Hey hehe got my happy back after rereading LOVE ME!, by Ihasakeyblade123. It maybe be one chapter but that one chapter just make me all giggly that i think i'm going to read it again after posting this. anyway if you didn't read the A/N before I got rid of it I'll say it here. I would have posted this by midnight but my laptop turned off on me out of no where and I didn't get to save it. I got ticked and depressed since I wrote so much. But like I said I got my happy back and was able to rewrite it. almost how i had it before but just rewording. anyway enjoy :D

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"A-Axel" Axel looked up from the ground, where he was eating his lunch, to find the owner of the raspy voice. He didn't feel like eating with anyone. He just felt like being alone from now.

"You're talking to me now?" Axel didn't mean for that so sound so harsh but he couldn't help it. He was pissed off and he couldn't understand why.

Roxas cringed from Axel's tone. He couldn't say anything to that even if he could talk without his throat killing him. He mumbled a sorry and turned to leave.

Axel cursed himself, set his lunch to the side and got up. "Roxas please wait. I didn't mean to.."

Roxas turned his head and shook it. He walked back to Axel and did something that surprised them both. He hugged Axel. His forehead leaned on the older teen's chest while his arms where loosely wrapped around him. Axel was taken aback. He wondered why the blond was hugging him. If something was wrong then why didn't he go see his bitch?

"A-Axel" He said with his a hoarse voice. "I-I know this is weird b-but would you please...h-hold me?"

Axel didn't say anything to him. Instead he gently wrapped his arms around the teen, pulling him closer to him. Roxas wanted to cry. He just couldn't do it in front of Axel. Not again anyway. He held back his tears, shriving while they held each other for what felt like forever before he was asked what was wrong.

"A-Axel, will you take me home, please?" He didn't look up at him when he asked.

"Roxas we still have two more classes. Can't you wait an hour?" He shook his head. Axel sighed, "Do you want to wait in my car?" He nodded. "Alright, here are my keys." He handed him the keys. "Do you want me to walk with you?"

'So everyone can start saying that your hanging out with a whore?! You must be crazy. I couldn't do that to you...even if we aren't friends.' He shook his head again and walked to the parking lot while Axel went to throw his lunch away and head for class.

Roxas got in the back seat, closed the door and laid on his side curling up in a ball. He let out all the tears he had been holding back go free. He thought about what had happened and wondered why he didn't bother to stop Hayner from doing what he did. Why did he allow him to do that in the bathroom during school? He sniffled and shut his stinging eyes trying to think of everything he did wrong.

'Why did I let him do it? Why did he kiss me? I really thought he was with that girl. Does he want to get back with me then and the sex was his way of showing it? Why did he have to kiss me like that in front of everyone? I thought he didn't want anyone knowing that side of him. I know I didn't want the school to know that I had a boyfriend. Hell I don't even think Pence knew about us being together. The only one I told(kinda) was dad. Well Axel knows that he is my ex too though.

Now everyone thinks I'm gay when I'm not even sure myself. Hayner was and is the only guy I ever felt anything for. It wasn't his looks or his gender, it was just the way he was that got me. I know for a fact that I'm attracted to girls. If I never went out with Hayner I'm sure I would have had a girl friend. It's too late now though. The ones that actually liked me saw us kissing.

What If Axel saw us? What if hates me now because of it. He hates Hayner so if he thought I was going back to him, would he hate me too? Why am I even worried about what he would think? It's not like we're really friends or anything. But he has been really nice to me even though I stopped talking to him. I feel really bad asking for him to hold me like that and for him to take me home.

Why did I let Hayner do that to me?! In the bathroom no less. Crap I'm in so much pain right now. If I knew it would hurt this much I would have tried to push him away more. An hour of sex with him pounding me in different positions. It hurt so much I'm never letting that happen again. But then again it just felt so good. Those kids in the halls were right. I'm nothing but a whore...'

Roxas sniffled while he kept thinking about more bad things about himself as he cried himself to sleep.

Axel saw the sleeping boy in the back of his car through the window. Roxas looked so peaceful while he slept that Axel didn't have to heart to wake the boy up from his slumber. None the less, he tapped on the window a few times to try to wake the kid up. He really didn't want to wake him but he had to get the car back to Kairi since it was her car. Not only that, he had to pick Ventus up since Roxas was with him. Not that he minded at all. He just didn't want to be late picking up the younger blond.

He tapped the window a few more times. "Roxas, time to wake up. You have my keys remember?" He tapped again.

Roxas stirred from his sleep, blinking his pained eyes open. He tilted his head up slowly to see Axel standing outside. He pondered for a moment before realizing that he was in the car with the keys and Axel was locked out. He winced when he moved too fast to unlock the door. Axel got in the back examining him for a second before taking his keys and going to the front. Roxas wondered where they were going when they hit the road, that is until he saw the familiar elementary school.

He panicked mentally slapping himself for forgetting Ven once again. 'What the hell is wrong with me?! Oh no I can't let Ven see me like this.'

Axel parked the car next to the curve knowing that they would be waiting a while. He learned that the first time he went with Roxas to pick up Ventus. Roxas told him that usually when he walked to get here, he would only have to wait about thirty minutes until his nephew was let out. Going by car meant they had to wait a little longer than thirty minutes.

Axel looked in his review mirror and discovered Roxas trying his best to clean up his messy appearance. The teen could fix his clothes and hair but there was no way that Ventus wouldn't notice the dark purple marks on the teen's neck or the way his eyes were so red and puffy.

The red head reached over to the glove box and pulled out a small red purse. It was Kairi's on the go make-up bag. Axel dug through it until he found what he was looking for. When he had said items he got out of the front seat and moved to the back seat next to Roxas who was trying to fix his tangled hair.

"Roxas take your jacket off."

Roxas stopped what he was doing to stare at Axel with fear filled eyes. He backed away from him until his back met with the other door. He didn't know if Axel was going to do the same thing that Hayner had did. He didn't need or want a repeat of anything that happened in the stall.

"Roxas please just trust me?" He gave him pleading eyes as he asked him knowing full well that he might not get it.

Roxas hesitated, he didn't know if he could trust him. After all they were alone in the back of his car and Axel did say something back then about if he wanted his ass he could have it. Roxas gulped trying to think of other things. Axel was being kind to him and he even went to the school to get Ven when he forgot. Axel was also friends with his nephew and that kid really liked him. But could he really trust him? Even if Axel did try something, he was positive that he could fight him off.

He reluctantly took off his hoodie and moved closer to Axel. Axel had something in his hand and Roxas backed away again thinking it was something that would hurt him.

"Roxas, it's just make-up. I'm going to cover your hickeys so Ven doesn't have to see them. Unless you want him to see them?" With that said Roxas moved closer to him again and let him get to work.

"It's a good thing your skin tone is almost the same as my sister's. I don't think he'll notice." He reached over to the front and put the things back in the purse then sat back down. "Roxas, will you tell me what happened?"

"N-No" His voice was worse than it was before. Axel guessed it must have been all his crying.

"Was it something I did?" Roxas shook his head. "Was it something that guy did?"

He shook his head again not knowing why he was lying to Axel and himself. He was feeling really weak and sleepy and just didn't want to talk. He laid down again not caring that he was using the other teen's lap as a pillow. He felt a hand gently run through his spikey hair. It felt really nice to him so he leaned against the hand relaxing more and unconsciously falling back to sleep.

When Roxas woke up he was in his room, in his bed, covered with his black blankets. He looked around his room to find any signs of life but only saw his sea blue walls and a glass of water on his dresser that was next to his bed and the damp cloth on his forehead.

He looked to his right, where the window was, and looked outside while he laid still in bed. The sun was starting to go down which meant that it was either five or six. It made him wondered if everything that happened today was just one big nightmare. He tired to sit up but the sharp pain in his lower back and ass stopped him. He laid back down seen that it was no nightmare and that it had indeed happened.

He hated himself so much right now and was feeling so stupid and embarrassed of all the events that took place before he woke up in bed. He noted that his urge for death was getting stronger each day since Hayner broke his heart.

He groaned and held his breath hoping to suffocate himself. Sadly for him the knock on his door interrupted his failed death attempt. "Come in." He said sounding like he had a sore throat and a cough.

The door slowly opened revealing his brother, Cloud, behind the door. He was holding a what looked like a bottle of pills and another cloth. Cloud sat on the bed and removed the other cloth only to replace it with the much cooler one he brought. "How are you feeling?"

Roxas sniffled and manged to asked in an almost whispered voice. "What happened?"

Cloud rolled his eyes, opened the bottle, and handed Roxas two pills. "Take these, they should help make your fever go down and help with your cough." Roxas did was he was told trying not to wince when he leaned up to take the pills with the water on his dresser.

The water made him wince anyway, with the cool liquid hitting his throat along with the pills made it hurt. He put the glass back and coughed a few times as he laid back down and asked again what happened.

"Look all I know is that your friend, Axel, took you and Ven home. He said while you both waited for Ven to be let out, you passed out in his car and you had a fever. He then took you both home. It's a good thing Ventus knows where you keep your house keys at other wise you would have been outside until I got home. Anyway, Ven let you guys inside. Axel carried you to your room, put you to bed and put this," He picked up the old cloth, "On you to help with the fever. He then stayed with Ven and check up on you until I got home an hour ago." Cloud said with a heavy sigh.

"He left soon after that promising Ven that he would be back. So I'm guessing that guy will also be joining us this weekend?"

"Where's Ven?" Roxas asked concerned.

"He's playing with his friends' Terra and Aqua. Roxas is that other guy really Ven's friend too?"

"Yeah."

"So he really is going to be here this weekend? Not that there's anything wrong with that I just don't want him sleeping in his room."

"He'll sleep in here, don't worry Cloud I wouldn't let him do anything to Ven. Not that he would." Roxas corrected himself before Cloud could ask him what he meant.

"Get some more rest alright? Tifa will come check on you when she gets home." He smirked and ruffled his brother's hair before leaving the room.

Roxas let sleep take him once more and sure enough Tifa did go to check on him. She was acting as is she wasn't his sister, but more like she was his mother. It made Roxas smile but he felt bad for making her worried about him. She check his temperature, asked if he was hungry and even asked if he wanted to go to the hospital. They both knew full well that he didn't need to so he just asked if he could go back to sleep. She kissed his cheek and nodded, heading out the door saying, "I love you Roxas." It made him blush but he knew she meant it in a parent loving their child kinda way. He smiled again as he slept.

"Assel's here!" Ven exclaimed when he was dropped off by Kairi and Sora, who drove off laughing when they heard what the five year old called him. Axel blushed from embarrassment knowing full well that he was going to have to threaten them so they would keep their mouths shut.

"Terra, Aqua, this is Assel!" Ven dragged him toward his friends happily.

"Assel?" They asked in unison.

"Yup. Assel this is Terra" he pointed to the brunette boy with light blue eyes and tanned skin. "And this is Aqua" he then pointed to the girl with short blue hair with bright blue eyes and lighter tanned skin than the boy next to her.

"Is your name really Assel?" She asked him curiously.

"No, not really but it's what Ven calls me. So you can call me that too if you want to little lady."

She giggled as Terra asked the next question. "So then what is your name then?"

"Axel, A-x-e-l, got it memorized?" He pointed to his temple causing all three kids to giggle.

"Assel come play with us." Ven held his hand looking up at him.

"Ven we're going to play cops and robbers." Terra told him as he and Aqua took off.

"Ven go play with them. I just want to check on Roxas. I promise that I'll play with you after I check on him, okay?"

Ven bit his lip thinking it over before saying cheerfully, "Okay!" Then he ran off to join his friends.

Axel went down the short hall turned right to the next hall then right again where the blond's room was. He knocked a few times to see if he was awake but when he didn't get an answer he just let himself in.

He looked at the bed next to the window where the sleeping form of Roxas laid. He chuckled when he couldn't help but notice that the teen's leg and arms where sticking out and hanging over the bed. He couldn't help think that it was really cute. He went over to him and put the arm and leg back on the bed and under the covers.

Roxas woke up from that. He stared up at Axel and probably would have freak out that he was in his room staring back at him but he was still to exhausted to care. So instead he manged to say something after clearing his throat. "Hey."

"Hey, how are ya feeling." Axel sat on the edge of the bed, facing the blond.

"Like crap. Thanks by the way for..,well everything."

"No thanks necessary. Is there anything I can do so you don't feel like crap?"

'Rub my head and back' "No not really. Thanks anyway. Why aren't you with Ven?"

"He's playing cops and robbers with his friends. And I wanted to check on you."

"I bet you would be the robber." He coughed a laugh.

"Well then, if I'm the robber then-"

The door slammed opened and stood in the door way was Ven and his friends, all with toy guns. "Get him!" They cried together.

"He's going to steal my Wasis." Ven aimed his gun at Axel.

"Ven, I won't let him." Aqua aimed her own gun at him.

"He won't get away from us Ven." Terra added also aiming at Axel.

Axel and Roxas stared at the children then at each other wide eyed. They started laughing and went along with the kids.

"That's right! I'm going to steal Roxas," he winked at him " and there's nothing you coppers can do about it." Axel got up and picked Roxas up bridal style.

Roxas couldn't help the giggles no matter how they hurt. He didn't even mind Axel holding him like that. In some weird way it felt nice and took some pressure off his back. "Oh no Ven, save me!"

"Wasis I'll save you! Ven dropped his gun and went to tackle Axel with Terra and Aqua helping.

Axel fell back dramatically but made sure Roxas didn't get hurt from his 'hard' fall on the bed. Ven, Terra and Aqua dog piled Axel all in a giggling fit. Roxas winced again when he sat up trying his best to cover it. "Oh my heroes."

"You go to jail mister." Aqua and Terra dragged Axel to the corner of the room where the 'jail cell' was.

"Wasis you're safe." Ven hugged his uncle then went to join the lecture Axel was getting from the other two about how stealing was bad.

"I'm so sorry I'll never try to steal anything or anyone again."

"Okay officer sirs and ma'am, I think it's time to wash up for dinner." Roxas said while running at his throat.

"Daddy got pizza for us. Terra, Aqua lets go." He beamed as he raced them out of the room.

Axel went back over to the bed and sat down on it facing Roxas. "I didn't hurt you did I?"

"No, why?"

"You looked like you were in a lot of pain."

"I-I..." He looked down at his lap.

"Roxas, tell me if this hurts." Axel moved closer and put his hand on Roxas' lower back causing him to yelp. "I guess I was right then." Axel said almost coldly.

Roxas only lowered his head knowing that Axel knew now. "P-please don't tell anyone."

"Roxas did he..?"

"No..Axel please just drop it."

"Roxas, Axel food's here. Do you think you can eat Roxas?" Tifa walked in the room, looking worried at him.

"Can I have some soup instead Tifa?"

"Sure, I'll have Cloud bring it in."

"I'll do it, if that's alright with you ma'am?" Axel got up and went next to Tifa.

"You can call me Tifa Axel."

"Alright Tifa Axel" she gently hit his arms giggling and walking with him out the door.

Roxas curled back up in bed, waiting for the food to come. When it did come he sat up, this time being sure not to show Axel his pain. "You know, you are sick."

He glared at him thinking he meant that he was sick for being with Hayner.

"When you fell asleep in the car on my lap and I was petting your head. That's when I noticed. It was probably stress related but after doing what you did, it only added to it causing you to get more sick."

"Can I just eat in peace please?"

"Roxas, I know you have trouble trusting but can't you trust me?" Axel looked extremely hurt.

Roxas didn't say anything until his soup was done. In the time he took to eat it, Ven came in and asked Axel to go sleep in his room but then Cloud came and told him no and that he would be sleeping here. Ven sniffled and cried but then Cloud gave him a look that shut him up. He knew better than to whine and complain. They said their good night and went to bed.

Roxas put his blow down. "Axel...lay with me?"

"W-what?" Axel was shocked to hear that after the time it took for him to say something.

Roxas took a deep breath and asked again. "Lay with me?"

"Roxas I-"

"Please? You wanted me to trust you right? Well, if you lay next to me and don't do anything then...I might try to trust you."

He didn't say anything, he got up and left the room but quickly came back with new his sleep clothes on: a pair of black shorts and a red beater. He slipped into the bed next to Roxas and laid down. "Aren't you going to change?"

"I would but I think some one else already did it for me." He looked at Axel knowingly.

"Sorry..I-I just couldn't let them see you like that and with..." he trailed off and looked away.

"Did you clean me too?"

"Yeah..." He blushed. "But just your chest, stomach, and legs...I couldn't look anywhere else."

Roxas blushed and climbed over Axel, he left the room for what seemed like forever. It made Axel think he was just going to sleep some where else and what ever trust he had was gone. That was until Roxas came back in the room looking like he just took a shower.

"Sorry about that..I just well..got the part you missed.." He blushed and Axel moved over so he didn't have to climb over him again.

Roxas laid next to him but had his back facing him. Axel laid on his side and gently rubbed the teen's back. Roxas blushed more and his eyes widen. He stiffened up from the sudden contact but soon relaxed, enjoying the massage. "Th-thank you."

"No problem, now lets try to sleep."

Did you like it? I hope so. wow it's been only a week and look 7 chapters. I wonder how long I can keep this up?

thank you for reading another long chapter. If you remember I said this was going to be part of the last chapter XD picture reading that and this all at once lol
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