palms into his eyes, trying to fight the tears. He punched the rock beneath him so hard his knuckles began to bleed. He was so confused and angry. He couldn't stop the suffering that was going on in his head. He felt so powerless, he couldn't change this situation. "When does it start getting better?" he asked the wind.
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Deidara walked in Naruto's room, he was sitting on the bed and he looked hurt. "Naruto, what happened last night?" Deidara asked, sitting next to him. "I kissed him Dei…I fucked up!" Naruto said. Deidara was silent. Naruto started scratching at his wrists. "Stop Naruto, don't even think about that." Deidara said. Naruto pressed his palms into his eyes so hard it hurt. Deidara moved his hands away. "Stop!" Naruto yelled. "I can't fucking cry, I can't!" he yelled. Naruto held his hand over his stomach and ran to the bathroom. He started puking, a mix of alcohol and depression. Deidara knelt next to him and held his hair back. Itachi stood in the doorway, Deidara looked up at him, concern behind his eyes so thick it was scary. Itachi put his head down, this was bad.
Naruto was shaking and then he started to cry. Deidara gathered Naruto in his arms and held him tight. Itachi left the bathroom, he couldn't look at this anymore. He was mad at Sasuke for just leaving, running away, like he always did. Sasuke always wanted their fathers acceptance and he was willing to do anything to get it, including being unhappy for the rest of his life.
The front door clicked open and Sasuke walked in and the first thing he heard was Naruto crying. It made his chest hurt. Itachi stared at him from the hallway. Itachi glanced down at Sasuke's hands, they were still bleeding. Itachi didn't speak to him, just let him walk past him. Sasuke was happy his room was before the bathroom so he could sneak away, but the sound of Naruto crying was making his chest hurt so badly. He turned his radio all the way up and screamed. Itachi opened his door with bandages and antiseptic in his hands. He sit Sasuke down and bandaged his hands up. They didn't speak, the music did it for them. Itachi looked up at his brother, the tears were fresh in his eyes, but they didn't dare spill. Itachi sighed and pulled his brother into him. Between songs, Sasuke heard Naruto's crying and he couldn't take it anymore. He rushed out of the room and couldn't make it to the bathroom before he threw up and retched. Itachi rushed to his side. Deidara threw Itachi some towels, they hand a very big situation on their hands and they didn't know what they were going to do.
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It was evening before the house had settled down. Naruto refused to eat dinner and Sasuke locked himself in his room with his music. The house was asleep at midnight and Naruto couldn't sleep. He made his way down the stairs and out the door. Sasuke heard the door click and looked out the window. Naruto was walking towards the garden. Sasuke couldn't stop himself from following him.
Naruto walked to the fountain and sat on its edge, letting the water spray up on his face. He rolled up his sleeve and looked at the scars from all the years of his self-abuse. He reached into his pocket and brought out a small pair of scissors, it was the only thing he could find. "No one needs me…" he whispered. Sasuke was trying to be quiet so he could listen. He saw the metal glisten in the moonlight. His eyes widened. Naruto flipped the scissors around in his hands, contemplating if after two years he should really do this again.
Naruto looked up when he saw a shadow approaching and saw Sasuke stand before him. Naruto couldn't speak. Sasuke knelt down and ran his fingers over Naruto's scars and took the scissors from his hands. Sasuke rolled Naruto's sleeve down. Sasuke embraced him. Naruto slowly slid his arms around Sasuke's shoulder. "I'm sorry…" Sasuke whispered. "When I'm scared of things, I run away, like a coward." Sasuke said. "You're one of the bravest people I've ever met…" Naruto smiled. "Come on, it's getting cold." Sasuke said, extending a hand to Naruto. Naruto followed him inside quietly. They went into Naruto's room. "Now let's try this again…" Sasuke whispered, shaking. Sasuke cupped Naruto's cheek in his hand. Sasuke leaned in and kissed Naruto softly and Naruto leaned into him. A tear slid down Naruto's cheek, Sasuke pulled back and wiped it away. "I'm not afraid anymore…" Sasuke whispered. "I want this…I want you…" Sasuke whispered, his voice cracking. Naruto kissed him again. "This will be our secret, and I won't let them take you from me." Sasuke said and they kissed in agreement.