" I dream too much. To ever give a fuck 'bout anything and everything you care about, so I'll just sing. I sleep too much I can't leave my bed all the things I have to do I'd rather lay here for a few."

- Day Dreamer by Wild Child.

Chapter Two: Dreamer.

It's been a week since what happened at the Dojo.

I still feel the heavy feeling of guilt for doing what I did to Ymir, and I still don't know how to face her right now if I see her so I've managed to avoid her and pretty much everyone for that matter.

Save for my parents who pretty much have been cheaking in on me every other minute.

It started when I came back from the woods. I don't remember much just one minute I was staring at the newly destroyed tree, my body to numb to feel the pain in my hands, and the next I'm walking through the front door.

Mama ran to me sobbing bringing me into her arms but I just stood there. Papa was beside her within moments easing her away from me to look at my hands. I don't make out his words I was just staring right on ahead.

I'm pretty sure my eyes were almost lifeless and I know that scared them.

I go from standing by the front door to sitting on Papa's chair in his study. He was tending to my hands, that I still couldn't feel, part of me thought he would take me to the hospital and then have me locked up.

He's a doctor first and foremost though.

So another part of me knew he'd keep a close watch on me and eventually would want to know what was wrong, I'm sure Eren told him what happened with Ymir, but I know he knows that I've sparred a hundred times before and never reacted as I did.

I don't realize he was stitching up the gashes on my hands until I go to move and Mikasa stops me. I only know she was the one to do it because I, for a moment, noticed her scarf.

When Papa was finished he kisses me on my forehead. I don't respond though as I stood, Mikasa had let go of me arm by then, I left his study making my way to the stairs.

I was stopped twice.

Once by Mama who wraps me up into her arms as she told me she loves me and then by Eren who pretty much did the same.

After that I make it to the stairs where Annie is standing.

Awareness seeps into me then as our eyes meet. She's smirking at me an air of smugness around her. I didn't have the energy to be upset or show any emotion really so I just look at her. I guess it was unnerving because her smirk dropped and she looked away.

I didn't say anything as I turn to make my way upstairs and when I get to my room I didn't bother to shed from my clothes, I was still wearing my outfit from the Dojo, I just simply pull the covers back and then climb in.

I slept for the rest of the day, dreamless for once, and it last until I awake again.

Mama is sitting beside me on the bed with a wet cloth.

She mumbled a good morning and I went to speak but notice I couldn't.

My throat was still raw from the screaming I did in the woods so I nodded my head slowly. She smiled at me, sadly, as she leaned down to kiss me on the forehead. Papa walks in as she does and asked how his little patient was doing.

I wanted to glare at him but I couldn't and luckily Mama turned to scold him for a good minute before standing. She looked at me and told me that she was going to make me some soup that should help sooth my raw throat.

I managed to give her a faint smile as she turned to leave.

Papa walked closer to me then gently taking my hands to check on them.

I winced.

It hurt like a bitch.

He chuckles softly and mumbled his apology before he spoke up to tell me that it's good news. My hands hurting, he meant, because that means there isn't nerve damage.

I just nod my head as he got up. He told me that he'll be back with clean bandages and he has medicine that will help fight against infection that he wants me to take after I eat.

After that he made his exit.

I had sagged into my bed then feeling empty and alone. I glanced down at my hands as I lift them up pain shoot through me but I pushed through it.

I deserve this and more for what I did to Ymir.

I bit my lip in an attempt to keep the tears away so far it helped. I move my hands back down and turn my head. My mouth twitched into a smile when I see Mikasa's Black Bear next to me.

Tentively I reached for it ignoring the pain coursing throw my arm as I grip onto the bear and pull it to me. I tuck it into my arm as I laid my head back to close my eyes.

The sound of heavy foot steps caused me to open them moments later as I turn my head slightly to see Eren.

He looked almost sheepish as he gave me an apology asking if he woke me and I shook my head no causing him to relax. He asked me how I'm feeling and I shrug. He goes to ask me another question when Mikasa walks in holding a tray.

I swallow the lump in my throat as she tells Eren that Mama needed him. Once he's gone she sits beside me where Mama had sat. I can't quite make out her expression, but I notice the way her eyes linger on the bear.

For a moment I think she smiled but I push the thought away when she clears her throat. She tells me Mama had sent her up to feed me because she had an errand to run and also drop Annie off at her parents.

Part of me felt happy to hear that but I kept my face neutral and only sat up when Mikasa told me too. She goes to feed me but I stopped her.

I was feeling quite stubborn and tried to do it myself but I winced the moment I gripped the spoon so she took it from me.

And so she fed me. At first my throat rejected the soup I kept coughing it up as Mikasa rubbed my back. Once I calmed down she held a glass, with water in it, to my lips.

It was her silent way of telling me to drink so I did and it helped some for the most part. I was then ready to eat and by the time I finished the last spoonful Papa walked in with his medical bag. He told Mikasa to go ahead and take the tray back downstairs so he could work on my hands and give me my medicine.

She didn't move for a moment.

Just sitting there beside me until she nodded her head and before she moved I felt a light pressure on the side of my head.

Warmth spread through me as heat flooded my cheeks when she pulled away causing Papa to chuckle as she got up, grabbed the tray and went on her way.

He worked quickly choosing not to talk and then he pulled out a syringe.

He didn't say anything at first just poked me in the arm with the needle only to say it would help fight the infection like he mentioned earlier and told me to sleep tight.

Before everything went completely black I could have swore I saw Mikasa in the hallway beside my door as Papa walked out.

But I told myself that was wishful thinking.

x

I did manage to make it to school on Monday.

I heard Connie and Armin call out to me but I manage to slip past them and found a lot of hiding spots as I also made sure to avoid Jean, Christa and Ymir.

Everyone else avoided me though because of my hands. A ton of stories surfaced because of that.

I'm personal favorite was killing three men and eating one of their hearts, nuts right?

Anyways it's Saturday now so I've managed to not see face Ymir.

She must hate me I know I would have if someone did what I did to her.

My voice came back yesterday but I haven't used it. I don't feel the need to because I feel like I'd spill everything if I did.

Luckily for me Mama had managed to get me to leave my room for awhile. I was the only one of her children home because Eren went to see Armin and Mikasa was invited to see Annie's family. Mama thought it wasn't nice for me to sit around doing nothing while the other two went off to do something so she gave me some money.

Which brings me to sitting on my bike getting ready to leave.

"You got everything," Mama asked as she handed me my helmet, "or did you forget something dear?"

I shook my head taking my helmet with a smile which made her sigh.

"I wish you would talk dear I happen to miss your voice."

I bit my lip feeling guilty but kept my mouth shut as she leaned forward kissing my temple.

"It's alright dear just take your time and heal," she smiles softly as she goes to open the garage, "text me to let me know where you are and be back by supper."

I give her the thumbs up as I put on my helmet finally smiling when I see her nod her head.

"I love you sweetheart," she says as she walks to the door leading to the garage, "don't forget that."

I wanted to say something back but I focus my attention towards the drive way as I turn on my bike. She's walks inside before I speed out but I think she knows that I love her too.

Normally I'd head to the Lockhart Dojo to goof off and spar with Jean and Ymir, but that's out of the question right now and since Christa is Ymir's girlfriend I can't drop by to see her.

I'd go see Armin but she is preoccupied with Eren so I best not go disturb their time. Connie is working right now and I hadn't seen him in a week due to avoiding everyone so I think it's best I go see him since I'm also craving coffee.

After a few stops I'm Trost bond.

Trost itself isn't a megacity or anything but it's flourishing in size. Not many people were born here though save for Jean, Eren and one of the Juniors Thomas so I'd say once it was established people moved in and then out.

I've seen a lot of people come and go. Those who stay do so because they have work or their family was from here when it was first settled.

Most people don't think that though due to it's impressive size.

It practically keeps growing really the coffee shop I'm heading to, Titans Fall, was just built last year and Connie was one of the first to jump ship and work there.

Life here isn't bad though with the steady flow of new life always coming in. The police aren't overly crooked and crime is normally dealt with.

x

By the time I get there I notice it's not crowded and for that I'm highly grateful because normally it's packed and there is this hellish line that makes you hate going there until you taste their coffee and then boom it makes sense.

Well to me it does.

After I park I take off my helmet shaking my hair out. I hear catcalls and whistles but I choose to ignore them as I hop off my bike grabbing my keys and putting them in my bag.

"Hey," a deep voice says from behind me, "my buddies and I noticed your sick ass bike and your smokin' body I was wondering if you might want to give me a ride?"

I clench my fists, which were still bandaged, as I turn to look at the man. He looked like he was in his early twenties and had an air of arrogance about him. I look past him to notice his friends, there were three of them around the same age group, they were all snickering as he cleared his throat causing me to shift my focus back on him.

"Ya know," he says with a smile, "it's rude to ignore a question like that."

I roll my eyes adjusting my weight as I notice the way he shifts his body as his friends walk closer.

"So whaddya say," he smirks as he takes a step towards me with his friends not to far behind him, "wanna give me a ride?"

"I don't think she's interested," a light voice says behind me, "so take your friends and be gone with you."

I turn my head and my eyes lock with these grey irises almost similar to that of Mikasa. This girl regards me for a moment before looking back at the guys in front of me.

"Oh yeah," the guy chuckles, which made me look back at him, as he crosses his arms, "and what are you going to do about it if I don't girly?"

"I don't think you want to know," a second light voice adds from behind me, "she packs a good punch."

"And if you can't take her and have your friends jump in I'll end them," a third and deeper voice added with a chuckle, "I'd like to see them try and take me."

"So what do you say," the girl with the grey eyes asked with a smirk, "leave with your dignity and bodies intact or stay and be forced to leave in pieces your call."

One of the guys in the back taps his shoulder tilting his signalling for him to give up and leave or so I'm assuming.

He stands there for a moment before sighing.

"Fine it's not like we can't take you but whatever she's ugly anyways."

I glare at him as he and his friends leave snickering.

Says the guys who wanted me to give him a "ride" jerk.

"Well that's disappointing," the guy chuckles, "and to think I was looking forward to busting heads."

A smack caused me to look back and nearly double over as I see who owned the second light voice.

She's only a few inches taller than that of Annie maybe five foot two or five foot three. She's quite beautiful and if her hair was blonde I'd almost mistaken her for a taller Christa. Her hair is a light shade of honey stopping just above her shoulders and once she looks at me I notice her eyes have almost the same honey hue or a shade darker. She gives me a smile as the guy beside her rubs his arm.

"I'm sorry about him," she says earnestly, "I honestly can't tell you why I put up with him."

"Hey," the guys whines out as he looks at me, "don't listen to her she's the one who agreed to spend the rest of her life with me."

My eyes widen at them not knowing what to say which causes the grey eyed girl beside me to sigh.

"I'm sorry about them," she began taking my attention away from the couple, "it's quite rude to act familiar with a stranger without giving your name," she quips at the two beside her before refocusing on me, "I'm Levi," she points at the honey hair girl, "that's Petra and the big blond idiot is her fiancé Nanabu."

"Hey," the guy, Nanabu, scowls almost like Ymir does, "I'm not an idiot Lev so be nice you little shit."

I take Nanabu's appearance in as he and Levi begin to bicker. He's tall standing about six foot two and nicely built with short blond hair that is shaved in the back. Since the grey eyed girl is beside me I can make out his eyes. They're a sea colored blue.

All in all is that he's quite handsome.

What takes me by surprise though is the jagged scar on his right cheek leading down to his neck line in his shirt.

I advert my gaze though to look at the grey eyed girl only to notice that she's short. Well she's taller than Petra by an inch but still considerably short compared to me. Her hair is black stopping at the middle of her back, but it's shaved at the side near her ear. I think it suits her and my heart does this weird flutter because she reminds me of a shorter, voiceful by the way she is still bickering with Nanabu, version of Mikasa.

"I'm sorry they're normally well mannered in public," Petra says startling me which causes her to chuckle, "sorry about that."

"It's fine," I tell her which got the other two's attention.

"So you really can speak," Levi smiles as she looks at me.

"And here I thought you were a mute," Nanabu scoffs, "totally ruined my hero thang."

"Nanabu," Petra warned glaring at him, "behave."

The blond sighs as he looks at the honey brunette pleadingly, "but babe."

"No."

"Fine."

"Yeah we should get going," Levi huffs out as she crosses her arms, "they'll be like this for the rest of the day."

I nod my head not knowing what to say as Levi walks over to Nanabu and Petra pushing them in the direction they came from. Before they walk out of sight Levi looks back and waves at me with a smile.

I wave back and realize I never gave them my name.

Once they're gone the weird fluttering in my chest stops. I don't try to analyze what that means as I walk to the store's entrance.

Connie looks up at me as the bell above the door rings. He frowns and looks down at the counter going back to cleaning it.

Ouch.

I guess he's mad at me too.

I ignore the flight feeling as I walk over to the counter. I clear my throat wincing at the feeling it gives me as I say the only thing that comes to mind.

"Hey Connie."

He snaps his gaze from the counter and locks his eyes with mine. He's glaring as a scowl plays at his features.

"How can I help you," he says stiffly as he forces a smile.

"Connie," I plead, "don't be like that."

"Don't be like what," he shoots out fiery, "you ignored me for a week and then have the audacity to show up to where I work just to say 'Hey Connie'," he air quotes before scowling again, "what's your deal Sasha?"

"I actually came to get the usual and to see how my friend is doing," the evenness in my tone startles me as much as it does him so I deflate, "I also wanted to tell you why."

"Fine," he sighs as he looks at me, "you look like shit by the way," he cracks this grin before looking down at my bandaged hands that I placed on the counter, "my break is about to happen so take a seat and I'll bring you that disgusting iced drink of yours."

I roll my eyes as I nod my head.

That's Connie for you.

I leave the counter as he begins to work his magic on making my iced vanilla caramel latte with a splash of cinnamon and chocolate.

It's actually pretty amazing so don't judge.

I take a seat down in the booth next to the window near the door and smile faintly when Connie takes a seat in the seat across from mine three minutes later sliding my drink over to me.

"Alright spill."

I take a drink, smiling contently, before looking back at his yellowish green orbs. He's arching his brow at me expectantly so I sigh.

"If I must," I frown and proceed to tell him everything, except my feelings for Mikasa and skimmed over why I spazzed out on Ymir.

Once I finish he whistles.

"Well no shit," he hums, "that's why you've been on the evasive lately."

"Pretty much."

"Look Sas," he says finally as he stands, "I'm glad you told me but you can't go avoiding the others like the plague."

"Con -"

"Don't Cone me," he smiles as he takes a step back, "you, Jean and Ymir are like the three musketeers and it's weird to avoid them I know you feel remorseful for giving Ymir one hell of a black eye because look at your hands," he points, "that's proof enough so just swallow that pride of yours and go see her."

I just nod my head as I stand leaving my half drank coffee on the table causing him to sigh.

"Sas -"

"I'll think about it okay?"

"That's all I can ask for," he sighs and then smiles at me, "it'd be great to have the gang back together anyways 'cause we're all gonna be graduating soon."

"Yeah," I say conjuring a small smile as he turns around to head back to the counter as I head to the door ,"Later Baldy," I say without looking back opening the door to leave.

I smile when I hear him laugh as he yells, "Bye 'Tato."

I put my helmet on as I hop on my bike.

I feel almost lighter after talking to Connie, the guilt is still there yeah, and that feeling I got when Levi spoke made my heart flutter painfully but again I push it away.

I'll have to think about this later and I doubt I'll ever see her again which makes me feel guilty for a whole different reason, but I'm not sure why.

Before I take off I feel a buzzing which nearly makes me jump until I realize it's my phone. I fish it out of my purse and slide my finger across it's screen.

My heart is hammering in my chest.

I have fifteen missed calls and thirty new text messages.

I open the current one gulping.

Sasha, mother is worried answer her calls and text.

- Mikasa.

Well that was nicer than I expected.

I hurry and send Mama a text message telling her where I was and that I'd be home soon. After that I put my phone away and leave.

x

By the time I get home I earn one of those rare lectures from Mama and then she hugs me. I don't feel ready to talk yet so I just hug her back.

It's horrible of me I know but I need to sort things out.

I've got nothing but time to anyways.

So what's the worse that can happen?

Author's notes: And chapter two is done ~

Well I feel like Petra, Nana(bu) and Levi were all a little to OOC, and for that I'm sorry. Truth be told I think I'm writing them all a little OOC and if any of you know their personalities well enough could you help point me in the right direction?

As for Sasha as the story progresses you'll understand her overwhelming emotions. Since this is the second chapter I can't bring much to light to early.

By at least chapter four we'll have a reunion with Ymir and you'll see if their friendship will last or not.

I'm kidding they'll make up! Haha, best friends fight and make up.

I won't reveal anymore than what I have and hopefully it will keep getting better.

Anyways I don't own anything and that's that.

Love Cap'n Lynn.

P.s I still make mistakes from time to time but I do try to correct them.