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Ch. 15 – You ARE my girlfriend.

-Lea-

I sat down beside Ryan and saw Cory looking down with red eyes. Was he crying? I didn't mean to freak out but when he said I was his girlfriend my mind snapped. Ryan asked if he could have a word with me alone, I nodded and followed him.

"So, what's going on between you and Cory? And now I want to know the truth." He said and it was my time to look down.

"I don't know what we are, everyone keeps asking me this and I have no idea how to answer. I really like him, and I know he likes me too, but we're not together together."

"You're sleeping together but Cory doesn't want to make it official? I shook my head.

"He wants to date me for real but I freak out every time he calls me his girlfriend or something like that." Ryan held my hand.

"What are you afraid of?" He asked looking into my eyes.

"He's a drug addict, I don't know how to deal with this."

"He's clean Lea."

"But what if he starts using again? What will I do?"

"Help him. I can understand why you're scared, but if you truly care for him and that happens you'll help him. I'm not saying you have to save him, because he's the only one that can save himself. Do you love him?" I looked down again.

"Yes." He smiled at me.

"Then go there and apologize to him. He's a great guy, my opinion about him changed a lot in these last few months, and if you want him you have my blessing."

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We arrived at our hotel late at night, I was so tired. Next day we had to perform on The X Factor. I needed to rest since I knew when it came to live singing they all relied on me. Cory changed to his PJs and laid down on his bed. I knew I needed to say something but I didn't even know where to start. I probably stared at him more than I should have. He looked at me.

"Do you want anything Lea? I want to sleep." He said coldly. I started crying. He sat up in bed. "Are you alright?" he asked this time with his normal caring tone. When I didn't say anything he sat beside me putting his arm around my shoulders.

"I'm so sorry." He nodded running his hands on my back. "I'm so confused. We can't have a serious relationship, so I need to set you free. I can't let you hanging when I know we'll never be something more than friends with benefits. We both need to move on. I'm not your girlfriend, and you deserve to have one, you deserve a girl that is brave enough to be with you through everything. I'm just not that girl." He shook his head.

"You are my girlfriend, you're just scared to admit it. I'll move on only when I know that I tried everything I could to be with you. I know you care about me exactly the same way I care about you. No matter what you say." He said looking into my eyes making my legs jelly, thank God I was sitting. Cory picked up my chin and crushed his lips on mine. It was one hell of a kiss.

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Cory was naked and about to take my panties off, but I held his hand.

"I'm on my period." He laughed.

"I know, that means I can't eat you out, period. We can make errr, have sex, I even bought condoms especially to use with you." OMG! He almost said make love, we are so doomed. I was so lost in thoughts because of the make love thing that I think I just nodded, because I saw Cory putting the condom on himself and going deep inside me. He was going hard and slow, that was driving me insane. He never did it that way, then I realized that he wasn't just fucking me as he always did. We were making love.

-Cory-

How couldn't Lea realize that we love each other? We were lying in bed together holding each other, none of us said a word. Lea sat down in bed and laughed looking at me.

"Look at the mess we made!" I looked to where she was looking and I turned bright red. There was blood everywhere.

"Oh damn, but it was worth it, wasn't it?" she shyly nodded and stretched her hand to me.

"Let's take a shower? We can't sleep like this. And we're sleeping on the other bed tonight." I held her hand, I couldn't believe Lea was inviting me to shower with her. I didn't lose time and followed her.

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It was time to perform on The X Factor, everyone was excited but I was so nervous because we were going to sing Don't Stop Believing and I was the one that started singing and singing live with Lea is always intimidating. I was talking to Mark and Amber.

"How can you be so relaxed? I'm about to pass out." I said and they laughed.

"Calm down man, Lea is always there to back you up. And that woman can sing live." Mark said and I nodded.

"Exactly! I'm so nervous to screw up, Lea's so much better than me." They laughed.

"Lea's better than all of us, she's one of kind. Thank God she's not as annoying as Rachel, because that girl has one of the most amazing voices I've ever heard." Amber said.

"I know, if I had that voice I would brag." Mark said and I laughed. "I can't even imagine how hot she can be in bed moaning with that amazing voice of hers." I punched his arm.

"Hey! Stop it. Don't talk about her like that." I said and they both laughed. Lea arrived exactly at that moment.

"What so funny?" she asked bubbly.

"Cory's shitting his pants." Mark said and Lea looked at me.

"Why?"

"He's nervous to sing live with you." She stared at me.

"Cory, come here." She said holding my hand and pushing me away. When we were alone in a corner she stared at my eyes. "You don't need to be nervous. Well, not that nervous, because I can understand you. I always get nervous when I'm about to go on stage. But it's a good kind of anxiety. Just relax and focus in having fun." I nodded and held her tight to me.

"Thank you." she smiled but pushed me away lightly, I didn't say anything but didn't she realize that all the cast know about us already?

-Lea-

We all sang beautifully, especially Cory. It was sad that he still didn't believe how great he sings.

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Time flew by, I guess that's what happens when you're having fun. It was Australia time! Cory and I slept like the dead on the plane, we were so tired. Well, we had a full schedule everyday and by night we almost didn't sleep. I think I never had so much sex in my life, it was like two times at night and one in the morning, Cory was wearing me out. But I was loving every single minute of it.

We arrived in the hotel around midnight, and even after all the sleep in the plane I was still sleepy. I think I could sleep for a week and still be tired. Ryan kept the same room system from London, so Cory and I still shared one.

As soon as I opened the door, I put my hand bag on the floor near one bed and laid down. I could hear Cory laugh.

"And I'm the old one in here." I pretended not to listen to him but he lied down beside me and held me around the waist. "You're going to sleep just like that? Without my goodnight kiss?" He pouted and I rolled my eyes. I pecked his lips.

"There. Goodnight." he laughed and pecked my forehead.

"Goodnight grumpy!" I could hear him unpacking, and going to the bathroom to shower. I was almost sleeping when I felt him lie down beside me and make himself comfortable. "Oh babe, if you just knew how much I love you." He said, obviously thinking I was sleeping. "Sometimes I feel a strong urge to snort cocaine to ease the pressure inside my head, but then I think of you. I can't afford to lose you, you're the best thing that ever happened to me and I know you don't commit to me because you're scared. And I also know that you're scared of my addiction and I understand you. But I promise I'm trying my best. I can't guarantee that I'll succeed though. Every day I'm not with you I count the minutes to see you, and when I see you I know my life gets so much better. I simply love you my cupcake." He said and I had to swallow hard not to cry. Cory is totally the perfect man for me, and cupcake? That's sweet! He gave me a nickname. I fell asleep thinking that getting a boyfriend wouldn't be so bad.

to be continued.