Will was dreaming again. Not only at night. About the future, about what he wanted with Sonny. He hadn't dared before when they were just dating. The simple fact that Sonny wanted to be with him was overwhelming enough, he had lived in the present, only thinking about what to major in and which movie to go watch.
Now, he was living with Sonny, he had been for a few unbelievable days. Sonny would come home and make dinner. Or maybe not, he would be tired surely. Will could order in. He knew what Sonny liked. He knew Sonny intimately, his body, his moods, his cravings.
His lungs were filling up too much, they did that every time he was aware that Sonny was back in his life, that the empty and cold impressions of loneliness and unworthiness had been an illusion. It took all of Sonny's warmth and loving words to do that, all his devotion. To have that again felt almost too much. Almost.
Sonny was late. Will was pacing in the apartment, all alone like before, without Jame's presence to soothe him, wondering if he should call or text. It was silly, but on the other hand, why wasn't Sonny sending a text. If he had to work late or if he was stuck in traffic, he could do that, surely.
He turned the TV on and flipped through the channels. Insecurity was entwining its chilly fingers around his heart, while scenarios started playing in a loop in his head, from car accidents, to Brian's lips on Sonny's. He looked at his watch. Three hours late, now he could panic.
Sonny's cell wasn't answering, going straight to voice mail. Chad's and Abby's neither. That was the amount of people he could call in Sonny's life. He knew half the town, was related to many and he couldn't even check with them. Sonny could be in a car accident and his parents could prevent him from knowing, from visiting him. The thought hurt so much, he was groaning softly.
The door opened and clear waters washed through Will's body, clearing him in a second, as he hugged Sonny tightly, barely listening to the hushed explanations "the car broke down, and I called a mechanic and then my cell battery died and I couldn't call and the guy was an ass and I argued with him about the price and then there was traffic because of an accident and I couldn't reach you and..."
Will was kissing him, drinking his skin in, not even wiping off his eyes, hardly noticing the dampness he was making in Sonny's neck. Sonny was kissing him back, with desperation, with hunger.
They didn't order out afterward, just ate cereals in bed. Sonny had his head against Will's shoulder and yawning every two minutes. After Will found a way to relax him, he insisted he had to give it back, so they fell asleep in the early hours of the morning.
The next evening, Sonny opened the door the minute he had said he would and Will put the Chinese take outs on the table, he had gotten moments ago.
"You could call my dad, you know." "Why?" "If you're worried and you can't reach me. If I was in an accident..." Will fought the shiver in his spine and listened on "... He would tell you everything. He likes you, he trusts you, actually. More than I did..." He sighed.
Will continued munching his chicken, reflecting. It was true, Justin was in his corner. They could invite him for lunch, maybe, without his wife. It's good to have an ally. If Will was in an accident, however, what would happen? James might be notified, as his boss. Sami too, if they searched enough. Not his "roommate".
They spent the evening preparing contact papers for their wallets to be laminated. They spoke organs donations and planned a trip to the hospital to get the cards, and also to ask about paperwork that they could fill. This wasn't what Will had been dreaming about, but that was a commitment, a strong one.
Will bought a car cell phone charger for Sonny and carried one extra with him. He got short texts every morning, every afternoons, including the one he explained he was crashing at Chad's for the night, it was way too late to drive back.
Will slept through the night, as well as he did when Sonny was in the bed.
It was one of the thing that had changed after meeting Sonny. He had always been a light sleeper, mind whirling too much to let him rest, any noises waking him up with his heart beating too fast. The first night he had spent with his boyfriend, he was exhausted from his first time so he didn't notice. But after that, ever night, he slept like the dead, unless Sonny wasn't there. And that rarely happened. Sonny was horny and respectful at the same time. Will was shy and over-eager. But even without sex, Will's mind was at rest when he knew Sonny was in his life and the anxiety had died away, letting Will bloom like a flower.
They invited James for Saturday's lunch. He came with someone he had met during the week. The guy was nice and easy on the eye, so Will was happy for his friend. He knew he had had trouble dating after his break-up which was why he was so available for volunteering.
Will had signed up for the next afternoon. He would have stayed with Sonny but he felt he owed the place, and James. Sonny had agreed and said he would come too. He had baked cookies and taken them with him. He had become a hero from the get-go. Will was past proud.
They went to a club after a movie night. Sonny was observing, very professionally. He was starting to talk about upgrading the coffee-house. Will wasn't sure it was a good idea. It meant crazy hours and a more mixed crowd. He kept his opinion to himself, though. Sonny wasn't asking for it and Will would rather have serious talks at quieter times.
Two weeks later, Sonny took the wrong cell to go to the post office. His rang and Will answered, thinking it was his. When he recognized the voice, he froze. "Will! Oh my god, I've missed you!" He wanted to hang up but he couldn't. So he made his sister promise she wouldn't tell anyone. She was calling Sonny to ask him to help with a homework project they had been working on.
So, now, he needed to ask Justin to come with his sister to lunch. And maybe his other siblings if he could. It was getting ridiculous, yet he couldn't face any of the adults.
Sonny was making friends fast, with the neighbors, with club bouncers, with other volunteer, creating a network Will was incapable of gathering. They started being invited and Sonny was smiling more.
There were knocks on the door every so often. Once, Sonny opened to Adrienne. He closed the door immediately, shouting and refusing to listen to her while Will went to the bedroom, not to hear her insult him and plead with Sonny. He would have to give up hopes of her changing her mind about them. It didn't bode well for other parents.
Lucas had been the nicest and yet the one who had hurt him the most. He was affectionate and understanding but he still accused him and didn't believe what his son said. Sami had only seen one thing, that he had hurt EJ's business. Marlena had said she was disappointed and it had been the last straw.
Sonny entered the room and Will hugged him for a long while. They both had no mother any more and it hurt. He prepared a bubble bath and tenderly cleaned his lover, whispering how much he loved him. They watched a stupid funny film and fell asleep on their new couch. Sonny had stopped smiling.