As always, my love and gratitude to my lovely BETA doctorkaitlyn - she is the best.

Dear Mr. Smith,

Or should I go back to calling you Mr. Hawkeye like before? I can't decide anymore since you won't answer any of my emails. I have no idea what's going on in that head of yours. And at this point, I'm not quite sure if I should give a single crap about it. Why do I even care to begin with? I hate this silence from you and I've grown to despise this one-sided relationship of ours. I'm tired of making a fool of myself. But for some reason, I still keep playing along with this nonsense of yours and will most likely continue till one of us finally gives in and quits this stupid game. Good thing it's not poker, right? :/ I guess I'll never get an Oscar for my acting skills.

We are some twisted couple aren't we?

*Taking deep breaths*

I'm sorry for all the bitching above. I've had a rough week and my nerves are a total wreck. It's the end of the semester and I have tons of studying to do for my upcoming exams. It looks like I will have to quit my part time job at "Stookey's" pizza place. Bummer. I liked working there. Bob, the owner, is a cool guy and he always tries to give me good orders. If only he hadn't had that drinking problem, his business would've been a success. Bob is an ex-Army surgeon – I've heard some rumors about his past but don't want to get into the details. After all, we all have our own demons to battle, don't we?

Speaking of ex-military members. It seems like Rick has finally reconciled with the idea of separation. At the very least, he looks much more composed lately. Lori is thinking of moving to Europe for a year and leaving Carl with his father until she settles down there. She was offered a job in Italy. It's a great opportunity; they say this interior design company is a huge deal in professional circles. And Lori is a really talented designer - that is the chance of a lifetime for her. Then again, I hear she is thinking of terminating her pregnancy and it's not sitting well with Rick. The walls in this apartment complex are thin and the Grimes family drama is the favorite topic of the local gossips at the moment… :S

UGH. I just got an email from Professor Welles. He informs me that my paper in Freelance Journalism (my major!) tremendously sucks. Of course he didn't exactly use the word "suck" but the implication is obvious nonetheless. What the hell am I supposed to do now?! The deadline is less than a month away and he advised me to change the subject, because, quoting him, "no one cares about the details of the pizza delivery system and I should find something more "current" if I want to get a good grade". CRAP!

I miss Dale so much right now! It feels so lonely here without him. I could've used a cup of hot cocoa. He would make me awesome hot beverages when I had bad days and visited him for a chat…

I keep in touch with the old man on Facebook (yeah, apparently Dale signed up for several popular social networks, including Instagram, when he started his road trip). He is in Washington D.C. at the moment. Posted two photos of himself participating in some kind of pacifist demonstrations in front of the White House: one is pretty recent and the other is from the 60s or something: it appears like Dale was a hippy back in the day! XD

Well, look at that – just thinking of him makes me feel a little better.

Guess I get along with elderly folk better than with people of my parent's generation… Take Dale or Hershel for instance. Hershel and I are practically best buds now. Lol. That little adventure at the bar sort of benefited our relationship. He's having a therapy session once a week and seems to be faring quite fine. He's putting in an effort for the sake of his daughters.

Speaking of which. I'm proud to say that I've managed to maintain my friendship with Maggie despite the fiasco that was our affair.

You know, I've come to realize how much she actually means to me. Not in a romantic sense, though (tbh, I could never give her what she truly deserves). But I do cherish our bond: it is something much more than just a flicker of mindless passion. It feels like she is that person who will never betray me. IDK. I've never had such kind of kinship even with my own siblings. My sisters are several years older than me and always tend to view me as some irresponsible baby of the family that no one takes seriously. With Maggie, it's different. Now that we've talked about our relationship and are on the same page at last, I can be myself around her without fearing like I'll be judged for anything. I enjoy her company and I genuinely care for her wellbeing.

Which reminds me. For the past couple of days, Maggie has been at her wit's end because of her little sister. Turns out Beth's new boyfriend, Ben, is a follower of that disgusting religious cult – "Woodbury Army of Resurrection" (it's beyond my comprehension how people can take something with such a ridiculous name seriously). And somehow, the douchebag has almost succeeded in brainwashing Beth to become a member of their stupid community. I mean how? These freaks believe that resurrection is possible through suicide! O_o Moreover, they are convinced that their sacrifice will ultimately revive their deceased loved ones, who will come back to life with them.

I don't get why the founder of this crazytown is still not in jail. How come the FBI and the other authorities let this creep walk around recruiting people? He is dangerous! Poor Jacqui, her husband [and who knows how many others] are dead because of him.

Maggie is raging and I can understand her. I mean, yesterday Beth suggested that they should commit suicide together in order to revive their mom and brother! She has been dating that boy for what? Less than two weeks? How did he manage to mess with her head in such a short period of time? UGH.

Maggie is determined to do something about it. It really worries me. From what I learned during the time we were dating, if Maggie sets her mind to something, there is no stopping her. And I've done a little research of my own – it seems like there is some heavy criminal business going on behind the whole "Raising of Lazarus" façade. A decade ago, the leader of WAR, Philip Blake was known under the alias Brian Heriot in Alabama. He ran a similar religious fanclub back in the day though it was called by a different name. The FBI suspected him of being involved with the local drug cartel. Alas, he had good lawyers and the case crumbled in court.

In relation, Maggie is also mad at Andrea because about a week ago, she saw Andrea coming out of that Blake guy's car – apparently he was giving her a lift home or something. Maggie thinks that they are dating. I'm not sure, though. I mean, yeah – maybe Andrea does have some strange taste in men *cough* Shane *cough* but I really doubt that she would date a psycho like the Governor (that's what his followers call him. Some pet name, huh? XD). So, I'm sure that there is a good explanation for this.

Btw, Shane is officially not with us anymore. He hasn't been living here since the "attic" incident. And this morning, he finally moved out his remaining stuff from his apartment. He even hired a U-Haul truck. Rick says that Shane has quit his job too. I can't say that I will miss the guy… Though, it's kind of sad when you think about it. What with his ruined friendship (Rick) and unsuccessful love life (Lori, Andrea). Some of us here are actually relieved not to have him as a neighbor anymore. I hope that when/if I ever decide to leave this place the effect will be different… I hope at least someone will miss me if I'm gone.

Changing the subject, I hear they released Carol on bail but she can't leave the state until the trial is over. I'm proud of Daryl who is still with her there for moral support. He is a loyal friend.

It's not the same here without them, we… I miss them.

Oh, I think I've found the possible subject for my paper. I've googled this Philip Blake dude again and found an old interview with him. It says here that his main goal with this religious cult thing is to bring his deceased daughter Penny back to life. It surprises me that he had a family once. Interesting. I should get to work on this…

So, this is it for today. Good night. We really need to talk in person and stop this… whatever this is. Perhaps, now is not the time (with everything going on around lately) but you should know that I'm here and I'm waiting.

Yours, aspiring journalist, Glenn

A/N: Thank you for reading! :)

To those who may be wondering why Glenn has stopped addressing his emails to "Mr. Hawkeye" - there is a clue in Ch. 8. Also it will be further explained in Ch 12. :) For clarification: "Mr. Hawkeye" is "John Smith" (see Ch. 1).