Chapter 8
Change
Shay apartment
"Do you really have to go?" Carly whined as she watched Freddie get dressed
"Yes, I've already stayed too long, mom will come looking for me if I stay any longer" Freddie said pulling his top on
"So who's this Ellen person, you've never mentioned her up until now?"
"She's my mom's best friend; they work together at the clinic"
"K, so call me when you get back?" Carly said with a sigh sitting up from the bed and slipping on her tank top
Freddie smiled at the look she was giving him, her pout made her look extremely adorable and her small nipples poking at her tank top made her look incredibly sexy and he could feel himself getting aroused again. Zipping up his pants Freddie knew he had to leave before he lost himself to her again.
"Sure" Freddie said dropping a kiss on her cheek before making his exit
Freddie groaned as he reached into his pants and gave his balls a stretch, with all the sex he'd been having between his mother and Carly; production was running low down stairs. He left the shay apartment and entered his to find his mother packing some wine bottles for the barbeque, seeing him enter she gave him a light scowl. He had left her an hour ago claiming he had to fix some glitches on the iCarly site and though that was part of the plan, he had lost sight of his goal when Carly mentioned she wasn't wearing any panties under her skirt.
"Hey you all ready to go?" Marissa asked
"Yeah let's get this over with"
"Hey don't give me that attitude, remember to act normal; Ellen's been worried about me and I want to show her everything is alright"
Freddie gave a silent nod before making his way to his room, once inside he grabbed his cologne and gave himself a quick spray to wipe out the stench of Carly and sex that he was sure still clung to his body. He heard his mother shout for him to get a move on and he did just that, his mother was at the door and motioning for him to exit. Grabbing some of her things Freddie exited the apartment and they made their way down to the car.
Stewart Residence
Ellen gave a sigh as she watched her animated daughter fix up her looks using a spoon as a mirror, though happy she was excited about the barbeque she wished that some of her excitement was from getting to spend time with her family.
"Would you stop gawking at yourself and help me prepare for our guests"
"Ok" Sarah said not really paying attention
"A load of help you are, just go help your brother set up outside" Ellen said losing hope
With a huff Sarah got off the kitchen counter and made her way to the back yard, squinting as the sun light hit her eyes she brushed a few strands of hair that had made its way to her face away. Sarah's original hair color was blonde but ever since her parent's divorce two years ago she couldn't stand it anymore, it reminded her of her father and with her father's memory came his infidelities and so she had settled for dyeing it purple. Her mother had freaked at first but she let it go after a few weeks, Sarah wasn't sure how her mother knew her reasons for changing her color but she had somehow figured it out and let her be. Sarah sat herself down at the picnic table which had already been set up by her older brother who she usually referred to as "The Girl Scout" because he could never seemed to do wrong and always did what their mother told him to do, always looking to please. Eric briefly turned away from setting up the grill and gave her an inquisitive look; he looked like he wanted to say something but decided against it when their eyes met. That had been happening a lot lately, before he would have been nagging her to help out and get off her ass but not anymore; had he given up on her? She didn't know but she didn't like it. He was her brother and he wasn't allowed to give up on her, with a sigh Sarah got off the table and started to set out plates and utensils around the table.
XXX
Pulling into the Stewart driveway Freddie took a calming breath, Marissa had let him drive when they were a few blocks away from Ellen's house but that wasn't why he was nervous. He had a sinking feeling that coming to the barbeque wasn't a good idea, putting the car in park Freddie leaned back and let out and audible breath and turned to face Marissa.
"Remember Freddie were a happy family, not a happy couple" she said with a smile before leaning over and giving him a small peck on the mouth
"Sure" Freddie mumbled as he exited the car
Freddie went to the trunk and grabbed the refreshments they had brought with them before heading up to the porch where his mother had already been greeted by Ellen and were exchanging pleasantries. Freddie worked a fake smile onto his face as he came up to Ellen, who was staring at him with a grin as he came up to her.
"Hi Mrs. Stewart"
"Hello Freddie it's been a while, you look so much older since last I saw you… and handsome too" she finished with a wink
"Uhm thanks" Freddie said with a blush
Freddie's smile turned real as they greeted and she teased him on how grown up and handsome he was; his sinking feeling completely evaporated with her motherly teases and he realized just how much he missed having a mother. She led them into the kitchen where he unloaded the refreshments.
"Oh Freddie while your mom and I make some salads you should go help Eric at the grill"
"Sure Mrs. Stewart" Freddie said as he exited to the backyard
Freddie felt a sense of awkwardness as he entered the backyard and the two siblings turning to look at him, masking his nervousness under a smile which was returned by Sarah Freddie made his way over to the picnic table.
"Hey Freddie, it's been a while"
"Yeah, I can see you've changed quite a bit since I last saw you" he said eyeing the hair
"Oh, the hair?"
"Yeah, it's nice" he said sitting down next to her
"Thanks" she said blushing slightly "So is it true?"
"What is?"
"That you and Carly are together"
"Uhm yeah…where did you here that?"
"A friend of my told me when I mentioned that you'd be coming over today, and she said she heard it from someone at your school Uhm…Wendy I think that's her name"
Freddie cursed internally "Well can we not mention this when my moms around you know how she gets"
"Sure, I can be our little secrets" she said with a wink
"Thanks, I should go help Eric at the grill" Freddie said uncomfortably
"Hurry back"
Making his way to the Eric Freddie felt the sinking feeling return, 'happy family' Freddie thought as he forced a friendly smile on his face, but still felt uncomfortable as Eric didn't cast a look his way since he started in his direction.
"Hey Eric" Freddie greeted the older boy
"Hey Freddie, it's been a while how have you been" the raven haired boy replied politely dull as he flipped the contents of the grill
"I've been good…and you? Thought you'd be in college by now" Freddie returned
"I've been good as well and I would be in college but decided to take the year off…so what about you Freddie what grade you in"
"I'm in the tenth grade, so why are you taking a gap year if you don't mind me asking?"
"*Sigh* just taking some downtime you know" He said with a far off look
X
"So Freddie looks good, becoming quite the man isn't he" Ellen commented as Freddie disappeared into the backyard
"Yeah…my little man" Marissa said with a laugh
"I guess you were right I was overreacting, you and Freddie seem fine"
"And we are, how things with Sarah and Eric"
"Their… fine I guess, they don't fight as much as they used too but I'm worried about Eric"
"Why, what's wrong?"
"I'm not sure if there's anything wrong but I feel like he's using helping out at home as an excuse to stay home and not go to college"
"Have you talked to him about it?"
"Yeah but he denies it and changes the subject"
"Maybe you should just let him go when he's ready; you shouldn't force him if he doesn't want to go yet" Marissa said thinking she would never want Freddie to leave her
"Maybe" Ellen said quietly
"Meats ready" Eric said sticking his head into the kitchen for a moment
Ellen and Marissa deposited their mobiles and pagers atop of the microwave before making their way out back where their children had made themselves comfortable on the picnic table which was set up perfectly under the shade of their neighbors' tree. They had decided to leave their mobile devices inside so they could spend time without any interruptions. Once everyone had seated themselves down the group began chatting and relatively having a good time with a few harmless incidents with Marissa giving Sarah a slight glare as she was getting overly friendly with Freddie.
XXX
Marissa and Freddie bid the Stewart family a good bye after a perfect uneventful afternoon, though she had enjoyed her friends company Marissa was glad to be going home. She had been having a hard time keeping her smile in check every time she watched as Ellen's daughter drape her hand over Freddie with overly friendly tones, but now that they were heading home she was eager to have Freddie all to herself. Amazing sex after a good afternoon with family friends always surmised to a perfect day back when it was her and Freddie's father, 'just like it used to be' Marissa thought. Marissa tossed the car keys over to Freddie motioning for him to drive and letting herself forget all her worries in anticipation of what they would get up to when they got back to the apartment.
XX
Freddie felt exhausted as he flopped down onto his bed, the barbeque had been nice and went on without any incidents with the exception of a few glares his mother sent his way when Sarah was acting a bit too friendly. Marissa seemed pleased with their overprotective mother son act during the day but Freddie had to admit it wasn't much of an act from him; he actually enjoyed having his old mother back even if it was an act. Letting out a low breath Freddie closed his eyes hoping to get some sleep and maybe hold on to the feeling of having his mother back for as long as he can. Freddie's slip from consciousness was cut short as he felt Marissa's hands clasp around his ankles and slowly slide up to his thighs and back down again. Groaning from being roused from his decent out of consciousness Freddie opened one eye to see Marissa crawl on top of him, straddling him she started to unbutton his pants eagerly. Feeling groggy Freddie brought his hands to his mothers and stopping her progress earning him a confused look from his mother.
"N…not now mom I'm tired" He said in a shaky voice this being the first time he tried to deny her
"Don't worry Freddie I'll do all the work" she said bringing herself down and initiating a kiss, which he broke
"Please" he begged not meeting her eyes, feeling dread creep over him
Marissa ignored Freddie and kissed him again this time with more passion deciding he just needed a little motivation, freeing her hands from his Marissa took Freddie's hands and pinned the over his head. She didn't get anymore resistance from Freddie as she continued to explore his mouth, removing her hands from his she returned to unbuttoning his pants; which she had little trouble completing and pulling out his dick. Her lips still firmly against his Marissa opened her closed eyes to find Freddie vacant eyes staring up at her as if in a trance causing shivers to run up and down her spine, shutting her eyes unable to bear Freddie's stoic look Marissa hiked-up her skirt and pushed aside her panty before sliding in Freddie's erect member. Taking Freddie's dick fully into her Marissa whimpered into his ear and slowly started rocking back and forth, her cries of pleasure increasing as she rhythmically rocked on top of Freddie.
"Please stop" Freddie croaked out but was unheard as Marissa continued to moan into his ear
Arching upwards as she came Marissa opened her eyes to meet Freddie's tear soaked face, Marissa's momentary high faded when she looked at Freddie. Marissa could feel her heart break as she watched her son mumble something incoherently under his breath keeping his eyes firmly shut. Marissa brought her hands to his face and tried to wipe his tears as best she could. Marissa lay on top of Freddie still joined by their privates, hugging Freddie who had seemed to calm down after few minutes leaving an eerie silence throughout the apartment. Marissa lost herself into her thoughts with the feeling of Freddie's heartbeat against her chest, until the shattering of what sounded like a small mobile device broke her out of her thoughts. Turning to face the source of the sound Marissa's heart stopped as she looked into the eyes of her best friend's sickened face, unable to move both women stared at each other in disbelief. Extracting herself from Freddie Marissa wanted to say something to her friend but no words made it to her mouth. Marissa fixed her skirt as best she could and took a step in her friends' direction but Ellen took one back. Marissa watched Ellen as her eyes seemed to be glued on her and slowly followed something down to the floor, taking a look down at her feet Marissa felt a cold shiver run through her and no feeling followed. A small pool of semen was slowly pooling between Marissa's legs and that seemed to be all Ellen could take as the she leaned against the wall and emptying her stomach contents on the floor before dropping to the floor unconscious.
Marissa let out a gasp as her friend dropped to the floor unconscious, she ran over to Ellen and flipped her on her back before examining her to find there was no major trauma to the head and that she had only fainted. Marissa wasn't sure what to do as she stared down at Ellen, looking back at Freddie in his room she found him seated on his bed watching her with a calm expression and still vacant eyes. Her nostrils were overcome by the smell of bile causing Marissa to hold back her stomach contents but not for long as she scampered over to the sink where she let it all out. Everything had been going well today and now she stood to lose the only people that cared for her, a sense of injustice fell upon Marissa causing her to choke out a sob as she stared down at her sick. She was finally truly the happiest she had been since the death of Freddie's father and yet here she was again about to lose whom she loved most in her life. Unable to dwell on self pity Marissa brought her sleeve to her eyes and wiped what tears had escaped her eyes. Bringing herself upright Marissa's eyes rested on her set of perfect stainless steel knives, a thought was about to bloom in her head but some ruffling sounds from the living room broke her out of her trance on the knives. Giving the knife set one last glance Marissa headed into the living room to find Freddie laying Ellen on their couch, once Ellen was comfortably placed on their couch Freddie turned to meet his mothers' gaze with his vacant stare.
"What now" Freddie asked lacking emotion
"I don't know" Marissa answered truthfully
"I'll go clean up the messes" Freddie said walking out of Marissa's field of vision
X
Looking down on what used to be a meal Freddie mopped up the mess with indifference, he wasn't truly there but only going through the motions without any feeling. He was disconnected and that's what usually helped him deal with this part of his life; when his mother wanted a good romp in the sack. His problem was now that he couldn't feel or care for the current situation, he couldn't switch back to his normal self to deal with the reality of his present situation. Depositing some of the sloppy mess into a bucket Freddie paused trying to gather his thoughts but non came so he went back to mop up the rest of the vomit before moving back into his room to take care of the pool of semen. After cleaning up both messes Freddie deposited it into the toilet before heading out to the hall and picking up the remnants of his mothers' pager, Marissa must have forgotten it at Ellen's and she had brought it back. Freddie guessed with a cold detachment that his mother was too busy fucking him to hear a knock at the door and Ellen must have let herself in too find them joined in the worst way. It seemed the picture of mother and son fucking was too much, even with all the repulsive things they must see at the clinic. Freddie was pulled out of his musings as he heard voices in the other room, one hostile another desperate.
X
Ellen let her eyes flutter open and though her thoughts were disoriented she recognized the woman in front of her who wore a look of worry; it was her best friend and with that Ellen let a smile make its way to her face but as her world came together her smile gradually fell replaced by a look of horror. It all came back to her; her walking entering the apartment to return Marissa's phone and pager but walked into something that would be forever burned into her mind. Ellen watched as Marissa reached out for her hand but with the scene replaying in her mind of Marissa fucking her son, Ellen scampered and crawled away from her friends touch.
"DON'T TOUCH ME!" Ellen screamed in an ominous voice
"Relax Ellie it's just me, calm down" Marissa said desperately trying to calm her friend
"Stay away from me-"
"Ellie just let me explain-"
"Explain what? That your sick, jus- just stay there" Ellen said her voice quivering
"Ok see, not coming towards you" Marissa said stopping her progress towards Ellen but standing between her and the door.
"I knew something was wrong but-…but I just thought it was me and I let this go on" Ellen said clutching her head and digging her hands into her hair
"Just let me explain Ellie" Marissa begged and got no reply but a look of an animal backed up into a corner and she took it as a go ahead
"I love him Ellie and-" Marissa was cut off by a snort from Ellen
"And what? He loves you too? Just look at him, does he look like he's in love?" Ellen said pointing to a stoic Freddie who had entered the room a moment ago.
Watching Freddie's from the corner of her eye Marissa didn't turn away from Ellen "He's all that I have Ellie and I can't let you or anyone else take him away from me" Marissa said her voice hard
Shaking her head in disbelief Ellen eyes darted around the room searching for an escape "Listen Mari I don't want to take Freddie away from you I just want to help you, your sick and I can help you" Ellen said noticing her only way out was blocked and knew things could end badly if she wasn't careful.
"I'm not sick you just don't under-"
Marissa wasn't able to finish her statement as Ellen bolted and grabbed her phone off the living room table, before Ellen could finish dialing she was tackled to the floor by Marissa who managed to shove the phone away from her but as Marissa made to straddle Ellen, Ellen sent her left fist with as much force as she could muster from the short distance into Marissa's abdomen. Marissa released a pained whimper which broke the momentary silence filled with scuffling that wore the apartment. Pushing a paralyzed Marissa off her Ellen got off the floor and bolted heading straight for the apartment door paying no mind to Freddie who seemed to have caught up with reality when Marissa's cry filled the apartment. Reaching the door Ellen threw it open but as she was about to continue on her way she found her progress halted by a pair of hands that had a death grip on her arm, looking to the source she found Freddie who swung her back into the apartment and using the momentum to slam the door shut with his back as he let go of her arm sending her to the floor on her bum. Wincing from the pain of her impact on the floor Ellen got back and looked between the desperate boy who seemed to be guarding the door with his life and Marissa who seemed to have picked herself up.
"Get out of the way Freddie" Ellen commanded
"I can't…she is all I've got" Freddie pleaded
…..
….
..
With a sigh Ellen let her self drop down on her bum once more but stopped her quick decent with her hands just as she was about to reach the floor and let her self sit down softly, wincing from the pain from her earlier fall. She watched as Freddie slid down the length of the door until they were both on eye level, both eyeing each other unflinchingly.
"What now?" Freddie asked a second time
"It has to stop" Ellen said turning to look at Marissa "He is your son you can't…you just can't do that" Ellen said unable to look Marissa without letting her disgust show on her face
"And I suppose you wouldn't take my word for it" Marissa said in a deflated voice
"No" Ellen said her voice grim
"I promise it won't-" Freddie tried to voice out but was cut off by his mother
"Then what do you suppose we do" Marissa said uneasily already sensing the solution
….
..
.
"Freddie will live with me until you can be trusted"
"NO!" both Bensons said in unison
"It's not up to you!"
"He's my son"
"You lost the right to be his mother when you decided it would be okay to fuck him!" Ellen screamed her anger getting the best of her which she regretted as she sent an apologetic glance at Freddie who had paled.
"I…I'm staying with mom" Freddie stuttered out
Freddie's plea went unheard as the two adults stared at one another, Marissa was first to back off the staring contest as she let her eyes take a glance at her son. Marissa moved back away from Ellen and Freddie on unsteady legs to sit her self at the edge of the couch combing her hands through her hair, before turning to meet Ellen's eyes once more.
"And how long until I can be trusted" Marissa said her voice deathly low as she tried to hold back the tears
"I don't know…I know a therapist you can see… he's a good friend of mine and I'll give him the information he needs and you will see him until he clears y-"
"I'm not going to see some asini -"
"Would you prefer spending fifteen years of yours and Freddie's life in jail?" Ellen spat out
….
…
..
"How do I know you won't sell us out the minute you leave this apartment?"
"You don't have a choice now do you" Ellen said gritting her teeth as she tried to keep her anger in check
"I could-"
"You could what? Tie me up? Kill me?" Ellen spat "The only reason I'm even doing this is for Freddie and the memory of our friendship, so don't think you have a say I what happens"
"I'm not going anywhere!" Freddie screamed at both women who seemed intent on ignoring him
Ellen cringed slightly as she heard Freddie's voice ring throughout the entire apartment, still not turning to look at him; not because she was disgusted by him as well but feeling ashamed as she felt she had let this happen and more specifically because she didn't know what she could say to him as he seemed intent on staying with his mother. Most if not all other molested children would have been jumping at the chance of safe haven but he wanted to stay, making Ellen give Marissa a disgusted glare as she wondered how the woman must have raised him to be solely dependent on her. Ellen continued to stare daggers at Marissa hoping she would be the one to give him the talk but Marissa seemed to want her to carry the burden of separating mother and son, with a sigh Ellen turned to meet Freddie's desperate anguish filled face.
"Freddie-" Ellen started in a soothing voice "I know you love your mom but-"
"You don't have to do this…you could just go home to your family…and forge-" Freddie started to plead in a pained voice but Ellen cut him off
"No I can't! … *calming breath* your mothers sick and until she gets proper help you're going to have to stay with me"
"N-" Freddie began to protest
"Freddie" Marissa called out gently stopping Freddie's protest "She's right-"
"No" Freddie breathed out feeling betrayed
Getting off the couch Marissa walked over to her son before kneeling down before him staring into his eyes. Stroking his hair Marissa tried to calm him down as Freddie started to tremble, kissing his temple she gave him a reassuring smile.
"I was weak Freddie…and instead of protecting you I used you…" Marissa paused trying to keep as much sadness out of her voice as she fought back the tears "…I used you as a crutch for my loneliness…and for that I'm sorry Freddie, I'm so sorry but now you have to let me protect you and let you go" she said now letting the tears fall freely down her face
Freddie let his face fall in resignation not bothering to hold back the tears; slowly he pushed himself up and let his mother's hands slide off him. Reaching for his mother Freddie helped her up and let her cry on his shoulder, over her shoulder he looked over to Ellen who had also risen, expectantly waiting for her to tell them how to proceed from here.
"Freddie you should go gather some of your things….I'll come back for whatever else you need tomorrow" Ellen spoke her voice barely audible
Pulling his mother off his shoulder to stare at her, Freddie met her eyes with his; she gave him a small sad smile before giving him a slight nod before pulling away from him and standing aside. Freddie walked away from the two women and disappeared into his room to gather a few necessities.
X
Freddie returned a few minutes later holstering a small bag to find both women hadn't moved from the positions he'd left them in, his mother had her face downcast. Ellen walked over to the living room and picked up her discarded phone and purse, then made her way to the front door opening it and looking expectantly to Freddie who hadn't moved since he re-entered the room. Freddie walked towards the door but paused as he grazed shoulders with his mother.
"Can you give us a minute" Marissa spoke not raising her downcast face
"No" Ellen replied curtly
Letting out a sigh Marissa wiped a few stray tears before looking up at her son with a sad smile and giving him an embrace before pulling back to give him a good look.
"Remember to stay safe okay?" Marissa said gently stroking his face and got a slight a nod from Freddie
With that Marissa walked her son to the door where Ellen waited, her face painted with less disgust and a little sympathy from watching the two try comfort each other. Stepping out of the apartment with Freddie behind her Ellen turned to face Marissa with Freddie beside her.
"Take care of him" Marissa said meeting Ellen's gaze and got a slight nod in return before turning to Freddie
"I love you Freddie" she said barely concealing a sob
"I love you too mom" Freddie returned
Freddie found himself shaking as he watched the apartment slowly slide shut, after all he had tried to keep his life from falling apart here he was watching it fall apart. The apartment door closed completely with a click and as soon as it shut both he and Ellen could hear Marissa's full blown sobs from the other side of the door, Freddie instinctively grabbed the door knob and tried re-entering the apartment but the door had been locked.
Marissa could hear her son outside the door trying to get but she already locked it, sliding into a fetal position on the floor she continued to cry even more as she listened to her son beg for her to let him in. Unable to take anymore of his cries for her Marissa let all the noise fade into the background and continued to cry, the hallow feeling that constricted her chest never leaving her.
T.B.C
Authors' notes: I thought it was time to move things along so there you have it, though it would have been easier to have Ellen killed I thought it better to leave room for a positive ending or an even worse ending but that doesn't mean I'll be ending the story anytime soon. Once again let me know what you think.
3ohE