A/N: *Whistles* woooooweeeee hot body and a case full of money. That he may or may not have gotten form killing people for bounty. Here goes another one of my fabulous break downs. Just letting ya know, I think the break downs will start to happen less and less. I am still pretty stunned that Kakuzu is HERE. So just sit back and watch me crumble. HE FINALLY KISSED ME, OMG. But he's having a little bitch fit. Maybe I can straighten him out… hmmm.
OH and I am sorry if there is a little bit of OOCness on Kakuzu's part. It just goes along with fan fiction, ya just gotta tweak the characters a bit to get them to flow with your story (; I will try my best to keep him in character as much as I can. But what can I say, I think I've got the man hooked(; Love changes a person.
Disclaimer: I own everything but Kakuzu in this story *Cries* (Well maybe not my friends. They actually help me with their own character in the story, so they should get some credit.) *Claps* If I did so happen to own Naruto and the associated characters, I am sure there would be some people that I would like to bet some sense into. And others that I would give more screen time and avoid their deaths. I understand why Masashi Kishimoto did it, I just kind of wish he hadn't. (Mumbling about writers who kill off the good characters way too quickly)
He kissed ME and now he's upset and storming off! What the hell! If I had said something he really didn't like, he would have done something other than kiss me! Maybe I know nothing about him at all. What the fuck is his problem.
I leap up, snatch my phone and my purse off the floor and storm down the stairs. When I get to the bottom Milyssa is standing there talking to dad about some anime. She looks at me and opens her mouth to say something but quickly closes it when she sees the rage plastered across my face.
I get to the front door and yank on my boots, seeing Kakuzu in my peripheral vision sitting on the couch in the corner. I ignore him and rip open the door and slam it behind me. I race down the front porch steps and take off to the truck. I shove my phone into a pocket of my cheap, blue, over the shoulder purse and throw the bag into the truck. I slam the door and turn around and lean up against it breathlessly.
My fingers find their way to my lips and suddenly I'm back in that room with his mouth against mine. The moment replayed itself over and over in my head. Emotions of desire, disbelief, pain, confusion, regret, and bliss, all mixed together. But one emotion toped it all and threatened to send me over the edge: rage. Rage was coursing through my veins. Begging me to do something rash, something stupid that could make me forget what on earth just happened in there.
I noticed that I was in full view of many windows in the house. Kakuzu is watching and I bet Milyssa and her family are all curious. Who fucking cares!
I take off running into the woods, away from prying eyes. I pick up a big stick and start lashing at everything that was unlucky enough to be in my path. Every once in a while the stick would break so I would be forced to pick up a new one and continue my rampage. The best I can do to get my anger out without committing a felony. After about ten minutes I collapse onto the soft layer of leaves and pine needles. This smells kind of like Kakuzu... NO WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING! BAD! Bad mind!
I drape an arm over my nose to mask out the scent. My hearing wasn't effected at all, so I heard the footsteps as clear as day. I lifted my arm ever so slightly. It was Ian.
"Mom sent me and Milyssa to see if you're okay. Milyssa went to the woods on the other side of the house to look for you. Are you okay?" He walked closer and held out a hand to help me up. I just covered up my eyes and grunted.
"Is it… Kakuzu….? It's so weird to say his name." Ian confessed as he sat down next to me.
"Yeah… it's him…. It's going to be him for a long, long time. What happens when he goes home? What happens if he doesn't go home? What happens when we fight? What happens if I can't move forward with him? And what happens if I can….?" Tears stream down my face as I sit up.
"I don't know the answer to those questions. This is a crazy situation you've been put in. I guess you just gotta try and make the best of it." He shrugged.
"Wow." I giggle and wipe the tears away. "I think that was the first time I have ever heard you say something so nice… and so smart! Where's my dumb brother?! Ian! Iaann!" I cup my hands around my mouth and yell.
He pushed my shoulder and I fall back over into the decaying leaves. He just looks at me.
"What."
"Just be careful."
"I don't need you to tell me to be careful around a world known killer." I wink at him playfully and stand up. "Seriously though. I think I'm going to be okay." I'll just have to keep saying that over and over until I believe it. I brush myself off. "Come on. Ill race ya!" I take off into a dead sprint.
"Hey! You got a head start!"
"So did you guys have fun shopping today?" Mrs. Hilko questions to the three of us. But not one of us say anything. Milyssa's portably thinking too hard about something to hear mom. Kakuzu is just a prick. And I'm still pissed.
"I think we might need to get you a box so we can send you all your new stuff." She states as she looks at me in the rearview mirror.
"It's his." I jeer my thumb in Kakuzu's direction without looking at him.
"Oh! It's good that you got some more clothes."
Kakuzu sat on the other side of the vehicle, both of us turned as far away from each other as we possibly could and Milyssa sat shotgun.
"Guess that's why everyone is so tired." Mrs. Hilko turned up the radio. I did my absolute best to focus on the music and not notice when the lighting was right and I could see Kakuzu's reflection.
"Do they have supermarkets in your world?" Mrs. Hilko asked Kakuzu as the four of us walked into Kroger.
"Yes. But none so…. Extravagant." He picks up a dragon fruit and turns it over in his hands.
"Are the foods somewhat similar?" Milyssa questions him.
"Yes, there is a lot I recognize." He responds sounding very annoyed. He then walks off and starts browsing alone.
"Sissy, are you okay?"
"I'm fine. He's stupid." Very mature. Should I give myself a round of applause?
I grunt, grab her hand and drag her away while mom inspects the squash and zucchini.
"He gave me a thank you necklace. Milyssa, he gave me jewelry." I pull the necklace from its hiding spot under my t-shirt.
Milyssa gasped. "It's so pretty! He has really good taste." She praised as she reached forward to inspect the necklace. "But why would you be mad?"
"I'm mad because he's such a fucking ass hole." I ump as I realized how loud I said that and quickly looked over at mom. She seemed as though she hadn't heard. I lowered my voice and pulled her a little further away. "Milyssa. Don't freak out. But he kissed me."
"What?! When?! Oh my gosh! I didn't expect that so soon. Tell me how it happened!" Milyssa chattered.
"I didn't expect it either. At all. It just… kind of happened. I came back from the bathroom after reapplying my makeup and he was laying on your bed alone. So I sat next to him, I wanted to know how he was doing with all this new stuff being thrown at him. He changed the subject and asked me why I cared for him. And I babbled about his suffering and justice on the people who wronged him and… and he kissed me! It was…. It was like I was taking off. The adrenaline from taking off in a plane overwhelmed me and threatened to drown me. It was so blissful and exhilarating. I was just living in the ecstasy. And then… then he just. He just looked at me in such disgust, abruptly got up and quickly walked away. He doesn't want me." I finally put it together. He doesn't want me. He's just using me so he can get a grip on this world then split the second he can do without me. The words tumbled out of my mouth and before I knew it I was crying into her shoulder.
"I don't know what to feel." I continue. "I'm still so shocked that this is even happening. I don't know wither or not I want to scream myself awake from this nightmare or let the crazy dream continue. I want to just be near him so bad my body aches when I'm not. I physically hurt when he's far away and I don't know why! How is that even possible?" I look at my hands and notice that they're shaking violently. "Is it possible enough to have such strong feelings for someone that…. That you just can't stand to be far away from them. What in the fuck is going to happen to me if this plan doesn't work out? If the lady just turns us down, assuming the worst doesn't happen and we all end up in jail… What happens when I have to go back to Vegas and he is still here? I'll just go fucking crazy. I'm going crazy now…
"You're not going crazy. You're just confused. And rightly so. But don't worry, just put on that strong face and trudge through it like I know you can do. If anyone can go through this bullshit, and come out on top, it's you. I know you have the strength to overcome any of this. We will figure something out so he can go back with you. You're not in this alone, all this stress doesn't just fall on your shoulders. Let me and Humberto help carry the burden. The four of us will work out a plan that is so good, no one is going to see it coming." She pulled me close to her and hugged me tightly.
I pushed her away slightly. "Milyssa. HE doesn't WANT me! You didn't see the look in his eyes… you didn't… see it." I just now realized where we were. Mom and Kakuzu were nowhere to be seen, but many other shoppers were whispering to one another and stopping and starring. It was like for that moment, noting else existed but me, Milyssa, and my words.
"If he didn't want anything to do with you. Do you really think he would have spent so much money on a necklace for you?"
I held the silver caged, heart shaped garnet in my hands. "No… I guess he wouldn't."
"You do know that while you were looking at dresses in Forever 21, he went over to a jewelry store. He didn't just get that at some dumb little clothing store. He spent some serious cash on you. And what I know about Kakuzu, is that he's a cheap bastard when it comes to other people."
I smiled down at the ground and played with the garnet. "You are literally the best. You always know what to say." I hug her again, "thank you, Milyssa. Now let's go find mom and get us some yummy dinner!"
"Yeah!" Milyssa agrees.
As we walk away, I smile at every single person who had, and still were, looking at me funny. Yeah bitches. I just had a break down right in the middle of the vegetable isle. But now I'm smiling and have my shit together again.
"Hey sissy?" I ask.
"Yeah?"
"You go help mom with what we're getting for the drive in. I need to go pick up some stuff for our plan." I say as I walk off.
Box of rubber gloves. Check.
Index cards. Check.
Bag of cheap balloons. Check.
Vulcanized rubber dry cleaning sponges. Check.
Lighter. Check.
Self-tanner. Check.
Very dark liquid make up. Check.
Manila envelopes. Check.
I run the list over in my head as I check the items in the basket, thinking hard if I need anything else for the plan. I really hope the crime show was correct of how to use some of these items…
I start to make my way to the front of the store to go pay for the items but then someone lightly touches the back of my arm. I gasp a little and turn around. Kakuzu. My heart flutters in my chest, but I push the feeling aside, glare at him, whip around and walk away.
"Jennifer." Kakuzu runs and stands in front of me.
"Get out of my way." I grumbled.
"No."
"What the hell do you want?!" I yell as I push on his chest with my palms. "To play with my emotions some more? I don't fucking like these damn games. You let women hang and droll all over you, in full knowledge what I feel for you. You yell at me and then give me a necklace. You kiss me, blush, and then look completely disgusted! If you don't-"
His lips crash against mine, one strong hand on the small of my back and the other cupping my face. The shopping basket clatters to the floor, its contents spilling out. My whole body lights up like a match in dry grass. My head starts spinning, everything starts spinning and I close my eyes to stop the feeling. All too soon the kiss is over and he pulls away.
He doesn't look at me but I could see the brooding look storm over his face as he reaches down to pick up the items I dropped.
Pain courses through my heart. "You can't just yank me around like this. Don't touch me. Ever again." I snatch the basket from his grasp and throw the rest of stuff in. Tears cascading as I run from him. I can't… I can't be pulled in and pushed away like this….
The second the tuck pulls into the drive way I jump out, grab my bags and dash into the house. I rush past the kitchen and take the stars two at a time. I fought crying the whole way home and now it felt like I was about to drown in my tears. I burst into Milyssa's room and throw myself at the bed. This isn't me. I don't get so weak over someone so fast. I don't cry like a damn baby over a stupid guy, I go out and get my revenge. I vindictively make sure he gets what's coming to him. But I can't do anything but feel weak and helpless around…him. And it makes me so angry!
I yank the covers over myself and curl up into a ball. And just let my emotions flow out.