You wake up in a hospital room and realize that you're actually alvie. You didn't do good enought suicide and too bad vecause you wont have another chance fr it.
And the first face you see belongs to the igrl you don't love, and she's crying, and you reach for her handm because you kind of do love her but as a friends.
"Dylan," she says, "Dylan, you were going to kill yourself for me"
"Yeah, and I almost got away with it too."
"Well, you do love me then."
"Really?"
"You love me enough that you would kill yourself so I woudn't break. You love me enough to not care that you'd be dead and I wuld break anyways. You love me but not the way I want you to."
"Claire, maybe I do…"
"No, you're on drugs and stuff and I can't make you love me and I can't make you anything but what you are and I don't know or care what that is but you don't love me and if I love you I'll let you not love me."
"Claire. I love you. I love you more than there are words enough to love there's only math and love and death to love you with and I love you with all of it."
"Shut up, you're high on headache meds."
"Shut up, you're blonde."
We both laugh, and it explodes inside of me like fire and atomic bombs and nerf guns but laughing is good for her so I keep going.
"You're blonde and you love me and I love you and I will never listen to anything you say unless you say Dylan I brought you doughnuts and they're cream filled not custard filled because custard is gross."
"Too bad, they're rainbow sprinkle."
"Oh god I do love you okay and thank you for doughnuts."
"You're oh so very welcome."
And I get sprinkles down my hospital gown and I'm in therapy for two weeks and everything but my mind is finally starting to clear itself up again and that's it.
I finished this something and now it is done and I updated it all because IT IS DONE NOW.
This is my first completed fic (!) - lol I'm so excited over this how crazy is that?
Well I will make more literature for y'all if you want (I feel so SOUTHERN - which should be normal but I never say y'all except for twice right now) just keep those ideas coming towards my face like dangerous weapons!
ilysm everybody because you voluntarily read my stuff!
xox all the shattered pieces