A/N: movie time with the grumpy old man! WOOT! HE KISSED ME AGAIN ASHDJKSJDKJG. This man is going to be the death of me. I give him a piece of my mind in this chapter.
Oh and sometimes I write my authors note before I know what's going on in the chapter, and sometimes I write it after I have completed my chapter. Just all depends on what kind of mood I'm in!
Disclaimer: I own everything but Kakuzu in this story *Cries* (Well maybe not my friends. They actually help me with their own character in the story, so they should get some credit.) *Claps* If I did so happen to own Naruto and the associated characters, I am sure there would be some people that I would like to beat some sense into. And others that I would give more screen time and avoid their deaths. I understand why Masashi Kishimoto did it, I just kind of wish he hadn't. (Mumbling about writers who kill off the good characters way too quickly)
"Jenny Lynn. Wake up sweetie." Mrs. Hilko was sitting on the bed next to me. She had a glass of water and a little cup with pills in it. "How are you feeling? I brought you some water and medicine." She coaxed.
I guess I fell asleep crying.
I sit up and take the pills and water from her.
"Do you still want to go tonight?" She asks as she moves a strand of hair that was dried to my cheek from crying.
I nod as I swallow the pills.
"Do you want to tell me what's going on? Milyssa told me a little bit about what happened. We can make him leave you know."
"That's…" my voice cracked. "That's the last thing I want. I don't know what's going on with me. I guess I just want something I can't have. I'm sorry I've been… acting up, I'm just still not used to this, and I don't think I ever will be."
"I know you'll-" she stops as the door opens. And Kakuzu is standing there.
"I'll let you two talk. We have thirty minutes until we have to leave." She smiles as she gets up and walks out the door.
"I don't want to talk here." I burst out.
"What?" His voice deep and rumbling.
"I need some fresh air. But I want to change first."
Kakuzu nods and stands outside the door as I close it. I take a deep breath and strip off my old clothes. Then put on a new bra and underwear, a tight fitting orange t-shirt and a pair of heather gray sweat pants. I throw my hair up into a lose bun and grab a white zip up hoodie and my purse.
I open the door and Kakuzu is still standing where I left him. I slip my phone into my pocket and walk down the stairs.
"Hey Milyssa, we'll be right back, but if we're not here before we have to leave just call me. I have my phone." She opens and closes her mouth like she has something to say but she doesn't know how to word it. I smile and walk out the front door.
We start our little walk around the neighborhood in silence. Is he going to say anything or am I just wasting my time?
I take a deep breath. Just let it go. He will talk when he is ready.
I watch as a flock of geese fly overhead, going in the direction of the little lake that was in the center of the neighborhood.
"I'm sorry." Kakuzu breathes out.
Ignore him. Ignore your feelings. You can't have him.
I say nothing and he tries again, a little louder this time. "I'm sorry." I keep walking. He grabs my elbow and spins me around. His green and red eyes searching mine desperately.
Don't give anything away. Erase all emotion. You can't have him.
He drops my arm and crosses his. "This isn't fucking easy you know!" he says rather loudly.
I roll my eyes and walk away. Mad. Now that I can do.
"I can fuck a woman and not feel a damn thing." I stop. Whoa. Is he really going there?
"I don't fucking CARE about your sex life Kakuzu!"I turn and unleash my anger on him. "I didn't fucking ask about it! If that's really what you want to talk about you had better go back and find that prostitute's number, I'm sure she will have a lot to say on the subject! Because you sure as HELL aren't getting anything from me!"
"I thought you wanted me."
"Really? REALLY KAKUZU?! YES I want you. But that doesn't JUST mean sex! I want to laugh with you, I want to fight with you and make up with you, I want to wake up next to you, I want to talk about the universe at three o'clock in the morning while we eat pizza! I want more than just one thing from you. But I'm just now coming to the realization that, pain and suffering is all you can give me." I take a deep breath.
"I-I… didn't mean that. When I first saw you in the anime, it was the mystery of you that first got my attention. Then when I saw what you looked like I thought you were the most interesting character, and when I saw your power I admired you. When your personality showed, you quickly became my favorite character. When I found out why you were so money obsessed… I fell. Just… all the pieces fit together. But you weren't real. All I could do was daydream and write stupid stories. But somehow. You're here, defying all the laws of science. You're tangible and all I want to do is feel your skin. All I want to do is hear your voice. I have to be near you. To somehow… believe that this is real. But when you're kissing me one minute and then looking at me like I'm the worst person you've ever meet, really doesn't help my confusion."
"Stop." He hisses. "I… I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. I don't know where the fuck I am! You think you're the only damn one that's confused?!" he roared. I didn't shrink back, I didn't even blink. I glare at him defiantly. He brings his arms behind his head and ruffles his hair while taking shaky breaths.
You don't know how bad I want to run to you right now, how bad I want to just be in your arms.
He brings his eyes from the ground, back to my own. "What I'm trying to say is. You know so much about me. And it makes me so angry. So angry that you know my weaknesses. That you know how to get to me. And it's not just with the words that you say. It's the way you fucking look at me." He drops his eyes and recrosses his arms. "I do not feel things for women or for anyone. I do not let anything in, I don't let anything get to close. And you… You defy hose laws. You can just walk through the fortress I have built up and I don't know why. I don't know what it is about you, but I despise the fact that someone can make me this weak."
"Kakuzu I-"
"I'm not done. This is a once in a life time speech for me so just shut the hell up," he growls menacingly…. "Just be silent." He rephrases quietly. "I am not a nice person. If I would have had my chakra, I would have killed you the second you crossed my path, without a sliver of remorse. But I don't know the consequences of this place nor do I have my chakra, so I am forced to deal with this." He waves his hand at me. "Kissing you wasn't in my intention. It just happened somehow. But it will not happ-"
"No." I shriek. "You cannot stand there and tell me you didn't feel anything." My body starts shaking violently and I ball my fists up. "Kuzu, you cannot tell me you don't feel anything when you touch me. If the kiss was an accident as you say, it wouldn't have happened twice! You can't say you don't feel like you're floating hundreds of miles above everything when you're with me. I've seen your face, the blushing and the look of surprise. You….. Shouldn't lie to yourself." I turn and walk toward Milyssa's house. The sun was just starting to go down.
For once my thoughts are empty and I feel numb. Just put on that façade you're so good at and no one will know a thing.
I make it back to the house and everyone is putting all the stuff were taking, into the bed of the truck. "So what movies are we going to go see, guys?" I beam.
"'Maleficent' and 'The Other Woman.'" Ian replies. Kakuzu finally walks up and picks up the heavy cooler and grill and puts them in the truck like it was no problem.
"Milyssa, since you're the smallest, you can sit in the middle, up front with dad and me." Mom demanded nicely. Ian quickly claimed the left side in the back which left Kakuzu and me. I'll have to take the middle because his big fat head will obstruct Mike's vision.
I hope into the truck and sit in the middle and Ian gets in on my left. Kakuzu helps Mike tie everything down and then gets in the truck on my right. I quickly put my jacket and purse between us and discretely scoot closer to Ian. The more distance right now, the better. This is going to be a long night.
Mike puts on some good metal music and I lean back and watch the trees blur by through Ian's window. It's at least a forty minute drive. I'll just close my eyes and take a nap.
"Wake up!" Mike yells loudly in the truck.
"UUuahhhh!" I yell and sit up in alarm. "What's happening?! Is everything-?"
"Were here." Mike laughs. Yay! I love being woken up like this! Siiike. I smile anyway and shake my head as I unbuckle. Ian gets out of the truck and I follow him. I hop up into the bed and start pushing things toward the edge so Ian, Mike and Kakuzu could get the things that need to go on the ground, such as the table, grill, cooler, and mom and dad's blow up couch.
Mike starts working on lighting the coals in the grill and I get to work on taking out the blankets and setting up a pallet. This is another thing I take charge in. Milyssa and Ian offer their help, but I'd just rather do it my way and have it done right.
After twenty minutes the four of us are sitting on the blankets and mom and dad are on their blow up couch. We wait for the food to be done and the movie to start. I'm sitting in the front right corner, Ian across from me, Milyssa in the back right corner and Kakuzu on the left.
"So, Ian, what movie is starting first?" I say while keeping my voice sounding happy.
"Maleficent and then The Other Woman." He replied while he watched another family pull up beside us.
"I'm so excited about both! But I think I'm a little bit more excited about the food!" Steak shish kabobs with an array of veggies. Then after that we have corn on the cob and sausage. My stomach growled loudly causing Milyssa, Ian and I to laugh. I looked at Milyssa, "so where's the Twizzlers!" She hands me the bag of candy and I pull out the bag of pull apart, watermelon flavored licorice.
The sun finally sinks below the horizon, in about ten minutes it would be dark enough to start the movie. Milyssa gets up to check on the food. I watch as children play on the field of grass that lay before the screen. Their screams of happiness echoing around as they chase each other in a game of tag. I smile. Chills creep up my spine. I look around the sea of cars, looking for the person who was looking at me. The chills continue to spread around my body, my heart beat quickens. I look over my shoulder and my heart slams to a stop then pick up pace like it was running from a monster.
Kakuzu's eyes bore into me, his gaze low and contemplating. Arms crossed over his muscular chest, brow furrowed and a sliver of a frown pulled on a corner of those soft lips. I bit my lip as I watched his eyes search my face and slowly travel around my body. Heat seeps into my cheeks, it felt as though he were caressing me with his eyes.
"Want one?" I jump as Milyssa speaks and holds out a shish kabob to me.
My blush deepens. "Uhh. Umm yeah. Thanks." Before she could respond the opening credits to the movie started. I scooted back to let her up. Just take her spot and sit next to Kakuzu. I look at her and look at Kakuzu then quickly move to her spot.
"Uhhh… okay." She shrugs and I hand her another pillow as an offering to taking her spot. She smiles and takes it.
Kakuzu hops over the side of the truck, it bobbing under the shifting weight, and grabs a plate of food then comes back up and sits closer to me than before. I couldn't concentrate on the movie, I couldn't think about anything being this close to him. My stomach growls and I look down at the food in my hands and dig in.
The food helps distract me from the big enticing man next to me. Ughhh. I think I ate too much… I put my hand on my stomach and grab a pillow to put behind my head.
My eyes start to flutter close. Way too many crazy emotions going on today. I think sleeping through this movie won't be too much of a problem…
Something brushed up against my hand. I opened my eyes, Kakuzu grasped my hand in his. My eyes widened and I sat up straight. He kept his eyes on the screen and a grip on my hand tight enough so I couldn't take my hand away. Happiness soared through my body and I felt, that in that moment, I could do anything.