A/n. Chapter six, this is a short chapter, sorry. Im really didn't see a point in shaving Carlos talk about his night in this chapter, only James. And please don't hate me after you read it especially you Franshes. And thanks for the help ThatKamesLover15.
James p.o.v.
'Stupid, stupid, stupid! How could I have been so stupid? Now Kendall probably thinks I'm some sort of freak! Oh gosh!' I couldn't stop thinking back to what had just happened. His soft hand holding my finger and his beautiful bolted green eyes looking into mine. I couldn't control myself, I just had to kiss him! But stupid Carlos' text just had to interrupt us. When I looked back at Kendall's face, I saw how upset he looked and I had to leave so I wouldn't start crying in front of him. I told him I was going to go pay the bill, which I did, but after that I went to the bathroom to calm myself down. I looked in the mirror and just frowned at my appearance. Although I looked normal as possible, my eye gave it away that I was obviously sad. I took a couple of deep breath, put a smile on my face and left the bathroom, and restaurant all together. When I walked outside, I saw that Kendall was already by the car, leaning against it.
"So," I said as I approached coming, coming to a complete stop moments later, "What's the plan?"
"Well," He started with a little sigh, "I guess I should probably take you home real quick since they think that's what I went to do." He looked at the ground the entire time he was talking to me, not even sparing a single glance at me. That's when I realized how badly I just messed up.
"Alright," I said, walking over to the passenger side, getting into the car with Kendall following shortly after. He started up the engine and we took off towards the Palm Woods.
The whole ride home was silent. Neither of us dared to say a single word or even look at each other. As soon as Kendall parked the car, I got out, not looking or saying a word to him. I ran straight to my room, laid on my bed, and stared at the wall, once I entered the apartment. My mind wouldn't stop replaying the night's events. I didn't even noticed that I had started crying till I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I buried my head in the pillow and cried quietly until sleep found its way to my eyes.
The next thing I knew, I was being woke up at the sound of the door closing. I glanced over at the clock, realizing I slept for about an hour. I rubbed at my aching puffy eyes, deciding I should go out and congratulate Carlos and Logan. I got off my bed and exit my bedroom. Stepping into the living room, I stopped in my tracks to see Kendall siting there on the couch, face buried in his hands
"Where are Carlos and Logan?" I asked confused, looking around the apartment, "I thought you were picking them up?"
"I did," he replied not removing his hands from his head. "But they wanted to go eat, so I took them to the Chinese place a few blocks away."
"Oh."
"Yeah, and then I decided to walk home."
"Why did you do that?" I knew I shouldn't have asked but there was a tone in his voice that had me worried.
"I needed some fresh air, to think. And also so I wouldn't have to get out again."
"Oh, makes sense."
"Yeah."
I turned to walk back to my room but stopped mid step, turning back towards Kendall. "Kendall, are you alright? You sound like you have something on your mind?"
"There is," was all he said back to me.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"Not right now." He got up and stated walking to his room and I followed him.
"Look," I said to him, "if it's about what happened tonight, I'm sorry." He turned to me when I said that, face so sad as if he was on the verge of tears. I ran to him and hugged him, and as soon as I closed my arms, he began to cry.
"James, you did nothing wrong, it was me who messed up tonight."
"Kendall, its ok-"
"No it's not! James, there's something I need to tell you." He cut me off.
"What is it?"
"James, I love you and-"
Before he could go into a rant, I interrupted him with a sweet kiss, my hand on his soft pale face. When he didn't push me away or cry of protest, I turned my head to the side a little and deepened the kiss, his hands soon wrapping around my waist. I felt water fall onto my cheeks, but the tears didn't belong to me.I pulled away from him, looking at the shorter boy's face. He was looking at the ground. Kendall gently grabbed my hands and pulled them off his face, and when he tilted his head up to look at me, he had the saddest look in his eyes.
"I'm sorry James, I really do love you, but I can't do this right now."
And with that he walked away to his room, closed his door. My heart shattered.
a/n. So if you hate me right now, I completely understand cause I am a douche for ending it like this. Poor James. Anyways, it's going to be a few days Guillermo I post again so bare with me. So who's ready for Christmas break cause I know I am. anywho, comment, review, fav and follow.