(Finnick's POV.)

I'm lying on my bed. We've just returned from our mission to the Capitol.

I'm exhausted, but I just can't sleep. I can't stop thinking about Katniss… I should've never told her what I feel… She reacted the way I was afraid she would…

I haven't talked to her for a while, and I miss that.

I want to talk to her; I want to spend time with her… But I feel vulnerable; I hate it whenever someone notices that I'm hurt…

I lie in my bed and stare at the ceiling for about two hours.

I stand up and walk toward Katniss' room…

I knock.

Her mother opens the door immediately.

"Katniss?!" She asks.

"No…" I reply "Good night Mrs. Everdeen… She's not here, right?" I ask.

"No. I asked if she went to the forest for a walk, but no one saw her." She mutters.

"I'll go look for her." I try to comfort her. "Maybe she's with Gale."

"He came looking for her about an hour ago…" She mutters.

"Oh… If I find her, I'll tell her that you're looking for her." I mutter.

"Thank you, Finnick!" She says smiling.

"It's my pleasure, Mrs. Everdeen." I say with a wide smile.

If she's not with Gale or in the forest, she might be with Haymitch.

I hesitate before knocking his door.

My heart skips a beat when she opens the door. I'm glad I found her; but, my happiness turns into anger when I smell alcohol.

She's been drinking.

"Hey…" She giggles.

"Here you are…" I mutter.

"Did you miss me?" She asks grinning.

"Katniss… Have you been drinking?" I ask as I look at the bottle she's holding.

"Yup. A little. Maybe." She babbles.

"Come on; let's get you out of here." I mutter as I try to snap away the bottle.

"No. Let me finish it, you can't waste stuff here, remember?" She giggles one more time.

I snap the bottle off her hands and throw it into the floor.

No one can see her like that. Her mom will probably get angry and Coin… I don't know why I get the feeling that she'd kick her out.

"I can't let anyone see you like this…" I tell her.

I carry her in my arms all the way to my room.

"You need to sleep." I whisper and carefully lay her in my bed.

"I'm sorry, Finnick." She mutters as she starts to cry.

"Hush… Don't cry." I smile and wipe her tears away "What are you sorry about?"

"I'm sorry for running away." She babbles "I should have told you that I like you."

I frown.

She likes me? My heart races and I can't help but smile.

"You need to sleep." I caress her cheek. "We'll talk about it when you're sober."

"I'm sober." She babbles.

"You're not."I smile.

"Maybe I'm not." She whispers.

I sit next to her and hold her hand. She's beautiful

"Try to sleep." I insist.

She stares at my lips. I lean close to her, our lips are a few millimeters away.

"Try to sleep…" I whisper, our lips touch while I talk "I'll be here when you wake up."

She kisses me and I kiss her back.

She's drunk; she doesn't know what she's doing…

I lean back and I think it makes her upset, because she turns her back on me.

I head to her room when I'm sure she's asleep.

I knock and her mom opens the door.

"Did you find her?" She asks.

"Yeah, I did…" I reply.

"Where's she?" She asks.

"She got drunk…" I reply "She's sleeping… Do you want me to bring her to her bed?" I ask.

"It's ok. I trust you." She replies.

"I'll take care of her. I promise." I sigh "Please don't tell her that I told you about this."

"I won't." She says with a smile.

I go back to my room and lay next to Katniss. She looks so beautiful when she's sleeping. I caress her cheek and watch her sleep until I fall asleep too.

She's still here when I wake up. She's smiling and still between my arms.

"Good morning…" She whispers smiling.

I frown. I can't believe that she's still here…

I smile after a while, because she's still here after all.

"Good morning." I mutter and kiss her forehead.

I need to talk to her about last night. All the stuff she said…

My heart aches when I notice that everything she said last night was unconscious; she was drunk after all.

"Katniss… We need to talk." I mutter frowning.

"What do you want to talk about?" She asks.

"I want to talk about you and… well… about you and me." I babble.

"I want to tell you something first…" She mutters.

"What is it?" I ask.

My heart thumps against my chest.

"I want to apologize." She mutters "I shouldn't have run away just like that… I…"

I put my finger on her mouth. I don't want her to continue, it's not her fault after all…

"You don't have to apologize about anything…"

"Yeah, I should." She insists.

"Everything changed since that day..." She continues "I don't know… I… I feel like…"

"How do you feel?" I ask. My heart is beating like a drum.

"I don't know… I … I missed spending time with you..."

My heart races and I try to hold back a smile. She left me speechless.

"I should leave…" She mutters and stands up.

I stand up and softly hold her by her arm.

"Don't…" I lean close to her face and stare into her beautiful green eyes.

I smile and kiss her.

I don't care if she's not going to pick me over Gale. I'll try to enjoy the moment as long as I can. I hold her waist, pulling her closer to me in case she tries to run away.

I lean back and smile at her.

"I missed you too." I whisper as I caress her cheek.

She hugs me and I kiss her forehead.

I don't want to let her go… I want her to stay with me.

"Katniss, I think I need you…" I whisper against her head. I feel my heart struggling to jump out of my chest as I talk.

I do need her. She keeps me sane.

She's immersing on her own thoughts.

"Katniss… Is everything okay?" I ask.

"Yeah… I'm fine." She replies, still absentminded.

"What's wrong?" I ask.

"Nothing…" She replies faking a smile.

"Oh, Girl on Fire. You're the worst liar I've ever met." I grin.

"I… I need to think about all of this." She babbles and stares at her feet.

I sigh. I don't want this. I can't bear it. One moment she's with me, the next she's distracted. I have to let her go…

"Katniss, I don't want you to feel any pressure. I'll be okay if you don't want to be with me." I whisper "I won't make you do anything you don't want to…"

"I'm not doing anything I don't want to." She replies staring into my eyes.

"Great." I can't hold back my smile anymore.

She kisses me before leaving.

I lay in my bed.

What am I going to do?

Everything's completely messed up…

I can't just ask her to leave Gale just to be with me… And she wouldn't do that.

I sigh.

This is so confusing…

I still miss Annie, but she's gone and I can't do anything to change it. She'll always be in my heart and I'll always love her. But I need to move on.

I'll try to move on.