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Chapter 11 Cry
"Arrrrghhh!" Eren screamed, punching the dorm wall.
He went on a rampage, destroying whatever he wanted in the room. Papers blanketed the floor, the beds were shoved apart, and there several dents in the wall. Eren kicked his chair, breaking one of its legs clean off.
Damn it! How did this happen...? Why did this happen?! Why?!
Levi was standing outside, his eyes closed. He felt his heart sink deeper in his chest as he listened to the anguished wails of his lover. He bit his lip, trying his best to restrain himself from running in there and trying to comfort him.
Who would have thought just a few days ago, everything seemed fine?
~.~.~.~.~.~
Two Days Ago...
When January 31st arrived, the students of Kibou University returned to a trash ridden campus. That day, all 17,000 students were required to fill up at least five trash bags worth of debris to help clear up the campus. Just as Eren walked towards the parking lot with his trash bags, Carla's van pulled up revealing Mikasa and Armin.
"Eren!" Mikasa cried, jumping out of the van. Armin followed suit while Carla parked.
"Hey Mikasa! Armi- oof!" The breath was knocked out of Eren as Mikasa squeezed him.
"We were so worried about you! We had no idea if you were safe or not. I think that took off ten years of my life." Mikasa told him.
"Where did you and everyone else go?" Armin asked curiously.
"We went to Trost." Eren replied.
Mikasa's mouth formed a firm line. "Oh... where father is,"
"I never saw him." Eren sighed. "Levi, Hanji, and I stayed at Petra's house. If I saw him there, I don't know what I would have done."
"Eren, he called the house two weeks ago, asking mother for a divorce."
Eren gasped, his eyes widening. "What?"
Armin looked away uncomfortably as Mikasa continued. "She looked absolutely devastated. She has no idea I know, so please don't bring it up to her."
Eren nodded just as Carla was walking up to them.
"Hi!" She said brightly. "Eren, I missed you so much! We were so worried about your safety!"
Carla wrapped her arms around Eren in a tight hug. Eren leaned into his mother's embrace.
"Mom... I'm so sorry about the way I treated you." Eren whispered. "If I could take back whatever I said to you, I would. You're the best mother ever, and I wouldn't want anyone else."
Carla pulled away, her smile still there. "Don't apologize. I've already forgiven you. I thought a lot about it, and some of things you said were true. I was antagonizing you, and it was wrong for me to do so. I'm sorry too."
"For what?" Eren tilted his head.
Carla chose not to respond, and hugged her son again. After she pulled away, Eren got a good look at her face. He was surprised to see streaks of grey in her hair, and he could spot wrinkles on her eyes.
"Stay safe, and listen to Mikasa more, will you?" Carla laughed slightly, stroking Eren's cheek. "In the end, all you'll have is each other as family. I'll miss you."
"Mom, why are you saying this?" Eren asked, raising an eyebrow. "Spring break isn't that far away. About a month in a half, to be exact."
Carla checked her watch. "Well, I better get going. Goodbye..." She said wistfully.
Eren was slightly disturbed at Carla's strange behavior as she headed back towards the van, the smile never leaving her face.
"Mother refuses to talk to me about her problems." Mikasa whispered sadly to Eren. "Father is a jerk for doing this to her. As soon as we graduate, we need to take her far from here and settle somewhere where we all can be happy."
Eren nodded. "Yeah. Maybe she can come down here to Mitras."
A whack on Eren's head ended their conversation.
"What the hell?!" Eren shouted, turning around to face the culprit.
"Stop slacking and get to work." Levi snapped at him. "We all have to make sure this campus is spotless!"
Eren, Mikasa, and Armin stared at the ten full trash bags Levi was somehow carrying in two hands.
"Levi... we're only required to fill five trash bags. We have 17,000 students, you know." Eren sighed.
"Do you think I honestly trust you brats to clean? I'll fill up a hundred bags if it means this campus is perfect by the end of the day."
With that, Levi walked away to dispose of his full trash bags and went to get more.
Eren rubbed the back of his head. "I'll never understand how I ended up dating a clean freak."
Eren turned back around to see Mikasa and Armin staring at him with eyes as wide as dinner plates. Eren realized what he just revealed.
"... shit."
Mikasa and Armin surrounded Eren so he couldn't escape.
"When did this happen? I want to know!" Mikasa demanded.
Eren groaned. "I'll tell you! Let's just get you guys some trash bags and start cleaning before Levi comes back."
As soon as Mikasa and Armin were situated with five trash bags each, they leaned in towards Eren, expecting the juicy details.
"W-Well... we kinda had feelings for each other for a while now..." Eren mumbled awkwardly. "And they escalated during winter vacation. A lot. When we were in Trost, we had out first date, and now we're here."
Eren decided to leave out that the ghost of Erwin came to them, he almost committed suicide, and they made love. Not only would they not believe him, but it would have sounded like a really bad fanfic.
Armin giggled. "So who wears the pants in the relationship?" He asked jokingly.
"I do." Levi walked past them with ten more filled trash bags.
Irritated, Eren glared at Levi's back. "You weren't saying that when I fucked you!"
Levi stopped walking, Mikasa looked shocked, and Armin looked like a deer in the headlights.
"What?" Mikasa's mouth gaped slightly.
"Eren, a word." Levi seethed, grabbing Eren harshly by the ear.
"Ow!" Eren cried as Levi dragged him away, leaving a surprised Mikasa and a confused Armin behind.
Levi took Eren behind the Pearl Dorms and slammed him against the wall.
"If you really want to see how sex is supposed to be as the dominant, I will happily show you." Levi licked his lips. "But I assure you, you won't be able to walk straight for a week. You'll look like a fucking penguin. Only Morgan Freeman won't be there to narrate your struggles."
Before Eren could say anything, Levi captured his lips with his in a brief kiss.
"Luckily for you, I still have a lot of cleaning to do, so that will have to wait for a while. So I'll see you a little later. And... ah... I love you."
Eren smiled at Levi's awkwardness. "It'll take a while to get used to saying that, huh?"
"No. It's just hard to say it when you're making such a stupid face. I'll see you later." Levi huffed, walking away to continue filling up the trash bags with debris.
Eren sighed happily as he walked back over to Mikasa and Armin. Things are looking up. They really are.
Something happened. I must have jinxed it. I did something wrong. Because as soon as I thought things were going to be okay, everything turned into a train wreck.
Two days later in the evening, there was a frantic knock on Eren and Levi's dorm door. The two looked up from their studying.
"Who could that be?" Eren walked over to the door and opened it, revealing a grief stricken Mikasa. She looked like she was in shock, and her face was stained with tears. The black haired girl was whimpering slightly, and she was trembling.
"Mikasa! What's wrong?!" Eren cried, dragging her inside the dorm. He sat her down in his chair and rummaged through his closet, taking out a plastic bottle of water. He then ran to the bathroom, running cold water over a washcloth. He jogged back over to his sister, handing her the bottle and pressing the washcloth to her forehead.
Levi kneeled next to Mikasa, concern apparent in his expression. "Mikasa... what happened?" He asked calmly.
Mikasa sniffed once, trying to remain as calm as possible. "She... she's gone...!"
"What? Who?!" Eren leaned closer to Mikasa, patting her face with the washcloth.
Mikasa wiped her eyes. "I... got a call from the Shiganshina police department... and mother is..."
Mikasa choked on her words, unable to hold back her tears any longer. Eren felt his stomach twist. "Mikasa... what? What happened to mom? What do you mean she's gone...?"
"She... she committed suicide." Mikasa covered her face. "They found her lying on the ground, a bunch of pill bottles surrounding her. She wrote a suicide note. And... the official cause of death was an overdose on prescription drugs. The note stated that she did not want us to see her body, so they will cremate her tomorrow. She wrote that she loved us... and she just couldn't take being alone anymore. She thought we all were going to leave her. All her life, she was abandoned by people she thought cared about her. And now, she thought she was going to be alone for good."
After Mikasa finished, she was reduced to sobs. Eren looked horrified, his irises and pupils shrinking.
No.
No.
No no no no no.
No no no no no no no no.
Eren started to laugh, catching Levi by surprise. "Mikasa... ha ha ha... that's not very funny. April Fools isn't for another two months... ha ha... ha ha ha ha ha ha."
"Eren..." Mikasa sniffled. "She's gone."
"No she is not!" Eren's voice rose several decibels. "You're lying! I saw her with my own eyes two days ago!"
Eren looked like he was about to attack Mikasa, so Levi quickly grabbed her and took her out of the dorm.
"Damn it all to fucking hell!" Eren shouted, feeling his hate for his father and himself deepen with every passing second.
Eren needed to destroy something. Anything. Everything.
Eren did not hold back as he threw textbooks across the room.
Mom... I'm so sorry for hurting you!
He threw a mug containing pencils on the wall, shattering into pieces.
You weren't alone! I love you! Mikasa loves you! Armin loves you! We were your family!
"Arrrrghhh!" Eren screamed, punching the dorm wall.
He went on a rampage, destroying whatever he wanted in the room. Papers blanketed the floor, the beds were shoved apart, and there several dents in the wall. Eren kicked his chair, breaking one of its legs clean off.
Damn it! How did this happen...? Why did this happen?! Why?!
Levi was standing outside, his eyes closed. He felt his heart sink deeper in his chest as he listened to the anguished wails of his lover. He bit his lip, trying his best to restrain himself from running in there and trying to comfort him.
Who would have thought just a few days ago, everything seemed fine?
An hour later, Eren was curled up on the bed, rocking back and forth. The dorm looked like its own hurricane had blown through. Levi slowly opened the door, not caring about the mess. As soon as he spotted Eren on the bed, he hurried over, sitting down next to him. He gently pulled Eren into his arms as Eren bawled on his chest.
"I didn't do shit to help her." The brunette sobbed. "All this time, she kept her own problems a secret, trying to protect me and Mikasa, when in reality, she was the one who needed protecting. I should have been there to tell her everything would be okay! But I didn't! I was the selfish brat! My shit father left us! I was supposed to step up, but I didn't! I don't deserve any form of love or happiness from anyone!"
Levi wisely remained silent. He stroked Eren's hair as he cried and cried. When Eren eventually fell asleep, Levi's eyes were hard as he tucked Eren in bed.
That bastard Grisha Jaeger will be visited by a demon soon. He'll wish he never knew the name Levi.
Yes, there has been another twist in the plot. How will Eren and Mikasa cope with the loss of Carla? What exactly is Levi going to do?
I'm sorry for the short chapter. I'm not sure how long chapter 12 will be either. But we'll cross that bridge when we get there.
So, how about that March of the Penguins reference I snuck in there? Yeah? No... okay.
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