A/n. Wow, the greatness of it being the last week of school. My teachers aren't making me do anything in my first period so here's am other chapter for all of you. ENJOY!

Kendall p.o.v.

'Man, what a strange day so far,' I thought to myself as I went to the pool for a morning swim. 'First Logan having that dream and then Carlos running off during breakfast. I hope James was able to find something out.'

I quit thinking after that because I really didn't want to get caught up in that subject, it would just make my day bad. The pool wasn't that busy and nobody was actually swimming. Only a couple people tanning and talking. So I sat my stuff down and started taking my shirt off so I could take a dip.

"Hey you," I jumped and dropped my shirt on the ground. When I turned to see who it was, I was standing in front of a really pretty blonde girl.

"Hey Jo," I smiled at my girlfriend, "you scared the shit out of me."

She just giggled and gave me a hug. "You're here early Ken, why?"

"I had a very weird morning with the guys and decided I needed to cool off at the pool." "

What happened?" I started telling her the events that ha just passes in the last few hours. I didn't tell her Logan's dream, just that he woke up from a nightmare early this morning and that i stayed up with him. She was surprised at most of it but mainly looked concerned, but she did gasp when I mentioned Carlos not being hungry. When I finished, she just stared off, thinking.

"So," she finally said, "how did it feel when you saw James going after Carlos?"

I glared at her, "I've been trying not to think about it so thanks for bringing it back to my mind."

She just giggled but looked at me with sad eyes after. "When I agreed to keep your secret and pretend to stay your girlfriend, I told you I was going to ask questions."

I just looked down at the pool and blushed. "I know Jo, it's just hard for me to talk about it."

She put her hand on my knee and gave me a small smile. "You know Kendall, I'm always here for you and you can trust me with everything. I just don't see why it's so hard for you to tell James that you love him?"

"Because he'll never feel the same way." Saying that made me hurt inside, but it's true. James is practically the straightest one in our group of four. But I can't help but wish he wasn't. Every time I look into his hazel eyes I can't help but fall in love with him and his smile is just perfect. And the things I wish I could do with that body of his, but I can't and I know that.

"I know I can't be with him Jo, and I never will."

"Than why not get over him?"

"Because I love him and that's never going to change."

She shook her head and smiled. "You are just so stubborn Kendall Knight."

"I know." I gave her a smirk and she hit my arm playfully.

"I have to go to an audition, talk to you later?"

"Yeah." We got up and hugged and she started walking away. "Jo, thanks for everything." She turned to me and winked and walked away.

'Jo,' I thought to myself, 'you were one hell of a girlfriend and I promise that I will tell James the truth and soon.' And that's when I took a jump and let the cool water to calm my mind.

Logan's p.o.v.

Kendall came back around 1 and Carlos and James were still gone. They left a little after Kendall did and didn't say where they were going. So with everyone out of the house, I cleaned up from breakfast and watched tv.

I wasn't really paying attention to it though, I mainly thought about Carlos. We had touched hands earlier and I was just so nervous, I probably looked like a fool. I hit my self on the forehead and called myself stupid a couple of times.

'He probably thinks I'm an idiot. Now how will I ever be able to tell him the truth.' My thoughts were making me want to cry so began to think of other things, but it wouldn't work. All I could think about was the cute Latino boy that I'll never get.

I was also a little jealous of James, he was always the one with Carlos. Of course James was the oldest so he probably just wanted to help Carlos, who's the youngest of us. But still, I wish I could be the one with him right now and not James.

I sat there doing nothing until Kendall came in. His hair was still a bit wet from the swim and he looked kin of sad.

"What's wrong Kenny, I asked as he came and sat down next to me on the couch.

"Nothing really," he replied, "just thinking. I had a talk with Jo earlier and it's been on my mind."

"What about?"

"Same old stuff, you know where mom an Katie are?"

"They went to your grandmas. Apparently she feeling a little sick so they went to check on her. They won't be back for a week."

"I hope she gets better. But hey, at least we have the apartment to ourselves for a while." That's Kendall for you, always looking at the bright side.

"Yeah, I guess." I looked back to the tv.

"Logan, what's wrong?"

Dammit, I really didn't want to talk about it. "Nothing," I lied.

"You know you can't hide anything from me."

'Sigh.' "Alright, I was thinking about Carlos."

"Ah, I see. Want to tell me more about it."

"Not really but I know you'll get it out of me anyways." "

Exactly," he had that stupid smirk on his face.

"I can't help it Kendall, he's perfect and I'll never get to be with him." I started to cry knowing it was stupid. He scooted closer to me and started hugging me.

"I know it's hard right not Logie, but it will get better, you'll see."

"I hope so cause these dreams are just making me want to fuck that Latino ass of his even more."

"I really did not want to hear that. Eww, now I have a mental picture."

"Sorry," but I didn't mean it cause I was busting out laughing. He had this ugly face on him with his eyes squeezed shut an it looked hilarious. He hit me for it but soon began laughing too.

After we got that out of our systems, we started watching tv and I started to dose off. "I'm pretty tired right now, could you wake me up when the guys get back?"

"Sure thing Logie, and have a nice nap." And with that, I laid my head down and fell straight to sleep, thinking of the man I love.

A/n. So I'm sitting against the wall in the band hall, (yeah I'm in band and tennis so I might mention those things on here), and my friend is reading it over my shoulder and asking questions and it's really annoying. So anyways, my fingers hurt from tying on this iPad so I'm going to rest them. Review, fav, and follow

p.s. it's about to get interesting these next couple of chapters so satay tuned.