*I don't own secret life*

After breakfast Ricky give me a kiss and a smile and goes downstairs to work. I get John out of his highchair and tell him to go get ready for bath time and he runs to his room. I go into the bathroom and start filling the tub. As it filling I go to John's room and finish getting him ready for his bath then we have bath time. I love this time with my little boy. I love that he can play in the water and talk to me. I love that he is more of a person now and not a baby.

I'm I ready to have a new baby in this apartment I think to myself, but only for a moment. I'm not going to be negative about this pregnancy this time.

When the bath is over I help John get dressed, then I get dressed, then its 8:30 and off to the nursery we go. As we pass Grant on the way I can't help but think how happy and grateful I am that Ricky convinced me not to go to summer school and work instead, especially with a new baby on the way we are going to need all the money we can save.

As soon as we get to the nursery the nausea hit me. I rushed to get John out of his car seat and into the building drop him down and make it to the bathroom just in time to make in a toilet. As I was going throwing up my co-worker Julie walk in to the bathroom.

"You all right in there" she says

"Yeah, must have just ate something bad" I say back

She doesn't need to know yet. No one needs to know yet besides Ricky and John. I don't even want to tell our moms or dads or Ashley or any of our friends yet. I'm happy to be having another baby even though it's a surprise but I'm not ready for people to know. They won't be happy; they will be judgey and have the "concerned" look on their face I don't want to deal with that yet.

"You want to get out of here for the day, I'm sure we can handle the kids."

"Nah I'll be fine"

"Okay well let's get back out there" she says with fake enthusiasm

I laugh; it's not that I don't like my job. I mean I like kids and watching them and teaching them simple music it's just that I don't want to do it for the rest of my life.

The rest of the day at the nursery goes off without any major issues and by 5:30 John and I were on our way home. We got back to our place by 5:45 which gave me just enough time to call to make my first doctor's and ultrasound appointment. I set it for the last week of July which is was two weeks from today and I make sure it's a time that all three of us can be there like it's supposed to be.

Two weeks I can wait two weeks for this I say to myself as a gently hold my lower belly even though there is nothing there to see yet. I can wait two weeks to see you even if you are just a dot, but I already love you and I do and these two weeks are going to drag by.

~I didn't think people would read this so thanks! and sorry the chapters are short this is my first fic so im kinda new at this I'll try to make them longer I promise!~

love&reading~~Anna