"I..." She frowned, standing up by herself. She sat over the little bed in the room, pulling Emily closer. "There's something I should say." She whispered.. taking a soft breath before letting her forehead fall over Emily's chest. "I..." As soon as the blonde began to speak, the nurse and doctor interrupted.
Emily let go of Alison and stood up as well. "Okay, I'm listening." The brunette felt instant butterflies, nervous about what the blonde would say. She stayed close to Alison and wrapped her arms protectively around her, waiting to hear what she wanted to tell her. Emily scowled slightly when the nurse and doctor interrupted, but she parted from Alison to allow the blonde to speak to them.
"I think my heart arrhythmia is acting up, when I take my medication, it makes me feel weak..." Alison finally admitted to the doctor and the nurse, and admitting to Emily that she had a heart condition. She'd never admitted it to anyone, and she was terrified to admit to people that she had a weakness. "I've been out of medication for 3 weeks, and this started about 2 days ago."
Emily stayed a distance away to allow Alison her privacy but she listened carefully. She'd never known that the blonde had a heart condition but it didn't change anything, other than to make the brunette worried for Alison. She just wanted her to be okay even if she had to be on medication for the rest of her life.
The blonde frowned, the doctor exiting the room to find her charts in order to find the right type of medication. "I really didn't want anyone to find out." She rolled her eyes and bit at her lip. "I have a heart condition. Sometimes it beats out of control and I stop breathing, and I faint.."
"It's okay, Ali. You know I wouldn't ever tell anyone. I just want you to be okay." Emily whispered, not even daring to look into the blonde's eyes. She didn't want Alison to get mad at her for being so sympathetic or for wanting to take care of her. But Emily couldn't help it. She knew she would always care of Alison and would go to the ends of the earth for her. She just wasn't ready to face what she knew deep down, what she'd tried so hard to move on from. "So, girlfriend, huh?" Emily smirked, trying to lighten the mood.
"Jeeze, Em. Let it go." Alison rolled her eyes and slid off the robe once again. "I'm not keeping this damn thing on." She spoke angrily and annoyed. Finally, she put her clothes on and then turned to Emily. "I'll just deal with being sick, I just want to get the hell out of here."
Emily sighed softly, knowing she'd struck a nerve with Alison but she couldn't help but feel a little hurt. She backed away and turned around so the blonde could get dressed. "Well you can at least wait for your medication, Alison." Emily spoke rather sharply, upset that the blonde would risk her health simply because of her one remark.
"The doctor will send it to the pharmacy, he has my information anyways." Alison walked out of the hospital. Her skin was still pale, however she didn't care. She just wanted to get out of there. "I'll wait for you at the car." The blonde didn't bother wait for Emily. She hated feeling vulnerable in front of the brunette.. especially now that she knew about her heart condition.
"Whatever, Ali." Emily spoke distractedly. She didn't really mean to come off sounding harsh or upset but Alison often hurt her feelings or made her jealous without even realizing it. The brunette never felt like she could tell Alison those things though so she always needed a moment to herself to put the thoughts out of her mind. She sighed softly and thought to herself how Alison hadn't meant anything and was just overly upset about being sick. Once she felt sure of herself and everything again, she made her way to the car.
Alison waited beside the car, looking over at the front entrance to see if Emily was on her way. The blonde tapped her foot impatiently, looking over at the time on her phone. "Come on, Em." She mumbled to herself, taking soft breaths, not wanting to panic to cause her to get even sicker.
Emily finally reached the car and unlocked the doors without speaking a word. "Sorry I took so long. I just wanted to wash my hands after being in a hospital." Emily lied, not wanting Alison to question why she'd taken nearly ten minutes just to get back to the car. She put the car in reverse and backed out of the parking lot, driving back towards Alison's beach house once she'd gotten on the main road.
"You don't have to lie around me, Emily. I saw your face in the room when I called you my girlfriend. You just make a big deal out of everything..." Alison spoke, really not wanting to sound rude. "I shouldn't have said that.." Alison was practically punishing herself for her choice of words.
"Just stop, Alison. I don't want to hear it, okay? Yeah I have feelings and emotions and I know you don't but don't take it out on me." Emily knew she was only adding more fuel to the fire and she should've just stayed quiet but this was too much. The brunette vowed never to let Alison shatter her heart again and it took so much of her to even let the blonde in again. "Yeah, you probably shouldn't say things you don't mean." Emily agreed, before turning up the radio, hoping the blonde would let up and leave her be. She just wanted to drive in silence and forget the entire conversation they'd had in the hospital.
"Awesome." Alison mumbled to herself. She took out her phone and slid her hand in the glove compartment, finding earphones. The blonde plugged them into her cell and pushed the volume to maximum, ignoring Emily's remarks. The blonde did have emotions, she just showed them differently. She thought that by letting Emily stay with her in the hospital room that she'd gain her respect, and by revealing her heart condition, she'd trust her more, but it was never enough for Emily.
Emily hated this entire moment more than anything. Fighting with Alison always ended badly especially because she apologized and still felt like the blonde got what she wanted but she didn't. She kept quiet, letting the music drown out Alison's silence. Sure, the blonde had trusted her with likely her biggest vulnerability but then she pushed her away, acting all upset that Emily knew. The brunette cared more about Alison than her own life but it was hard to care so much when each time she expressed it, Alison pushed away.
Alison was silent, not even bothering to speak or to look at Emily. She simply changed songs on her phone once in a while. Finally; she closed her eyes and dozed off to sleep, her music still played loudly, flowing out of the earphones and into her ears. The two girls had a thing for upsetting each other, it drove Alison crazy, but deep down, she didn't mean to hurt Emily, she just didn't know how to be around her.
Emily knew Alison didn't have bad intentions. But the truth was that while the blonde had shut her out and then disappeared, Emily had changed. She'd learned to stand up for herself and now couldn't just give the blonde what she wanted without getting at least partially what she wanted too. She hated that they disagreed and fought so much but she trusted that in the end it would work out. "I don't want to fight." She finally whispered out even though she knew Alison was fast asleep and wouldn't hear a word even if she awoke because of her earphones.
As soon as the two girls arrived home, Alison unbuckled her seatbelt and walked inside, not giving any time for Emily to catch up. As soon as she reached her room, she grabbed a pillow and a blanket, handing it over to Emily and afterwards; slammed her door and sat over the bed, once again plugging her earphones in her phone and ignoring the world around her.
Emily got out of the car and followed Alison upstairs, only to be greeted by a pillow and blanket being shoved into her arms and a door slam in her face. She blinked a few times to regain her composure and almost burst into tears when she finally made her way into the guest room. The blonde had never completely shut her out like this since she'd returned and it killed Emily inside.
Alison thought that if she was going to be treated like she had no emotions or no heart that she might as well start to act like it. The blonde slid under her sheets, her phone by her side, her music still blasting against her earlobes. "Hm." She mumbled, yawning once and then stretching her petite body just a little to get comfortable.
Emily had no idea what to do. She knew she'd upset Alison but the blonde had hurt her as well. She finally plopped down on the bed, realizing that Alison had locked her out of the room with her suitcase. "Ugh." She groaned out and hopped off the bed to make her way back to Alison's room. She knocked on the door, waiting for the blonde to answer and preparing herself for the likely confrontation.
The door to her room was unlocked, however Alison was lost in her music. She wasn't asleep yet, she simply was in her bed, eyeing the ceiling and sighing every once in a while. Once Emily knocked a couple of times and walked inside the room, Alison rolled her eyes and slid out her earphones from her ears. "What." She spoke, an angry tone. She kept her eyes on Emily, not saying a word after.
"I need my stuff." Emily whispered softly, almost afraid of Alison's anger. She always felt nervous when the blonde was mad at her. It made her feel like anything she did or said would only make it worse. The brunette finally dared to make eye contact with Alison, though it was evident that Emily's were filled with a mixture of hurt, sadness, and fear.
Alison made eye contact with the brunette. She got up and went through Emily's stuff, handing it over to her and then showing her the door once she had her possessions. Once Emily was out of the room, Alison closed the door and made her way to her bedroom balcony, taking a soft breath of fresh air.
Emily knew that Alison wouldn't bother to talk. She was always one to come around after she'd had a while to be alone. The brunette took her stuff and made her way back to the guest room. She quickly changed and then looked around room, not really wanting to sleep. Instead she took out her phone and called her dad, hoping he'd be able to talk. She hadn't seen him in months and she missed him terribly.
Alison sat down on her balcony and grabbed her phone. She closed her French doors and let her back fall to the wall outside of the beach house. She dialed Emily's number and placed her ear against the earpiece. When Emily answered, she spoke softly. "Don't speak, let me talk. I'm sorry about giving you false hopes, I just wanted you to be in that room when I talked about my arrhythmia. You can come upstairs, I'm on my balcony." She then hung up and looked up at the stars.
Emily was just about to dial her dad's number when her phone lit up with Alison's number. She answered and listened to the blonde's words carefully. She breathed out in relief when it was an apology she heard instead of another argument. She set her phone down and crawled out of bed. The brunette climbed the stairs and made her way into Alison's room.
Alison sat still, her eyes gazing over the night sky. Stars were her thing to look at. They were always there, they never judged her, and they were always so beautiful to look at, one of the only things that Alison enjoyed doing. After shutting off her phone and hearing her door open, Alison turned around to see Emily standing in the doorway, almost waiting for an invitation. "J-Join me?"
"Y..yeah...sure, Ali." Emily spoke hesitantly, still very nervous about what it was Alison would say to her. She looked up at the stars, enjoying the perfectly clear night sky. It was practically picture perfect, which the brunette loved. "So beautiful." She whispered softly, subtly hinting at the fact that not only was the sky beautiful but so was the blonde who she was watching enjoy it.
"I think I'm going to sleep out here tonight. There's an air mattress in the room. I'll blow it up and fall asleep while looking at the stars. It relaxes me..." Alison spoke in a whisper. She didn't have the energy to argue with Emily, not anymore. She was enjoying her vacation, which was finally going to start as soon as she felt better.
"Can I...umm do you mind if I join you? I love looking up at the stars. I miss the times when I used to go camping with my dad and we'd sleep under the stars." Emily spoke softly and kindly. She wasn't upset with Alison anymore. She knew that the blonde wouldn't have apologized or invited her back upstairs if she didn't care. "Plus if you're still feeling sick, I don't think being alone is such a good idea." Emily couldn't help but let her caring side take over.
"Of course." Alison finally stood up and extended her hand to take Emily's. "Would you help me blow up the air mattress? It's a double size, it should be fine for the both of us." Alison added, yawning once, shivers once again trailing down her spine and over her body.
"Of course I will." Emily smiled softly and intertwined her fingers with Alison's. "Hey...I'm sorry for what I said earlier. I know you care. It's just you speak so boldly and sometimes it's harsh to me." Emily knew Alison would tell her to move on and not bother bringing anything up but she needed to say it. She needed Alison to know she still would always see the good in her.
"I'm a work in progress I guess." Alison tried to laugh it off. She took out the air mattress and then made her way to the washroom. "Do you mind?" She asked, wondering if the brunette would blow it up for them as Alison needed to wash her face and brush her teeth.
"No problem. Do whatever you need to and I'll get it set up." Emily took the mattress from Alison and gave her a sincere smile. "Hey, I trust you, okay?" She finally admitted that though Alison pushed her away often, she still believed in her and trusted her completely. She knew that letting herself be open with the blonde was the only way she'd ever be able to teach Alison that it was okay to do the same.
"I know, thank you." Alison closed the door to the washroom, finally deciding to change out of her yucky clothes that she'd sweated so much in and put on some pajama pants and a comfortable sweater vest. She washed her face, brushed her teeth and took a sip of water before joining Emily in the room.
"No need." Emily whispered back before sitting on Alison's bed. She took the mattress and began blowing it up with the pump that came with it. She looked up to see that Alison had returned just as she finally finished filling the mattress with as much air as possible. She sealed the mattress up and set it down, flopping back down on Alison's bed for a moment.
Alison went through her closet, grabbing a huge blanket and two pillows for the two girls to sleep over the balcony. It was nice outside, she didn't have to worry about rain or anything, it was set to be a good night, nothing could ruin it.
Emily stood up and finally dragged the mattress outside. She stayed out on the balcony, just enjoying how incredible the night sky looked here compared to back in Rosewood. She stayed quiet and simply just gazed at the stars, waiting for Alison to join her.
Alison went and stood beside Emily, a small smile appearing over her lips. "See why I wanna come here all the time?" She whispered to Emily, turning to look at Emily as she enjoyed the night sky. "It's so quiet, and I feel so much safer here." She admitted.
Emily smiled and spoke just above a whisper, not wanting to ruin the beauty of the peaceful night with her voice. "I could look at this sky forever. It's amazing. I hope we don't have to leave anytime soon." She admitted, thinking about how much she liked it here better than Rosewood already.
"We're still here for like 3 weeks I think, unless dad decides that he's going to be an idiot and need time for more work." Alison sighed, frustrated that her dad would just ditch them when they were on vacation, typical of him.
"Don't worry, Ali. Even if he leaves, we'll still have fun. I'll make sure of that." The brunette reassured Alison, not wanting her to be unhappy on their vacation. She walked over and gently hugged Alison, hoping that for once the blonde wouldn't pull away.
Alison let herself be hugged from behind, her back once again falling over Emily's chest. "You make so many promises, Emily. Don't let people take advantage of you, I don't want to see you get hurt."
"I never promise anything I can't come through on. And besides I want to have a good time with you. Just get well soon so we can, okay?" Emily was surprised to hear what Alison had to say. Usually it was her that was the protective one between the two. She hugged Alison a little tighter as she continued to look up at the stars.
"I'll try." Alison whispered. She really wished that she could control whether or not she got better soon, but really; she knew that it would probably take time, and she was thankful that Emily was going to be right beside her until she did get better. "And thanks for being there with me tonight, I might not say it often, but it means a lot.." She finally admitted.
"I'm glad it was me you wanted there." Emily whispered back softly, the pure happiness evident in her voice. It was moments like these that had made her fall for the blonde in the first place. The brunette wasn't quite ready to let her heart feel that intensely for Alison once again but the feelings were there. She knew that the blonde would soon enough have her falling for her again. She only hoped that this time Alison would catch her when she did.
"Something on your mind?" Alison asked innocently, not wanting to make a big deal out of it. The blonde didn't move from Emily's embrace. She took soft breaths, not wanting Emily to panic because of her heart condition, therefore she took things easily. "Maybe one day, the stars are going to shine more than this and we'll be able to witness it, right here."