So, today I'm updating twice because I want to make up for not updating in the past days, plus you deserve it.

This chapter is about Finnick describing why and how he decided to tell Katniss about his feelings for her. (In other words: I put together the last two chapters but from Finnick's POV)

I hope you enjoy it. xo

Finnick's POV.

I wake up with a smile; it's been the first time in a while that I hadn't woke up at the middle of the night because of my nightmares. Indeed, I didn't dream about anything.

I remember my first days on District 13. All I did during those days was cry and wander half-naked along the halls. I get chills and try to keep these thoughts away from my mind.

Annie wouldn't want me to be depressed…

I get out of bed, take a bath and walk along the halls. This lock-in is making me lose my sanity.

I find myself in the hall where Gale's room is located, Katniss is leaving it and when she walks next to me she doesn't even bother to say hi.

Did she sleep with Gale? Are they going that serious?

I sigh. I care about Katniss more than I should…

I keep wandering around until my stomach growls, it's time for breakfast.

I spot Katniss at the moment I enter the dining hall, she's sitting with her boyfriend. I feel how jealousy stabs me in the guts. I stare at them, wishing I could be in Gale's place.

Katniss looks up and stares back at me. She smiles.

«STOP IT, ODAIR! » My inner voice yells at me. «She doesn't care about you»

I'm the one she runs to whenever she needs someone to talk to… She comes to me, instead of Gale; that's a good thing, right?

I snort when I remember what I saw a few minutes ago: Katniss leaving Gale's room.

I find myself walking towards them; I sit next to Gale and smile when I see his expression, he looks pissed.

"So you guys…" I say grinning "Tell me, how was last night?"

"What?" Katniss asks.

"Oh, come on, Girl on Fire! Both of you know what I'm talking about!" I reply laughing.

"Shut up." Gale says annoyed. I smile pleased when I see his scowl "Oh come on! Was it good?" I laugh cockily.

They look annoyed.

"What are you talking about?" Katniss asks annoyed.

Does this mean that she didn't sleep with him?

"Oh, Girl on Fire! I'm talking about that this morning, I saw you leaving your man's room and you didn't even say hi to me!" I reply with mock offense.

"We didn't do it." Gale says annoyed.

My soul rests when he says that. But still, I want to make him upset.

"Oh, what a shame." I say laughing and look at Katniss.

What's happening to me? Why am I so upset about their relationship? It isn't any of my business…

"Are you done with mocking at us?" Katniss asks annoyed.

I smile seductively.

"I wasn't mocking at you…" I whisper and wink at her.

"Go away." Gale mutters.

"Oh, but we were having so much fun… Weren't we, Girl on Fire?" I smile seductively at Katniss.

"I mean it, Odair." Gale mutters angrily.

"Oh, call me whenever you're in the mood to have a little fun…" I say with a grin before leaving.

What the heck is wrong with me?! She's never going to talk to me again! Crap. I behaved like a moron.

I walk towards Katniss room and sit on the ground. I'm going to wait for her to come back and then I'll apologize.

It was stupid to let jealousy take control of me.

I really need to apologize… But what am I going to tell her? I'm not quite sure about my feelings… I'm sure that I want to be with her and be happy; besides, she makes me feel alive.

I'll tell her. I'm not sure about how, but I will.

I stand up when I see her across the hall.

"What are you doing here?" She asks.

"I came to talk to you..." I mutter looking at the ground.

"Talk about what?" She asks "You came to mock at me again?"

"No, I'm sorry about that…" I look her in the eyes and sigh "I just wanted to talk about my…"

"Am I interrupting something?" Gale asks and kisses Katniss' cheek.

"Yes, you are…" I mutter and roll my eyes.

"Katniss may I talk to you in private?" I ask her.

"Does my presence bother you?" Gale asks me.

"Yeah, kind of…" I reply scowling.

"Oh, I'm so sorry… but your presence also bothers me." Gale says.

"Okay, stop it!" She interrupts us. "Gale, I'm going to talk with him."

We frown at her.

"Let's go." I mutter. I smile and gently hold her arm.

"Where are we going?" She asks smiling.

"We're getting out of here… I'm starting to lose it." I reply smiling at her "Do you want to go swimming?"

"Nah, I'm fine." She replies smiling.

"Oh, come on!" I pouch.

"That's not going to work with me…" She mutters.

I ignore her and carry her on my shoulder. I head to the lake and stand next to it.

I smile and softly leave her back into the ground.

"Are you sure you don't want to swim?" I ask smiling.

"Yeah." She replies.

"Well… What a shame." I whisper on her ear before pushing her into the water

I smile and dive in. I stand up behind her and wrap my arms around her waist.

"Where do you think you're going?" I whisper on her ear.

"You wanted to talk to me…" She replies "Let's talk."

I notice that she's breathing heavily.

"Let's swim for a while, and then we'll talk." I whisper on her ear and make her turn around. "Are you okay with it?"

She nods.

I smile and stare at her shiny gray eyes. I pull her closer to me. Our lips are almost touching. I can feel my heart beating faster. She smiles and looks me in the eyes.

I run my fingers along her jawline and stare at her lips.

I can't handle this.

"Katniss…" Her name caresses my lips. I kiss her, softly and slowly. I feel her soft lips against mine and her tongue in my mouth. She wraps her arms around my neck and I smile as I kiss her.

"Finnick…" She whispers as she leans back. "I can't do this…"

We stare into each other's eyes. I can't do this anymore. I need to tell her, I need her to know what I feel when I'm around her.

"Okay, it's time to talk." I mutter.

"I thought that you wanted to swim…" She says.

"No… I… I really need to talk to you." I mutter nervously.

"Okay."

We walk out of the lake and sit on a log.

"What did you want to talk about?" She asks smiling.

I stand up and wander in circles.

What am I going to tell her? How? She's probably going to freak out and never talk to me again, but… What if she doesn't? What if there's a small probability of her loving me back? I'm scared, but I'm willing to risk it all.

I stand in front of her.

"Okay, I don't know how to tell you this without it sounding wrong…" I mutter nervously.

"What's happening?" She asks.

"I want to talk to you about my behavior this morning…" I reply.

"Okay, tell me, why did you behave like a jerk?" She asks smiling.

"As I said, this morning I saw you walking out from Gale's room…" I babble "And I… I got jealous, okay?" I snort and cover my face with my hands.

Crap. I'm about to screw up everything

"Jealous?" She asks.

"Yeah…" I reply as I stare into her eyes.

"Why?"

Here I go…

"I don't know… Well I do, but… Katniss…" I babble "I like who I am when I'm with you, you make all the pain go away, I forget about everything when we're together… I'm not sure about what I feel right now, maybe I'm confused because of all the stuff that has been happening lately… But I know for sure that I want a chance, I want to be with you, Girl on Fire…" I whisper smiling.

We stay quiet for a while. That's when I notice that I've just screwed up everything.

"Aren't you going to say anything?" I ask nervously.

"I…" She mutters.

"You don't have to say anything." I mutter and hold her hand.

My heart shrinks when she slaps my hand away

"I… I have to go." She mutters as she runs deeper into the forest.

I can't move. I just stare at her while she leaves. My heart aches with every beat.

What have I done?! This is so wrong…

«Conceal it. » I tell to myself. I won't let this get to me. I'll pretend like nothing of this happened…

I was an asshole just by thinking that she might love me back… She loves Peeta and has a relationship with Gale.

Well… I have Annie. She's always with me…

I don't know what I'm feeling right now… It's like a combination of sadness, anger, guilt and impotence.

I can't keep doing this, I feel like if I were cheating on Annie… But, she left without caring about me. She didn't think about how much I would miss her...

When my body finally responds, I stand up and kick the log as hard as I can. I'd rather feel physical pain instead of mental…

I resist the urge to go and look for Katniss. I'll give her space, if that's what she wants. And I'll give myself a break.

Who am I trying to fool?! I need her… After all, she's the only one in this place who understands me.

I walk back to my room and lay on my bed until I fall asleep.

I'm emotionless.

Tonight I dream that I'm back in District 4 with Katniss… And I've got to say that we look pretty happy.

I wanna thank you guys for your support! You can't imagine how happy you make me!