Okay, so, guys, thanks sooooo much for the reviews follows and favs! I know that the last chapter was like REAL short, but I will try to make this chapter longer. Thanks!
I FORGOT TO DO A DISCLAIMER LAST CHAPTER SO HERE YOU GO:
Me: I SO own tfios.
Augustus: *does cute face* now, tell the truth.
Me: Awww, Ansel Elgort is sooooo hot, and, fine, I DON'T OWN TFIOS!
I'm going to be dead within a couple of months, and I have to tell Mom in the next couple of minutes. I re-enter the room that I left Mom in, and take my seat next to here.
I take a deep breath, well as deep a breath as I can manage with these crappy lungs and say, "Mom, I, I, I'm pregnant. And I am gonna have to give up my medication, and I will be dead within nine months or whatever, and, and, and I'm so sorry for being a bitchy daughter."
She looks at me in a way that reminds me of the way Dr. Maria looked at me, sad, but with the slightest smile playing on her lips. "Don't worry about me, Hazel, I mean, it's going to happen anyway, and it's your choice. How far along are you?"
I look at Mom in disbelief. What changed her view on this whole cancer thing. Then, I realize. She knows that this baby is the infinity that will keep Augustus and me on this world forever. "I dunno, we had sex in Amsterdam, so, about two months?"
Suddenly, a new worry hits me. "Mom, what if the medication has already hurt the baby? What if, if, if it's already... dead?"
"I think Dr. Maria would have seen that in the scans, and she would've told us." Mom tells me, as comforting as always. "Hazel, do you want to start doing a little bit of planning when we get back? You know, for the baby?" I nod my head, although I know I won't actually do any planning, and Mom and I are just getting up to go, when Dr. Maria stops us.
"Um, Hazel, just to let you know, you will most likely go into labor about a month early, and you will be lucky to survive the birth." I nod my head in acknowledgement, thankful that Dr. Maria doesn't sugarcoat things like this, and continue to exit the hospital.
The first person I need to call is Isaac, as I feel that he will somehow feel honored if I tell him first. He picks up on the second ring.
"Hello, insanely gorgeous man speaking." he answers, and I roll my eyes.
"Hey, Isaac, can I come over, I have some stuff I need to tell you."
"Uh, yeah, sure. Just, don't freak out if the room's a mess, cos, ya'know, I kinda had a little repeat of the trophy night with eggs last night." I laugh, tell him that I'll be over in five and hang up.
"Mom, I'm going to Isaac's!" I shout, before grabbing my car keys and rushing out the door, or at least speed-walking.
"Hello, Hazel from Support Group." Isaac says as a greeting, and I yank him into his bedroom, locking the door behind us. He was right when he said no to freak out over the mess.
"It reeks of rotten eggs, Isaac." I say in disgust, and fling open his window. "That's better."
"So, you said you wanted to tell me some stuff." Isaac states, and I nod my head slowly, an old thinking habit of mine, trying to think how to word it.
"Um, well, you know how, um, Augustus and I, had it in Amsterdam..."
"Yeah, of course I do, Gus talked basically non-stop about it when you two got back." Isaac interrupts, and I feel my cheeks go red.
"Well, we didn't use protection and, and, and..." my voice catches at the end, and I start sobbing uncontrollably. I knew this would be hard, but, the cruelty of what I am about to say, that I am going to shorten the most likely meager remains of my life willingly, has finally hit me. "And, I'm pregnant."
Isaac's response is, well and truly, shocked. "I-I-is that even possible? I mean, no offence Hazel, but, like, aren't you like, unable to get pregnant because of your cancer?" I nod, and then realize he can't see me, and simply say, "Yeah."
"And, um, Isaac, I decided that I-I-I would give up my medication so that the baby can be Augustus and I's little infinity that he wanted so desperately. Which means, according to Dr. Maria, it will be a miracle if I live to see my baby. I'm two months pregnant by the way, which means I have about six months - "
"S-seven." Isaac corrects, and I shake my head sadly as I reply, "Dr. Maria thinks the baby will be at least a month early."
"I-it's not fair! Why the fuck does this have to happen? Why? Hazel, have you got any trophies, cos I'm gonna need them a hell of a lot these next couple months." Isaac is visibly upset, and all I can say to lighten the mood slightly is, "No trophies. But you can have some of my stuff to smash up when I, you know, go to that capital "S" Somewhere that Augustus is."
"Thanks, Hazel." Isaac says, a hint of a smile playing on his lips. We hug, before I tell him I should get back, and I rush into my car, utterly traumatized by Isaac's sadness. I can't blame him, losing two best friends in what will probably be less than a year is not exactly a little fluffy unicorn life, but I can only hope Isaac will get through it. Now the only person left to tell is Kaitlyn, which I doubt will be easy in any way.
Okay, so, another chapter shorter than I hoped it would be. *sigh*. Thanks for all your sweet reviews so far, they really make my day! So, onto the subject of baby names. I have one that would work for either gender in mind, but you can tell me any names you think would work in your reviews, and what gender you want the baby to be, as I still haven't decided. Plus, tell me if you want Isaac and Kaitlyn to be a thing, because I think it would be cute if Isaac found love, and Kaitlin and him seem so perfect for each other.
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I forgot to sign off last time, so I'll sign off properly now:
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