Where do you Go? Chapter 9, an arrow fanfic

As Oliver put Laurel down on the roof, he was already sweating, his breathing was out of control, and he began to jump in between stairs as he ran as fast as he could down the fire escape to get to the basement.

"Ollie, there was no thud, no bang, maybe she's ok … Ollie" Laurel screamed from the roof as she watched him begin to jump from one stair level to the next.

All Oliver could think about was how he would find her lifeless body in the basement, blood probably spilling from a head wound, he kept picturing her broken, lifeless body, how could she be so stupid, why would she do that. He reached the basement his heart was pumping, his head running with images of a broken doll lying on the ground covered with in her blood. He scanned the basement, running laps back and forth, nothing, she was nowhere to be seen, there was no blood, and there was no body. Where was she?

"Oliver" he heard her voice, turning around to notice her and Roy. She was smiling at him, the same smile she gave him just before she let go of his arm. All he could do was blink, was she really standing here in front of him, fine, unharmed, how? How could she just smile at him after everything that had just happened?

As Felicity fell, her eyes were tight shut, this is it she thought, she always pictured her death to be when she was older, much older, she wanted it to be painless in her sleep or something. Since she joined team Arrow she realised her life maybe shorter than the average person, she had pictured being shot, stabbed, arrowed, run over, but never falling, what a way to plunge to your death. Her eyes remained shut until she heard a voice, her brain was working it was on high overload. She opened her eyes and saw Roy.

"Is this heaven, Roy why are you in heaven?" she asked still in shock.

"This isn't heaven you idiot" as he put her down on her feet and pinched her.

"Oww" she squeaked,

"See not heaven, I heard Oliver calling me came saw you guys hanging in the air, you falling then well I guess I caught you" he smiled, he couldn't help but notice how she kept looking up then down, pinching her hands, gulping, she was in shock. So he did the only thing he could do because if he hadn't been there this would be a completely different story, in pulled her into a hug and held on tight, he could have lost his best friend his sister tonight.

"WHAT THE HELL WE'RE YOU THINKING?" he had come up to her face, his nose touching hers as he screamed at her, it wasn't because he was mad, or angry, but because he thought he had lost her. He watched as she swallowed, he could tell she too was still reeling after what had happened.

"I .. the rope it was going to snap, and we all would have fell, and we all would have probably died and Roy caught me, if we had all fallen he very well couldn't of caught all three of us, unless he had the Mirarkuru in him" she laughed.

"Do you think this is funny Felicity" the way he says her name makes her heart begins to pound. "You let go to save us so what, that you could die?" he didn't want her to answer, how could he have lived with himself knowing she had made the ultimate sacrifice, to save him and Laurel, Laurel someone who Felicity was not fond of at all. The difference between her and everyone else in the world was that she was truly remarkable, brave and selfless, he had not thought of a way to get the girls to grab onto the rope so that he would instead of her let go to save them.

She pressed her forehead on his, as he closed his eyes. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I scared you but, I'm not sorry for what I did, I would do it again, always" she took a moment waiting for him to open his eyes, when he did she looked into them "there was no choice to make" she says, as she pulls him for a hug. His words he thought, he had you and he was going to hurt you, there was no choice to make. He held on to her tight, he could feel her tighten against him, probably in her words squashed but he didn't care, he could of lost the most important thing in his life tonight he thought and she would have died not knowing.

Back at the lair, Oliver and Laurel arrived, Oliver began to change out of his outfit, he had drove Felicity and Roy home, the whole journey he had held her hand, just to reassure himself that she was still there. Laurel watched him, he was pale, she thought he was still in shock of what happened, when she saw Felicity alive, she was grateful, yes she was annoying and was in love with Oliver and the team loved her but she would never intentionally wish anything bad on the girl, except maybe she would just leave and let her have Oliver and grow closer to the team. She had thanked Felicity for what she had done and she just shrugged, Laurel was shocked that she had shown such selflessness up there and had been brave to let go, she knew that she had done it for Oliver not her, she knew that she would do anything to ensure that nothing bad every happened to Oliver. She began to question herself, she thought about whether she would have done the same ever. Even if Felicity wasn't hanging on that rope and it was just her and Oliver, would she let go so that he could save himself. Her heart and mind were screaming no, but she kept telling herself she would. She kept her eyes on Oliver, needing to say something about tonight, he still looked distraught.

"Ollie, she's ok, what she did was brave, I don't know if I could have done that and …"

"Your right you wouldn't have done that" he added in, he could tell he hurt her but he didn't care.

"Ollie, she is fine, stop beating yourself up, it was her choice, she knew what she was doing and I can see how much you care about her" she finally admitted. "Let's go home Ollie".

"I more than care about her" he too finally being honest. He could see Laurel looking tense.

"I think about her every minute of every day, she is the first thing I think about when I wake up, and the last thing before I go to sleep. She haunts me in my dreams, sometimes its nightmares where I make a wrong move and she gets hurt and she dies" he takes a breather before continuing. "Sometimes, on good days, I dream about her and I, living a normal life, me coming home from work, our children, but they are only dreams that can never happen, I cannot allow myself to damage this woman, to taint her with all my wrong doings on this earth". He walks over and places his bow away.

"I love her more than I have ever loved anybody, it hurts to love her, because I can never be with her" he sat down on her chairing looking at Laurel who just stood still, not moving what looked like not breathing as she watched him finally admit everything he is feeling.

"She is so different to anybody I have ever met, how can someone be that remarkable, she is the bravest, most courageous person I know. She has the biggest heart, she always puts others before herself, always, and if she cares about you she will fight for and she will go to the ends of the earth for you. Never have I had someone believe in the way that she does, never have I witness a beautiful specimen be so selfless, she would rather die herself that allow anything bad to happen." He put his face in his hands. "She deserves someone who will be there for her always, will take care of her, will love her, and will give her a family". He added. "I was prepared to kill Slade that night, she gave me the idea and I used her, never in my entire life had I been more scared than leaving her in that mansion, knowing it was a matter of time before that creep finds her and puts his hands on her". He sighed. "It took a lot for me not to kill, not to kill him that night even though the whole thing was a setup, the thought of his hands on her, made my body cringe still does, I killed the count without even thinking, I lunged as many arrows as I could before he fell out of the window" his hands were still in his head, he looked out to Laurel who was holding back tears.

"I don't care, I will kill anyone who tries to harm her, he puts a finger on her and I will never feel any remorse, I got carried away that night when I told her a I loved her, it was true but I was so scared that something might go wrong that I needed to say those words, for me Laurel, I needed to say them so that I could realise what has been right in front of me the whole time". He got up to walk to her.

"She never judged me about who I was or who I became, she never looked at me like a damaged man, where others tiptoed around me, she fought me, and she always pulls me out of my ass".

"She gives me courage; she makes me see things that I never thought were there or clear. Where people saw a killer, she saw a hero, where people saw a playboy billionaire, she saw a man" He had tears in his eyes and he could feel them roll down his cheek.

"Where others saw scars" he walked up to Laurel as if to hint to her, "She saw strength, courage, bravery, what others saw as disgust, she saw as beauty, whenever the darkness is there and it threatens to gobble me up she comes for me, even though I push her away, I argue with her, attempt to control her, she comes and for such a long time, I have been so selfish to think she would always come, but lately I am doubting that, one day I will have those feelings, I will think like the vigilante, not the Arrow and she won't come" he wiped tears away from his cheeks. He started pacing in the lair, not knowing what to do.

"She will come" is all he heard as he looked at Laurel. "I really wanted for us to work, but I never saw it, or I didn't want to believe that you could love her that much, she will come Ollie, always, if you need her, no matter what you do, how things turn out she will come, just because of all those qualities that you have listed and tonight she was willing to sacrifice herself so that you would live". Laurel walked up to him and placed her hands on his shoulders. "Ollie" she shook her head, "Oliver, Felicity loves you, and you love her, you deserve someone like her, you deserve to be happy Oliver, you deserve someone who will pull you out of the darkness and will love you unconditionally, all those reasons you listed for her deserving someone, that's you Oliver, she will never find someone who will lover her as much as you do, who will care for her, give her a family all those things Oliver".

Laurel knew that no matter what she had to let him go, she could never make him happy, she could never be all those things listed under Felicity Smoak. "Oliver, I may have said some things to her, which I really regret now, about how you used her to save me all I could think about was how much I wanted to win you back, and this is the reason why she has been distant I told her that you don't care about her" she admitted, scared that he would scream, shout, tell her to get out. "Go find her Oliver and tell her all you have told me, you deserve this, she deserves this so GO" she screamed at him, pecking him on the lips as a finally goodbye.

Oliver got to Felicity's road, he went to his usual spot to see if she was awake, to be fair he didn't care if she was awake or not, he would wake her, he had to tell her, he had to tell her everything enough is enough. He saw her walk into the living room and hug him, he thought Roy, until he turned around it was Nick, he watched as she snuggled on the sofa next to him, with coffee in hand. It was too late her thought.

He ran back to the lair, wanting to release as much anger as he could, of course Nick, he had forgotten, she's moved on, he was too late. When he got to the lair, he noticed Laurel working away at her desk.

"Did you tell her?" she asks.

"No"

"Why not I thought that's why you were going …"

"She was with Nick" as he punches the tummy.

Laurel gets up from her desk and walks up to him, "well you know what this means then"

"Yeah, I've lost her forever"

"No it means, Oliver Queen has to fight for his girl, you fight for strangers every day, now you need to fight for the woman you love".

I KNOW I MADE LAUREL INTO A BITCH AT THE START BUT I WOULD LIKE TO THINK THAT IF THIS WAS TO HAPPEN SHE WOULD WANT OLIVER TO BE HAPPY, I HOPE IM RIGHT BECAUSE THAT WOULD BE SERIOUSLY BITCHY IF SHE TOLD HIM NOT TO FIGHT FOR HER.

I WAS WRITING THIS CHAPTER AND WAS GOING TO LEAVE IT WIH OLIVER SEEING THEM AND MY FRIEND GAVE ME THIS IDEA, I DID SAY OLICITY I DIDN'T WANT TO BE MEAN AND CLIFF HANG IT THERE.

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