Someday I Will Too

Chapter 3

These days had been rough on them. Octavia got kidnapped and Finn was stabbed. Everything had turned upside down. Bellamy had brought the grounder in the drop ship and tortured him, but no word came out of the bastard's mouth. In the end Octavia had decided to recklessly hurt herself so he would tell her which of the little bottles was the antidote for Finn's poisoning.

Clarke tried to apologize to her but she wouldn't listen. The feelings of hatred towards Clarke had returned .They had returned back to the start.

Clarke wasn't really interested in following Octavia around trying to explain her own decisions to someone who wasn't interested in listening to her. She had given up on trying. It was time for Octavia to grow up and man up. To realize that sometimes people do whatever the hell was necessary to survive.

Clarke was determined to make her see that.

'Octavia' She called her name before she climbed to the third floor of the drop ship.

She was there, with the grounder. She was putting something on him. He was shaking .

'What do you want?'She asked not turning around.

'Look, seriously ,I've tried to apologize to you million times already. The least you could do is to listen to what I have to say.'

'And why would I do that?'Octavia asked using her brother's line

Clarke wasn't surprised. As much as Octavia was trying to be different, she looked up to her brother and sometimes even tried to act like him. The problem was it didn't suit her.

'I'll tell you why. Most of the people here are either afraid of him or want him dead. I'm probably the only one who's trying to understand him and I know it's hard for him to accept it, but I'm at your side right now. Please, if you could explain to him this in a way that he could understand.'

'He under-'

'I know he does. He just doesn't want to listen to the others. So this is my proposition. Make him listen.'

'He's been through enough, don't you think? Because of you. Because of you my brother did all this. I don't understand his reasons, but I sure don't like them.'

'Yes, I admit, it was my fault. And now I will have to live with it. You don't get to put this on your brother.'

'WHAT? You seriously just said that!..Clarke, my brother destroyed him. After all he did for me. After he saved my life.'

Octavia was pushing it. Clarke wasn't the one to defend Bellamy because she knew best that he wasn't an angel.

'And what, Bellamy did nothing for you?'She raised an eyebrow.

Octavia opened her mouth to say something but nothing came out. She knew it wasn't like that. Her brother would do anything for her. And he had proven it so many times. She just didn't want to accept that the grounder was going to be blamed for saving her.

'That's what I though'

'Don't act like you know me, Clarke, because you don't…I have been living under the floor for 16 years. I don't know what real life is. I'm learning to understand life. But what my brother did..The shooting ,the torturing…this isn't him. Even if it was for me. I didn't ask for any of this.'

'Yes, I asked for the torturing. But he didn't do it only for me. Damn it ,Octavia, he did it for Finn and all the other that lost their lives. Why is it so hard for you to believe that?'

'Because Bellamy doesn't care about anyone else!'

That was harsh. Clarke felt her teeth grit. She knew that wasn't right. Especially coming from Octavia's mouth.

'You don't mean that' She told her unable to believe what she had just heard.

'Oh but I do. Have you seen my brother, Clarke? He only cares about himself. And me, occasionally. I know him better, I've lived with him.'

'You must be really confused then.'

'Why do you think so?'

'Well ,for starters, remember how last week you decided to tell me the story of the Blake's? From what I heard back then, Bellamy is nothing but a loving brother to you. What changed?'

'I let you see the bright side of him.'

'Okay…now you see I have a dark side too. News flash, we all have dark sides, some of us are just better at hiding them. Your brother's not an angel. We all know that, but if you think I will let you blame him for everything that's happened, you're so wrong.'

'I don't know what you've done to him to make him listen to every word you say..'

Clarke knew there was nothing else to be said. Octavia would just keep repeating what she knows. It wasn't worth the time.

'One thing. Appreciate your brother.'

Octavia didn't say anything. She just looked at the grounder. He had been watching her the whole time. She smiled weakly at him and sat down with her hand in her hair.

It was raining again. Why would anyone be surprised. Winter was approaching and faster than they thought.

Clarke was trying to fix a guy's leg when Bellamy entered the drop ship. The first floor had been their medical room.

'What happened this time?'The question wasn't for Clarke, it was for the boy ,who at this point was screaming from pain.

'I-uh...tried to..ugh!'He couldn't speak, the tears from his eyes were falling like a waterfall.

He must be around 14 years old.

'He was stupid enough to climb on a tree to see outside the camp.' Clarke said in a harsh tone. The kid just gulped and closed his eyes again.

'Don't do It again. Next time she won't be in a mood to fix you.'

The kid was left there to rest after Clarke finished. She headed to the exit but was quickly stopped by Bellamy.

'Where do you think you're going?'

'I'm taking a walk. Why, is that a problem?'

'No ,it's just …wait, outside camp?'

'Yes.'

'Then yes, it's a problem. Seriously Clarke, don't make me think about you too.'

That's when she realized he was still holding her by the shoulder.

She jerked back to remove his hand.

'Think about me, why?'

'You wanna go missing too?'

'I need rest, and I am capable of taking care of myself, unlike your sister.' The last three words she whispered while leaving .

He ran to her again.

'Unlike my sister? Why do you involve Octavia in this?'

'I need rest, okay? This here' She opened her hands to point. 'Is driving me insane.'

'Okay, but don't go out of the camp! Clarke!' He yelled after her but she wasn't listening.

Something was up so he decided to go and ask his sister.

'Octavia! What's going on with Clarke?'

'I don't know, why are you asking me?'She tried her best not to stutter.

'I don't know , probably because she mentioned something about you before storming out.'

'What about me?'

'It doesn't matter, will you tell me what happened between you two?'

'Nothing happened, she was being annoying as always.'

Those weren't words Octavia would use for Clarke. She liked her.

'This isn't the new Octavia talking, explain what change.'

'Nothing , Bellamy..nothing.'

'Saying it's nothing won't change the fact that it's not nothing.'

'She..tried to help me. I was being the prick this time.'

'Okay?'

'She told me that she wanted to make him understand her intentions weren't bad. That almost everyone here wanted him dead and she was our only ally. I was so mad I started the fight. I told her some horrible things..about her being the main person to blame and that she had done something to make you listen to every word she said..I know…I know it's not right..She ..de-defended you when I was spitting poison at your direction…I'm sorry ,Bell.. I never meant to…I was just mad. Please…just don't hate me..But you have to understand that I care about him. And I don't want you to hurt him. That's all.' She was crying now. The same tears as if she was still a little girl. He decided to ignore the last things she had said and turned around to climb down the ladder.

The rain hadn't slowed down. He wondered if she had actually listened to him and had stayed in the camp. He started looking around.

'I'm here.' He heard her weak voice still trying to sound strong.

'What's going on ,Princess?'This time she couldn't help but notice how soft his voice was.' You can tell me.'

' I'm not sure, Bellamy. I'm trying so hard to keep everything around me under control, but somehow it's not working. Nothing's working…'

He came closer and pulled her with him so the rain would stop soaking them.

'Tell me'

'Octavia hates me. That grounder isn't helping either. Finn is trying to walk and it's only been a few days ,which means he should be resting. Raven is trying to keep him down but he resist. No one is helping us. The camp is still a mess. I am a mess.' She was the one shaking this time.

'Hey, hey, hey, stop it now. Okay? I told you everything was going to be fine, no?'

'You weren't right..'

'It doesn't happen so fast, Clarke. It takes time. People are still coping from the storm. Finn is probably feeling like he would do another space walk after laying so many days. And Octavia doesn't hate you. She told me what happened. She feels sorry and admitted being the prick this time' He smiled at her.

And something in his smile made her heart stop for a second. Then start beating with the speed of light. It was something so unexpected from him.

Then she realized. He was doing the same for her.

He was helping her by not letting her break down.

Her hands found its place on his shoulders and she slowly embraced him.

That was her 'thank you'

He knew. They would always do this.

Not letting each other crash into million pieces.