"Don't be afraid to be confused. Try to remain permanently confused. Anything is possible. Stay open, forever, so open it hurts, and then open up some more, until the day you die, world without end, amen."

- George Saunders

Chapter Six: Confusion

I'm awake at god knows how early on a Saturday morning.

Why?

Because strong arms are wrapped around my waist and something rather hard is poking me in the back.

I suck in a deep breath when I feel the owner of said strong arms accidentally dry humps into my back – again - and I flip over, untangling those arms from my body, no longer in the mood to be subjected to Ymir's sleeping cuddles.

"Hey Freck Face," I say hoarsely due to not using my voice, "I thought you didn't like me like that!"

Ymir snaps her eyes open instantly and in one swift motion falls off her bed and onto the floor. I slide to her side of the bed flicking her lamp on that was sitting on the nightstand as a slur of lazy curse words leave her lips and a groan as she looks up at me in a daze – though that does not stop her glare.

"What the fuck was that for," she growls until I point to her crotch causing her to look down and then back up at me covering herself, "for fucks sake Sasha it's not like you haven't seen it before and why did you disturb me from my dream it was getting pretty heavy!"

"Because I will not be your humping toy," I say offhandedly before looking over at her alarm clock only to wince, "and it's only three in the morning – oops."

"I was not using you as a humping to – "

"Did too," I chuckle before shaking my head, "I'm sorry I woke you up so early but you were practically shoving yourself into my back so I've learned my lesson I'll knock next time."

"Whatever," she blushes awkwardly as she stands, "I'll take a quick shower and then I'll put a pillow between us that way no more of well that."

"Okay," I say before I roll my eyes, "don't worry about it but before you go what was wrong with Christa?"

"Whaddya mean," she asks squinting at me.

"I mean she was pretty aggressive with you," I say lightly as I stretch a little feeling awake, " and do you know anyone by the name Petra?"

Ymir is shakes her head before sighing and rubs the back of her neck.

"Yeah well uhm she's been wanting it more than usual lately," there is hesitance in Ymir's voice and I see the way her eyes downcast before looking back up at me, "and Petra is her cousin – why?"

"I ah," I feel the heat in my cheeks as I blush recalling what I heard yesterday before shaking my head, "I guess I didn't connect the dots all to well I mean Levi said something about Petra visiting her cousin yesterday and I overheard Petra mentioning visiting Christa but uh I didn't know."

"Why are you blushing – don't tell me you like Petra as well because I'm sure Nanabu will kill you," Ymir smirked at me as she quriked her brow.

"W-what," I stammer before laughing, "gods no I don't like Petra that way at all she is sweet, uh looking yes but she reminds me to much of Christa and don't get me wrong," I start to wave my hands as Ymir glares at me, "they're both beautiful just not my type."

"I know," she smirks before looking down, "I really need a shower 'Tato so I'll be back."

"Kay," I yawn as she turns on her heels to walk to her bathroom – before she opens her door I stop her, "'Mir have you and Christa actually done it?"

"What," she turns around so quick I'm afraid she may have whiplashed her brain, but she just shakes her head and looks dead at me, "what makes you say that – I mean didn't you walk in on us yesterday?"

"You hesitated when mentioning it earlier," I pointed out with another yawn, "and you were clothed yesterday so you can tell me the truth without feeling like I'll laugh at you – I'm not Jean."

She bites her bottom lip for a moment before shaking her head looking at me warily, "you really are a boner killer – I'll uh or we'll talk after I wash up 'kay?"

"I'll be here," I hum out as I reach for my phone – I hear the door click shut, indicating that she went into the bathroom, as I slide my finger against the screen, luckily I changed the screen setting so the light isn't so unbearable.

5 new messages.

"Well this is new,"I hum out as I tap on the messages and blink a few good times to make sure I'm reading the names right.

"Two from Cone head, one from Christa, one from Levi...and one from Mikasa?"

I open Connie's first and cringe at the image before me – there naked as the day he was born stood Connie flexing his muscles with a bright unyielding smile – I flick my eyes down to hastily read the message

Was this what you were hinting at beautiful?

received at 9:46 p.m

oh fuck Sasha I'm sorry pls don't hate me I meant that for someone else!

received at 9:48 p.m

- Connie

I back out of that message quick and then delete it before opening up a blank message typing furiously.

Honestly Connie what the fuck man that burnt my eyes! Also you need to hit the gym more because you look like you've been slacking and I figured it wasn't for me because I'm definitely not beautiful...so yeah but thanks I don't need to question my sexuality now! Because I'm for sure hella gay.

I smile as I hit send and then shake my head as I click on the message Christa sent me.

Hey Sasha! Ymir told me you were spending the night so feel free to keep her in check! Also please tell her to call me in the morning because I want to discuss somethings with her about our date plans for next week – please and thank you!

- Christa

I chuckle lightly when I tap the screen to reply.

Ymir is always on her best behavior though she has a habit of humping animate objects or anything within reach, haha, but other than that nothing bad I'll have her call you in the morning I promise or now if you're awake – if not please don't kill me I didn't mean to wake you oh gods it's early!

I hit send smiling at how dramatic I can be and hope that Christa knows that Ymir and I haven't done anything because no – not going to happen.

I then click on Levi's message – smile intact at the previous one that I sent Christa – and stare at it a good long moment.

That's fine I'm free on Monday so I cannot wait to see you again, and will we be at Titan Fall or would you like to try something else? At any rate I'm sure you're sleeping so I hope you have been granted the sweetest of dreams.

- Levi

I smile as I exit out of her text I don't feel like messaging her this late so I look at Mikasa's name. There is a little icon near it showing that it's a picture message so hesitantly I open it.

I wish I hadn't.

Swallowing thickly I gaze at the image of Mikasa laying on her side on – what I'm guessing – is Annie's bed. Her lower half is covered by the thin material of what looks like a sheet and the rest is bare. I know I shouldn't be – but my eyes map out her sculpted abs drifting further up I see her breast barely covered by her scarf – it doesn't stop my mouth from going dry and my heart from hammering a mile a minute – but I end up swallowing, painfully mind you, yet again trying to regulate my breathing as I notice her face.

She's sleeping and clutched within her scarf is the fox I had traded her.

I don't try to process what that means though as I scroll down to read the message attached to it.

I'm the one who gets to see this whenever I see fit. Such a shame that she's your sister, isn't it?

Mikasa

I feel sick to my stomach and exit out of the message as quickly as possibly. Just by looking at the picture I knew right away who sent it to me. Tears threaten to seep out of the corner of my eyes as I clench my chest.

"Fuck," my mind is reeling with that image and my heart hasn't stopped a moment since, "fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck."

This isn't fair this isn't want I wanted – was she punishing me – how does she know to begin with? Am I that obvious? I – but why – I just don't understand.

I don't have time to think about it – to die in my misery – when Ymir's bathroom door swings open and she sighs contentedly causing me to look up at her.

"What's wrong now," she grunts as she drops the towel she used for her hair onto the floor, "somebody die?"

"I uh," I stammer placing my phone down, "I saw a nude of Connie."

Ymir stares at me a moment before her face cracks into a grin.

"You're kidding right?"

" 'fraid not," I let out a shake-y laugh as I look at her, "he even messaged me saying he meant that for someone else."

"No shit," she muses as she pushes me aside to sit on her bed only to look at me, "so how big our we talking here?"

"What," I ask as I scrunch up my facing as I look at her, "I just told you baldy sent me a nude and automatically you ask me how big is he?"

"Oi," she snorts, "it's not like I'm interested I just want to see who is bigger," she wiggles her brow, "I've got Jean beat and I'm also bigger than Reiner."

"I so do not want to know how you know that," I groan out as I put my phone on the nightstand beside me trying to ignore my feelings as I pull my knees to my chest looking down at the unmade bed we sat on, "and for the record you are you dork," I smile – forcefully for a moment – before I look at her, "this doesn't excuse our little chat about you and Christa – who by the way texted me to tell me to keep you in check and to remind you to call her later today."

"Wait so I'm bigger than that bald midget," she smiles and I swear I can feel the pride radiate off of her.

"After everything I just said you're focused on that," I end up hitting her in the arm, "you're an idiot."

"Whatever," she grumbles out tiredly before bringing her own knees to her chest, "and we haven't really done much beside me giving her oral and using my fingers but when it comes to me using – " she pauses biting her bottom lip before shaking her head visibly looking upset, "I mean I can please her with my tongue and fingers just fine, but lately she has been wanting all of me – and I'm fucking scared Sasha," she is looking at me now with unshed tears – sun kissed cheeks rosy due to the heat in them, "I mean I have two dads for fucks sake but what good is that when they know next to nothing on pleasing a woman or how they could guide me through it – how am I suppose to please my girlfriend with this meaty flesh between my thighs – I just don't fucking understand!"

For a good long moment I look at her – Ymir is no longer the sarcastic, devilishly charming young woman that I've come to know – in this moment she reminds me that she's a kid – that we're only kids. I begin to feel guilty I only brought up the subject to keep myself occupied from my own feelings that I forgot that Ymir feels too – that she is a scared teenager just like me.

I do the only thing I could think of – I pull her close to me and hug her. There is resistance on her part – she is thrashing, flailing her arms about hitting me where ever she can and she even bit me in the shoulder – I ignore it though even if the bite hurts I just pull her closer.

"You're an idiot," I huff out – more so to myself then to her – which calms her enough to detach her teeth from my shoulder and to grip on my shirt burrowing her face into my neck.

I feel the tall tale signs of tears on the front of my shirt as she sobs – my guess is she has been feeling this way for awhile now – so I just hum softly stroking her back as we sit there in her lamp lit room.

I'm not sure how long we last like this, but Ymir finally settles.

"I'm sorry 'Tato," she mumbles hoarsely as she lets go of my shirt, "I didn't mean to ruin your shirt."

"It's fine," I smile before wincing as I move my arms away from her, "you really do like to bite though."

"You grabbed me when I was upset," she pointed out with a glare before deflating instantly, "and you were trying to help I'm so sor – "

"No," I chuckle out shaking my head at her, "it's fine I mean I'm the one who brought it up and obviously it has been eating at you for a while right – so no biggie and besides," I pause to let out a breath as I took her hand in mine looking dead into her eyes, "if you're serious about Christa then tell her instead of freaking yourself out about it – I mean she is your girlfriend and she adores you so I know she will understand."

"You think so," she muses – rather dumbly I may add – as she smiles slightly before turning her head to look at her nightstand, "shit Sas it's almost six in the morning and we hardly slept a wink!"

"And we would have slept just fine if you hadn't used me as your humping toy," I jab as I poke her in the side – causing her to jump – as I yawn out tiredly, "how about we try to sleep some more now I could use it."

"Sure," Ymir yawns out just as tiredly, "I won't try to use you as my humping toy this time boner killer."

I roll my eyes as she turns off her light and we both lay down on her bed – Ymir pulls the covers back on us and I begin to feel my eye lids droop. For extra measure Ymir places a pillow between us as she throws her arms lazily across my waist pulling me close to her – which causes me to crane my neck slightly to look at her.

"What," she huffs out, "it's just in case I might do it again don't flatter yourself Spud – and besides I like cuddling."

I shake my head with a smile as I lay my head back down. Before I let sleep overcome me I move my hand to intertwine my fingers with Ymir's and with a faint squeeze I finally drift away – with thoughts of Mikasa plaguing me in my dreams.

X

The next time I awake is not to the awkward feeling of Ymir pressing herself into my back – luckily the pillow is still between us despite her tight hold on me – no this time I am being woke up by the loud unyielding hum of my phone vibrating on the nightstand.

Groggily I untie my fingers from Ymir's and go to move grabbing the angry sounding device – sliding my finger across it with utmost annoyance and with a groan I push the device near my ear.

"SASHA," the loud voice of Eren shouts from the other end.

"What," I hiss out as I move to sit upright.

"Don't give me any of that shit and get ready because I'll be there in twenty minutes."

What?

"Why," I groan out as I shift my gaze to Ymir – surprised and grateful to see that she is still sleeping – as I shift my gaze from here to see that it's now eleven in the morning, "I thought I wouldn't be going home until one or two."

"Well, thank mom and dad because they will be going to Dauper and they have asked me to go with them hence why I'm picking you up in now eighteen minutes."

"But why would they be going to Dauper," I ask as a shiver runs down my spine, "and how long will you guys be gone and why can't just stay here?"

"Because Potato Brain dad wants you here for your session tomorrow morning – that you decided to have after breakfast mind you and we'll be gone until Sunday morning – if you're worried about being alone don't worry about it Mikasa will be there."

I feel my throat tightens and my face reddens as I recall the picture Annie sent me – taunting me – and all at once I go to speak but before I can utter a single word of protest Eren has already hit end call leaving me sitting there on Ymir's bed – mouth slightly hung open and heart hammering painfully – I press my thighs together in shame at the acute feeling of wetness as I bite my trembling lip.

Somehow I manage to climb out of Ymir's bed without any trouble, and in a haste I discard my pajamas throwing them in my bag all the while pulling on a wore out band tee and short shorts. I do a double check before I pull a piece of paper out of my bag and walk over to Ymir's nightstand as I find a pen near her lamp.

Frecks,

Don't forget to call Chris after you wake up and talk to her about what you said to me before we passed out again. She adores you just as much as you adore her so don't freak out okay?

I love you Frecks and I know you can do this.

I then scribble a monster on the note before with a small hum I shift her one last look.

"Later Freckles," I whisper as I make my trek to her door and then slide out of her room without making a sound.

I don't run into anyone as I make my way out of the house – disappointed as I open the front door but force a smile as I see Eren with Mikasa.

"Shit," I wasn't expecting to see her so I bite the inside of my cheeks and keep my focus solely on Eren as he glares at me.

"Well are you going to stand there and cause us to be late or what?"

"Can it," I grunt out as I walk to the car – I don't have the nerve or the heart to look at Mikasa much less talk to her so I simply slip into the back without saying anything else.

Seconds later they both climb in and exchange looks, but I preoccupy myself by looking at my phone. I remember Levi had texted me so I click open the message and nearly jump out of my seat when I hear Mikasa's voice address itself to me.

"Good morning Sasha," she sounds chipper – or close to it in that soft voice of hers.

"I wonder why" I grit my teeth before exhaling a breath as I look up from phone to peer into her gray irises as she turned in her seat to look at me.

"Morning," I drawl out hoarsely as my throat dries yet again – I feel a tingling sensation in my gut as I flick my gaze back to my phone screen.

"Are you alright," she asks softly as Eren – for once – drives like a mad man to get home.

"Yes," I grunt out as I begin to type trying my hardest to ignore the image of her naked in my mind. I go to focus on Levi – focus on the message I'm typing to her.

Hey! Good morning I slept fine and had decent dreams. I hope you did as well too! Anyways Titans Fall is fine. :D Also you never did tell me about your date plans...can't wait to hear what you have in store.

"Sasha did you even get any sleep," Eren asked loudly as he runs a stop sign, "and you look like shit by the way."

"How sweet of you Eren who knew that you cared," I fire back not in the mood for his pissy attitude.

"Hey," he shouts out as we turn on the road leading to home, "I do care – you didn't look like that yesterday after we left."

"Ymir had a nightmare," the flatness in my tone is new – nothing I've used before – and it startles both occupants in the car, "so excuse me for looking like shit just hurry up and get us home I'll be in my room anyways."

"Whatever," Eren grumbles and leaves it at that.

But it doesn't stop the way Mikasa looks at me with sadness – along with confusion – clouding over her eyes.

Or the guilt to tighten it's hold on me.

X

Once we make it home – and after Mikasa climbs out – I hurry out of Eren's car and nearly fly up the stairs ignoring everything shutting my door behind me as I make it into my room dropping my bag on the floor and discard my clothes.

I need a shower – and maybe even a new life.

I don't bother grabbing clothes from my dresser – simply walking in my bathroom leaving the door open since the one to my room is shut.

I open the glass door – goosebumps rising on my skin at how cold my bathroom feels and sigh happily when the steam rises up from the hot water falling from the shower head – I step in welcoming the water as it caresses my skin – I can't stop the hum bubbling in my throat as I scrub away last night.

I gasp at the jolt goes through me however as I go to rub soap in my nether region.

Gulping slightly I drop my wash cloth – sliding my index finger softly through the flaps of my lips and - "Oh fuck," the sensation is almost overwhelming – just a simple stroke against my clit and I feel hot – mildly confused – and aching.

Although the aching has been there – I've been aware of it the moment I saw Mikasa naked – naked and sleeping.

I gasp again as I wrench my hand away from myself.

"What the fuck am I thinking?" I groan as I turn the cold water on – nearly yelping at the harshness of it but thankful that it's distracting enough to dull the aching into non existence.

I wash quickly – shivering all the way – and finally a few minutes later I am done and with a sigh I step out of the shower – dripping wet and freezing.

Luckily I have a clean towel folded on my shelf near the toilet so I grab it – drying my hair first before drying the rest of myself – and then wrap it around me.

I don't bother with my hair as I grab a hair tie and as I step out of my bathroom I stop – looking up mortified – to see Mikasa standing there wide eyed and red face as my towel drops from my body.

"Are the gods punishing me," I want to cry as she quickly turns around on her heels causing me to scramble and grab my towel to cover my front.

"I was going to tell you that mother, father and Eren left – I uh – ," she pauses my guess is she is composing herself as she cleared her throat, " I didn't mean to barge in I assumed you went to sleep I'll – I'll be going now."

I nod my head – even though she hasn't looked back after she saw me nude – as she steps out of my room.

I stand there for a good long minute until I drop the towel, willing this time, and throw on a sports bra, panties – and then a black novelty tee shirt with I heart Zombies on it and short shorts. I then slip on my socks and boots with one thought in mind.

"I need to shoot something," or rather I need to unleash an array of arrows on a helpless dummy.

I slide out of my window fearing that I may run into Mikasa by accident and jump off the roof – landing just fine – as I do a quick jog to the shed. Thankfully it hasn't been disturbed and that I left my bow in there because I don't feel like going back to the house just yet.

After I have everything I need I make the short walk to the training/shooting range.

I steady myself as I pull out an arrow and ready it as I pull back the string.

"One, two, thre – now!"

I let go sending the arrow soaring – moments later is sticks the bullseye and I smile dumbly as I ready myself another.

For the remainder of that afternoon I stand there firing shot for shot.

No thoughts cloud my mind as I do.

X

It's about seven o'clock when I decide to head inside – after retrieving all the arrows I used – and I'm exhausted despite the fact that the sun is still up.

When I walk inside I notice how quiet the house is and remember that I home alone – even though Mikasa is here.

I make my way to the kitchen and I'm however surprised to see Mikasa standing by the stove trying to save whatever she had boiling in the pot.

"Need any help," I ask – which causes her to crane her neck at me with her ever neutral face though I do see a faint smile and maybe even a faint blush, but it could be from me being outside all afternoon or whatever.

"I believe I have it but thank you – take a seat at the table I'm almost done."

I nod my head and do as she asks as she refocuses on the pot. It doesn't take long for her to bring it over and start filling the bowls that she has out.

"I hope you don't mind potato and beef stew," she asks as she fills my bowl and hands it to me.

Before I can say anything I'm hit with a powerful aroma that causes my mouth to water and I take it from her uttering a quick thank you as I grab my spoon and start to scarf down on it only to nearly choke.

"Slow down, "she warns me as she hands me a glass of cold iced tea, "there is fresh rolls too I figured you worked up an appetite."

I nod my head as I start to drink the tea – soothing my throat – as I reach for a freshly warm and soft roll squishing it and dipping it into the stew before popping it into my mouth – faintly moaning at the taste.

"You still eat like that," Mikasa chuckled softly, rocking her shoulders as she does, causing me to lift my eyes up from my bowl to see her calmly eating hers.

"Like what," I ask dumbly after I swallow what I've chewed.

"Like someone is going to take it from you," she sighs out before looking directly at me, "you know nobody is going to right?"

"That hasn't stopped you from taking my rolls before," I tease out recalling our childhood – as I deflect answering her question.

"That's because you would take my potatoes, "she muses with an eye roll before taking a sip of her drink, "how do you like the stew?"

"It's delicious," I answer earnestly as I look down and realize it's almost gone, "am I allowed to get more?"

"Yes," she chuckles while shaking her head, "I'm glad I made enough for five people seeming as you have more than one stomach."

"Hey I only have one stomach," I gasp out faking mock hurt as I scoop up stew from the pot and dump it into my bowl, "it's not my fault that I'm a growing young woman with a hearty appetite!"

Mikasa laughs – literally laughs rich and full – and it causes my heart to swell more than three sizes as I look at her. She covers her mouth with her hand as she looks at me amused.

"Hey don't make fun of me," I pout, possibly looking like a puppy, at her.

"I'm sorry," her laughter dies down – her cheeks are flushed – as she smiles softly at me, "why don't you finish up so we can clean the kitchen – and watch a movie – if you'd like?"

I nod vigorously as I begin to scarf down on my second bowl of stew – it was not as hot as the last one – so I finish with ease.

After I'm done I go to get up but sit back down.

"Augh," I groan, "I ate to fast."

"I told you," Mikasa cooed out softly as she stands – grabbing her bowl with one hand – and poking my cheek with the other as she walks by, "I'll wash everything up why don't you go lounge in the living room and pick a movie."

"Okay," I sigh as I push myself up again, "what do you want to watch?"

"Anything is fine with me," she murmurs as she begins to clean the kitchen.

I don't say anything as exit and sluggishly walk into the living room and go to scan our movie shelf. Since she said anything I start to narrow things down. I'm not in the mood for Romance or even Comedy so I skip over that. Classical movies put me to sleep and so do Musicals; Action seems fine but then again as I glance down at my tee shirt I smile.

"Horror it is," I muse as I go to grab a zombie flick and pop it in the Blu Ray player.

X

It took Mikasa about twenty minutes to clean the kitchen – which was fine with me as I curl up on one side of the couch – when she comes in the menu for the movie is on.

"Dawn of the Dead," she asks as she sits on the other side of the couch – away from me.

"Yeah," I smile at her as I retrieve the remote from the table, "I'm in a mood for it."

"Horror movies scare you" she points out as I hit play.

"I'll be fine," I wave her off as I transfix my gaze on the screen.

"Are you sure you wan – "

"Shh," I shush her as the beginning of the movie starts, "I'll be okay the movie is starting," I whisper keeping my focus on the screen.

As soon as we get to the part with the little girl I flinch inwardly – keeping my composer as I watch her bite the dudes neck.

"What the hell was I thinking," I wince as the nurse woman tries to break out of her bathroom window – and I jump when I feel an arm wrap around my waist as Mikasa pulls me closer to her.

"Really Sasha," she lightly laughs as her arm moves with me, "we're only in the first part of the movie I thought you said you would be fine."

"Hush your face," I grumble as I keep my focus on the movie fearing that my heart would fall in her lap if I turn to look at her, "just keep holding me until it's over please."

"Okay," she says softly as she – I assume – focuses on the movie as well.

I shift closer to her as the movie progresses – jumping whenever someone gets killed or hiding my face into her shoulder when my favorite character almost gets ate by some zombie that got close to them.

I'm thankful to be held as we near the climax of the movie because holy hell that's a lot of zombie!

I jump right out of her hold though when I feel something vibrate.

"It's my phone," she chuckles as she digs the device out of her pocket and sighs, "I'll be right back – pause the movie if you like to we can finish it in a few moments."

"Kay, " I stammer as my lip quivers – she doesn't notice though because she ups and leaves the living room.

I curl into myself on the couch as I finish watching the movie – doubtful that she will return anytime soon.

By the time the end credits roll up I shut everything off and head up stairs. A part of me upset that she didn't come back and frightful because that movie freaked me out – and another part of me knew I mean I think I know who called her so it's better to hold my tongue.

I'm tired anyways so I think I'll just go to bed.

I kick off my boots the moment I step into my room – discarding my shirt and shorts as I pull out a clean sports bra and basketball shorts from my dresser.

Once dressed I go to the bathroom – I have to pee – flush, wash my hands and then brush my teeth since I'm already in there.

Afterwards I exit feeling refresh and climb into bed.

Sleep claims me the moment I put my head down.

X

I'm not sure about the time – or how long I've been sleeping, but I jolt awake after a really intense dream.

Bits and pieces of distorted images that I've always seen since the first time it happened. I swallow thickly as I go to move, but notice that an arm is wrapped around my waist an a hand touches my shoulder.

"I DON'T HAVE ANY MONEY," I shriek as I start to thrash in my bed only to stop when the owner of the arm and hand speaks.

"Sasha it's only me," Mikasa grunts out tonelessly as I still and then softens as she speaks to me again, "you were having a bad dream so I climbed in bed with you – that was an hour ago you wouldn't wake up the first time I called you so I've been laying here with you I didn't mean to scare you."

"Oh," I rasp out as I deflate, "you were holding me?"

"Yes I have been," she answers, "you also went to bed without saying goodnight."

"You were on the phone," I point out feeling a mixture of emotions as I shrug off her hand, "and I finished the movie – you were still on the phone so I came up here and went to sleep."

"I'm sorry Annie called me," she sighed.

"I knew it," I feel my heart sink into my stomach

"I figured," I'm feeling tired – and I'm not sure how I sound to her – but I force a smile despite the fact that my room is only illuminated by the moon so I doubt she sees me, "can you hand me the black bear please?"

She doesn't answer me as the bed shifts a few times and then the stuffed animal is placed on my lap softly.

"Thank you," I sigh as I pick up the animal – bring it to my chest and turn away from her facing my door as I lay on my side.

That was my signal for her to leave.

The bed shifts – and I close my eyes waiting for my door to open and close as she exits, but that never happens. Instead she lays down beside me pulling the covers over us better – and tentatively she wraps her arm around my waist pulling me closer to her.

"What are you doing," I grumble out as I open eyes slightly – to tired to fight her and to tired to over think anything.

"Just in case you have another nightmare," she answers out as her voice drops a few notes – and her breathing starts to even out, "let's get some sleep we're still hours away from sunrise."

I don't say anything as she pulls me even closer – and by the way her chest rises and falls I start to drift away almost as if it were lulling me to sleep.

I push aside everything in my mind – everything that had to do with yesterday and bits and pieces of today – as my eye lids close once more.

But before sleep stakes it's claim on me Mikasa speaks – faintly.

"Goodnight – I love you, Sasha."

I pretend to already be asleep as I nestle even closer to her smiling as I feel ever curve of her body – and moments later with the scent of vanilla and rainfall fill my senses I finally welcome a dreamless slumber.

Author's notes: And chapter six sets the overload of emotions!

I actually had some of this finished when I posted chapter five and well I finished it so, yay? Haha please do not kill me!

Ymir is intersex – more as a tribute to CanaanAlphardForever because I've read majority of her fictions and yeah, aha, so Ymir has a "fun stick" and I hope I nailed it when it came to teenagers and sex – and stuff, aha.

Now you all will probably be wondering why the original Jaegers all went to Dauper and how it connects to Sasha – which will come to light chapter seven along with parts of her past – like the weird dreams she keeps having.

Anyone like the fluff or was that fluff when it came to Mikasa and Sasha? I'll try better – I've read to many Angst fics and I'm more accustom to them, but this is also a slow burn build up so I mean we will get to see them happy – just not yet.

I still have more to give you guys and I hope you will be here to see this through with me! Don't hate me to much also please :/

Anyways reviewer appreciation time:

Sonic2196: Thank you! I hope you like three days later than the last one, xD I'm pacing myself with this story though and I'll more than likely start chapter seven tomorrow and take a few days to type but I thought I would surprise everyone with another update – I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I'm sorry if it seemed to rushed or confusing.

CanaanAlphardForever: Mate I have indulged everyone with another chapter! Starting to ship Fem!Levi and Sasha are we? Well from what I've learned you are not the only one, ;D , haha and well I'm excited to read your Mikasasha fic because I LOVE YOUR WRITING – EVERYONE SHOULD GO READ HER FICTIONS THEY ARE precious :3 – yes I fangirl over your work a lot.

Our potato still has plenty of people to walk in one and how about those nudes, huh? Hahaha – ah. Thank you for the review mate I always look forward to them. :D

SweetStarsSama: I'm good at delivering tasty angst and thank you for the review! Hope you like this chapter! :D

JonWithAnH: A lot of people are! But I messaged you and explained somethings – haha ah yeah. There will be more sparring sessions and hopefully more decent chapters – and I hope you enjoyed this one!

Thank you everyone for the views – this fic broke 2,000 today! - reviews, follows and favorites I just love you guys a lot okay?

With a lot of love for you guys,

Cap'n Lynn sailing off to write more chapters eventually.

P.s I know people make mistakes – I make plenty but eventually I'll go over them in the mean time * in Pyrra's voice from RWBY : I'm sorry!