A/N: I am so sorry that it has taken me forever to get this chapter up. I have been very busy and have had a tiny case of writers block. But its been resolved for now. In my reviews someone mentioned Bella's ability to play the piano in this story. All I have to say is that everything will be explained in due time. You just have to have a little patience.

Disclaimer: I realized that in my previous chapters I have forgotten to state that I own nothing but the scenarios I put these characters in. Stephanie Meyers owns the characters. =*(

Chapter 4: Finding Out

What was I gunna do now?

After Bella left I climbed back up the stairs and went into my room, pulling out everything I had hurriedly stashed in the closet. As I replaced everything, I noticed that I had gotten my jeans all muddy when I was forced to hide in the trees. I stripped out of the jeans and threw them into the hamper before digging through my bag and finding another pair. I slid on my black jeans, deciding to remain barefoot, and collapsed on the bed.

I hadn't been this stressed since Alice had announced that she wanted a divorce. There were so many things that I had wanted to say, but there was no point. I was sure that Alice had already seen us separated. There was nothing I could do to change that, so I left.

During the past few months I had realized many things about the relationship I had had with Alice. Looking at it now, it was quite obvious that we had never truly meshed. Not the way Rose and Emmett, or Esme and Carlisle, had.

She was far too quirky and energetic for me. I was definitely more laidback and quiet most of the time. And she liked to try and control things. I was Jasper Whitlock; I wasn't one to be controlled. Not since Maria. Control was one thing that Alice and I had fought about quite often.

There was no doubt in my mind that I had loved her. She was my wife for a very long time and we had had lots of good times together, but it was clear that we were never meant to be together forever. I wasn't even that angry that she didn't want to be with me anymore. It was more the fact that she had no faith in me.

I knew that I had had many slip ups in my past, but sometime it just wasn't something I could control. No matter how hard I tried. But Bella's had by far been the worst encounter I'd had to test my control.

Because of my gift I had felt every one of the other's bloodlust, as well as my own. That was hard by itself but then when you added in the fact that Bella was Edward's singer and her blood called for him, I was fucked. It was too much for me to handle and I snapped.

I sighed heavily. At least I hadn't hurt her. She was still alive, but just barely. This was all my fault. If I hadn't screwed up then Edward never would have had to decide to leave her. And if he hadn't left her then she wouldn't be attempting suicide.

A howl sounded from a short distance away, breaking me from my thoughts. I paused, listening intently. Another howl sounded and I leapt to my feet, flying out the window and running into the trees. I heard the sound of paws digging into the forest floor and headed in that direction.

I burst into a small batch of bare land a moment later, finding myself face to face with a wolf. He sat on his haunches, as though he were waiting for me. I eyed him wearily as I skidded to a stop. "What do you want wolf?" I demanded. He huffed at me, his eye narrowing.

"Was there something you wanted?" I asked. He nodded his big head once. He turned and started into the trees again. "Wait! Where are you going?" I was confused now. He huffed again and disappeared, appearing again moment later in human form. It was the Quileute from the cliffs.

"Who are you?" he asked wearily. "Jasper," I replied reluctantly, "And you are?" He grimaced before answering, "Jacob. I wanted to talk to you about Bella." I nodded enthusiastically, my attention captured.

"What about her?" I asked. "First of all, your family. Are they…coming back?" he demanded. I shook my head remorsefully, "No, they're not." He sighed in relief but still looked worried, "Good. I don't need them fucking her up anymore than they already have."

"What?" I asked, my brow furrowed. "I don't think you realize the extent of her…depression, if that's what you want to call it," he murmured. "What do you mean?" I inquired anxiously. He took a deep breath before replying, "She's suicidal."

"Define 'suicidal'," I hissed, completely in denial. "Suicidal as in she wants to die. As is she has attempted to end her life. Today was just another attempt," he snapped angrily.

My fists clenched involuntarily and my head shook back and forth rapidly, a silent plea. This had to be a lie. There was no way this was possible. Bella wouldn't do that. Sure she was depressed but she wouldn't be pushed this far.

"Look, leech, shake your head all you want. Its not gunna change the truth," the wolf interrupted, "Isabella Swan is suicidal and she has tried to kill herself." I closed my eyes slowly, a stupid move in front of a wolf but I couldn't control it. "How?" I choked out, "How has she tried?"

I could practically hear his grimace, "She was almost raped in Port Angeles. I think she went off in search of those guys that tried to attack her last year." My eyes snapped open, "You knew about that?" He nodded, "A…friend of mine was there when that leeched saved her. He was about to step in when he showed up. But this time Sam was able to save her." I pursed my lips in concentration, "What else?"

"Well…," he hesitated, watching me cautiously, "You know about today. That jump was a suicide attempt. She tried to claim that she was just cliff diving, like the pack. We do that sometimes but its all for fun and we're freaking wolves. We're so much stronger than her." He snarled angrily under his breath.

It was silent for a moment before he continued, "Umm, and I know at one point she tried to overdose on meds. Luckily, she never consumed enough pills to do any really damage. I was able to stop her in time and she was just a little loopy for a few hours."

"Anything else?" I asked, pinching the bridge of my nose in aggravation. "That's all I know about. There might be others that I don't know about. I can't get her to open up to me. She doesn't talk anymore, to anyone. It's like she's shut down to the bare minimum. I do the best I can to keep her in La Push but I can't always be with her," he mumbled miserably, his head low.

"Have you tried to get her help? What about Charlie? I'm sure he would be trying anything at this point!" I ranted. "Charlie doesn't know," he whispered, "And I've tried but I can't get her to go." I stared at him in disbelief.

"She's a hundred pound human. You can pick her as up and take her. They'll sedate to start with and then put her through counseling!" I snarled. Was this guy an idiot?

"I tried!" he snapped, "She fucking threatened me! She said she was going to tell everyone about the wolves! And about you guys!" I growled under my breath, annoyed beyond belief with how stupid he was.

"She is a suicidal teenage girl! No one is going to believe her," I roared. "She's got proof! She's got fucking pictures of us phasing. I don't know how she got them but I've seen them. And she's got copied hidden everywhere! All over her house, her truck, on her computer, in emails. I wouldn't even know where to start looking for them. She has one in her bra at all times. There is nothing I can do to prevent her from showing them if I take her in. If they find out I'm real them they'll start looking for vamps. I can't expose us like that," he hissed.

"Bella wouldn't do that. She wouldn't expose us all. All of us are or were like family to her. She wouldn't be so stupid or so selfish!" I protested. She wouldn't. There was no way. We all trusted Bella to keep our secrets. She promised.

He screamed in frustration, "Yes, she would! She has nothing to live for anymore. If this keeps her out of the hospitals and in the open where she can get what she needs then she will use it. Being out of the hospital means more chances for her to finally commit suicide! She is going to get what she wants. One way. Or another."

A/N: So what did you think of this chapter? Leave your comments! I already have the next chapter half written so an update should be soon.