It took me weeks to even begin to open up to the three boys. Ben was the one who ran after me. I'll admit I like him quite a bit. He's quiet and strong, in a combined strength of personality, physical attributes and I've come to realize he's strong mentally too. He's always nice to talk to when I get really down. Hiram and Shelton are the other two, both who have a talent for making me laugh with an act of disturbing features, and more information than any of us really wanted to know (Hiram), and the witty and mildly grossed out relies.
It took me months to even begin to get over her death. I miss mom every day of my time here, but the pain just seems to fade a little every day.
It still hurts. No, it's still a raw, burning agony; but it's no longer a deep, festering wound. I don't think I'll ever really stop missing her, and I'll probably always wish she was still alive but I know I wouldn't be where I am now if she hadn't died. I wouldn't have ever met Kit or my boys, but all things considered I'd never have met what I've dubbed the Tripod of Skank either. But I have my boys and enough projects and hiking explorations to keep me busy. We even found this awesome bunker a while ago.
And then there's Cooper, my wolf-dog puppy. Well, he isn't mine, but I like to think of him as mine sometimes. He lives out with his family in the woods and I'm a little jealous some times. He has all of his family with him while I lost part of mine but really thats OK.
While I know I'll never stop missing her, or Ally, and Ally's family too of course, I'm plenty happy where I am now with my new family. Some part of me knows something life changing is going to happen, and this time not just to me. Whatever it is, I'll face it with my boys and if I'm doomed to go down I'll go down swinging.
I have no inspiration, and I know you all deserve better, but I can't continue this story anymore and I don't know how I would. I'm sorry I haven't updated in months, and then I just give you this, but I can't deal with attempting to continue this story and especially not now. Thank you for your loyalty, and your views and reviews, I'm sorry I've been so crappy of an authour, sort of if that really fits whatever the heck it is I'm trying to say... Anyways just infinite thank yous and apologies.