Oliver watched Felicity closely; she kept tugging her dress down as it kept riding up due to the shortness of length. He noticed that every time she tugged it down that cleavage around her chest area would become too revealing. "Felicity, stop pulling your dress …" he stared at her breasts.

She noticed his eyes and looked down noticing how bare her breasts were blushing all of a sudden she pulls her dress back up and folds her arms around them. Oliver picks up his blazer and hands it to her; she takes it gratefully and wraps it around herself. Oliver reaches and places a hand on her knee, needing that closeness; however he was met with a flinch, her knee moving and his hand falling off it.

"I don't understand, we were having a great time, the explosion happened we held each other another explosion we held each other again and now your distancing yourself, I don't understand" Oliver managed to say firmly.

"That's because I thought you were dead or dying, I haven't forgot how you gripped my wrists, by the way they are bruising and you called me stupid, so I'm sorry that I'm not sitting on your lap" she snapped.

"Felicity, I am so sorry about that, you have no idea, I did not mean it I was angry and I would never hurt you, I will be beating myself up about that for the rest of my life, I" tears forming, "I am so sorry, I never meant to hurt you, I would never hurt you"

She started laughing, "That's all you do Oliver, you gave me that stupid Russia speech about not wanting me to get hurt, guess what no one has hurt me except for you, you have been hurting for over a year now and today with my wrists God I wish you did hurt me physically because at least those would heal and wouldn't hurt as much as the emotional side of everything" she admitted, shocked because all though her brain works over time she had never understood her feelings until she admitted it out loud.

"Felicity, I am so sorry, today, I would never do that, I know that I have hurt you, I know and I want to talk …"

"I don't want to talk Oliver ok"

"Felicity"

"Stop, stop saying my name like that, just stop, no talking Oliver because it hurts to talk to you, it hurts to breath when I am around you and I am an idiot and a fool"

"You're not an idiot, what are you saying"

"That I know you do not feel anything for me but you give me these signs and you do these things that make me think differently, the way you say my name, the way you touch me and smile at me and all these other things and then I think to myself he feels the same way but then you back away from me, shut me out, you go and sleep with anything with legs and I know, I know that I mean nothing to you" she sounded bitter and angry and in a way she was glad she felt like this instead of being sad and crying and vulnerable.

"No, I care about you so much and you mean …"

"Nothing"

"Felicity"

"Do you laugh at me Oliver? Do you get together with Digg and Roy and Laurel and laugh behind my back at how stupid and desperate I am, because I know that you do, the looks I get from you guys, the hey there's desperate Felicity head over heels for a man that looks at her as nothing more than his employee"

"STOP" he yells

"NO YOU STOP, YOU STOP" she shouts back.

"Nobody is laughing at you, especially not me" he cried

"You use me, you know that I would do anything for you and you use to get what you want … Slade"

"Stop, I would never use you I …" he was cut off again.

"Let me talk, let me finish" she took in a long breath preparing herself it was now or never. "We're not even friends Oliver, we are employees or shall I say I'm your employee, tell me it's not true, tell me that these past few years all we have done is work at QC and work at the foundry, forget dinner's that we have as a team that's nothing, we have never hanged out, we have never talked about anything that isn't arrow or QC related, we're not friends".

"That's not true …"

"I SAID LET ME FINISH" not intending her voice to be that loud and rough, "I realised the keeper took us, you hardly answered any questions right about me because you do not know a thing about me and ..."

"Now this is where I will stop you, you never tell me anything about your past ..."

"You're one to talk about pasts" she hissed

"It's one thing me not telling you about my time on the island but brothers Felicity how do I not know you have three brothers"

"They are not in my life, my eldest brother is in prison stole a car my twin brother passed away a very long time and my younger brother is sailing around the world on his boat with his girlfriend haven't seen him since he came to visit me after the undertaking" saying all in one breath.

"How do I not know at least this about you ..."

"Like I said not friends" she began to play with her fingers.

"I am ..."

"Sorry, I know you're always sorry I think I've come to the conclusion that sorry means nothing from you so stop wasting your breath" she began to sound malicious.

"What does your tattoo mean" changing the subject hoping that they can talk and somehow hopefully come to some sort of understanding or to be able to draw some water under the bridge?

"What?" she asked confused.

"The night of the accident with Roy in the emergency room I saw it, Nobody's Home, what does it mean?" he asked quietly not able to look her in the eye.

"I thought once I came into this with you and Dig that maybe just maybe there will be people in my life and there is, there's Roy and Digg" she couldn't find the words to explain, "My dad left, my twin brother passed away when we we're 10, a drunk driver hit him, my older brother he was never around barely knew him, he was in an out of Juvy and when he turned 18 he stole a car and was found with possession of a weapon and drugs on him I was 11 at the time, he got 15 years I think, not to mention he attempted to kill someone in prison so that got him more years" she was going off track but she wasn't saying this for Oliver she was saying this for herself.

"My mom she's my mom, she was a terrible mother, she was never there for us she would have different boyfriends, boyfriends who would find me pretty apparently, I would always tell her that they are hitting on me and she would say always say it's my fault and that I am trying to steal her boyfriends. After my brother died, my mom thought it would be nice if we went away for a while, so here we are in the car, me, mum and Hal, driving through the dessert, she stops the car in the middle of nowhere and tells me and Hal to get out and she drives away, leaving us in the middle of nowhere Hal was 7 at the time and I carried him on my back all the way to the nearest service station", tears were pooling out of her eyes and all Oliver wanted to do was hold her hand.

"I lied when I said that I don't have any scars, I have a small scar under my foot, I had to walk with Hal on my back because he was tiny 75 miles to the nearest gas Station, I tried to hitchhike but I would only get truckers stop for me, who always looked like they were after something else, when we reached the station my feet we're bleeding, we we're dehydrated I swear I was like a minus 2 in dress size".

"We had nowhere to go, my house was empty, we slept on the beach until my dad's best friend the one from the pictures took us in, I worked hard to go to MIT early which I did, and when Hal turned 15 he went to military school and then when he was 18 he went sailing with his girlfriend" tears streamed down her cheeks, "Nobody's home Oliver, people always leave there is no one to … there's no one there, so when I came into this there were people there, there's Roy and Digg" she dried her eyes.

"There's me too" he added.

"No there isn't, you're not there, your there for others …"

"Felicity, I am there I will always be there …"

"No you aren't and you won't, what happens when you finally get with someone and you settle down and … hardly going to be there are you, when you and Laurel …"

"Me and Laurel, there is no me and Laurel, there will never be a me and Laurel" frustrated now, he tried to find a way to have his say.

"Really because I saw you too kissing in the foundry and your birthday, you didn't invite me and …"

"You saw that … I'm guessing you didn't see the part where I pulled away from her and the part I regret not inviting you I regret that I listened to her and that I didn't …"

"Don't make me laugh, no one can get you to do anything you do not want to, just admit it you didn't want me there and I waited for you like an idiot and I cried like a …" she couldn't hold back the tears any longer, once Oliver reached to touch her she pulled her legs up to her chest and she started to cradle herself.

"Have you finished?" he straightened himself and pulled his legs in so that he could lean in and look at her closely.

She watched him in confusion, "Good, now it's my turn, you Felicity Smoak are the most stubborn person I have ever met in my life, you never do as your told or asked of, you drive me crazy in all aspects, you drive me crazy because you do these dangerous things, you drive me crazy because I cannot get you out of my head" he moves a little closer, hoping that she will look him in the eye, but she remained looking to the side.

"You Felicity Smoak are the most selfless person that I have ever met, you never think about yourself only others, you have a beautiful heart and you will do anything to help someone even a stranger" he shifted closer to her. "You are the only person that believes in me, you encourage me, you give me strength, you give me hope, and you made me find another way". He grabbed her hand trying really hard to get her to look at him "When I am around I want to be a better man, you make me better, I want to better for you, I … I know I gave you that speech and I still stand by it because I will never forgive myself if something happened to you because of me". He reached over and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.

"But I want to be selfish, I want you" he admitted finally getting her to turn around and face him. He smiled at her cupping her cheek "I love you, I have loved you for so long, I am in love with you, I have never felt like this about anyone, you .. I didn't know it was possible to feel butterflies, when people say butterflies it's ridiculous you know, but I have them with you, I am in love with you, every part of you" he smiled at her drawing her a little closer.

"I know" he whispered, "I know that I have hurt you and I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you, but I want you, I love you and I need you, I need you in my life, I want to wake up with you and go to bed with you, I want to hold you, Felicity I love you" he kisses her forehead, "I love you" he kisses her cheek, "I love you" he kisses her other cheek, "I love you" he kisses her nose, "I love you" he kisses her jaw, "I love you" he stops at her mouth looking at it.

"Oliver, seriously" she asked confused was this happening, did this man just tell her he is in love with her was she dreaming.

"I love you" he kisses her on the lips, sparks of electricity rush through both of them, everything goes silent, lost in the moment they do not care for anything else just each other, during the kiss Felicity opens her eyes to look at him, still not believing its true, it's not until Oliver's eyes met hers, their lips not stopping when she throws her arms around his neck. Finally needing air they reluctantly pull away from each other, panting, trying to catch their breath.

"Wow, you're a really good kisser" Felicity said blushing.

"So are you" he chuckled resting his forehead on hers.

"Oliver" she whispers

"Hmm"

"I love you too, I mean I guess you already knew that but …" she is stopped with his lips.

"Say it again"

"I love you" she kisses his forehead, "I love you" kisses his cheek, "I love you" his other cheek, "I love you" she kisses his nose, "I love you" she kisses him finally on the lips. After what seems to be hours of just kissing, Felicity pulls away, "Oliver"

"Yeah" he says quietly holding her face.

She bites her lip "I want to be with you" she inches closer to her, "I want …" trying to find the words she begins to rub her nose against his, "I want you, I want to know how it feels ... I want you inside of me" she pulls away blushing ridiculously she covers her face with her hands trying to hide her embarrassment.

Oliver couldn't help the laughs that come out of him, he reaches for her wrists and carefully kisses them, around the small bruises that have started to form, "Here?" he asks, looking around him, they are stuck in a very small spot under rubble, he knows that it will be a very long while until someone gets them out but he needed to know that she meant here.

"Yeah … I mean we don't have too" she shakes her head "Sorry it was stupid and …" he kisses her again, grabbing the blazer from around her, he lays it on the floor then takes his shirt of and lays it on top of the blazer, he gently lifts her and places her on the blazer and uses his shirt as a pillow to hold her head.

"O wow, you're really sweaty" he laughs really loud, hoping that his laugh does not echo through these walls, he notices her look really nervous and twitchy.

"You sure?" he moves his nose with hers.

"Yeah" she whispers, enough to make Oliver begin to kiss her throat, he drops small kisses on her neck and makes is way up to her mouth, then to her jaw and her neck. He uses his hand to slowly work up her thigh. "Oliver" she groans, pulling his face to look at her.

"Yeah, you ok, are you hurt"

"No" she laughs and shakes her head. He could see her going really pink and drawing her hands back to her face. "I have to tell you something"

"You can tell me anything"

"I've never done this before" her hands still over her face.

"What slept with someone" he asks shocked, slowly moving his body away from hers, pulling her hands away so that he could see her. She nods her head. "O, what about Nick" he asks confused.

"Just in the same bed sleeping but not sleeping, sleeping, sex sleeping with him, I've just never found someone that I wanted to do it with and … I'm sorry I guess now you don't want too and …"

"I think I just fell in love with you more" he admitted, "Are you sure, me, we don't have to and not here anyways"

"I want to, I want it to be you, only you, never anyone else, I know I make sex jokes all the time but, I never found someone special, I want you to be my first and last" she admits, trying to find some strength in her words.

"I love you Felicity Queen"

"Oo ok then" she laughs, "You know what I always use to think it's really nice the traditional way marriage and then sex, I guess I am doing it the traditional way, in a way" she says.

"Yeah, I guess you are" he smirks at her.

"One thing, I'm sorry"

"For what?"

"I'm probably going to be really bad at it and you have lots of experience …"

"Not possible, you will be amazing, just I need you to tell me if it hurts or you feel uncomfortable and I will stop ok"

"I know I said you hurt me and … Oliver you could never hurt me not intentionally and I know that, I love you and I want you" she drew him in for a kiss.

Ok so here's this chapter I was going to write the smut side of it but went against it, it sounded really good in my head and when I attempted to write it, it just didn't do it justice on paper and I'd rather you all use your imaginations on it that to not serve it justice, sorry for the delay I know I kind of promised it yesterday but the whole sex scene I re wrote it about 4 times and it just didn't sound all that sexay and appealing so I took it out.