a/n - I know, i know, sorry i had finals, and then soon after i left on vacations, and plus i re wrote this chapter multiple times, i just couldn't get it right, i was a mess and finally today i said to myself i had to sit my butt down and write it.
A Look Behind And A Glimpse Of Tomorrow
He was the product of a metacrisis born with a human body and a Time Lord mind, all of his feeling and memories attached. The only major difference was that he Human enough to live his life with Rose Tyler. That thought made him so happy. To marry Rose Tyler, to grow old with Rose Tyler, to start a family with Rose Tyler, the greatest adventure and he was eager to begin.
The Doctor was obviously awake, he was in his bed stroking Rose's hair as she slept her head on his chest, he couldn't help smiling as she snuggled closer to him her pregnant stomach rubbing against his hip. It only caused his smile to widen, looking at his Rose and at the beginning of his family.
Only to slip away with the dangers lurking in the world. This world was at war, seeking and destroying anything Alien, his hands stopped their movements as his hearts filled with guilt.
Looking at Rose resting so peacefully, even during the day she was relaxed and happy, he knew that what he was doing was wrong but in order for his child and for Rose to survive he would do anything.
Rose was going through some rough time since they realised they were expecting it seems the child had been using her as a means to read her surrounding and had been giving her a headache, nausea, making her paranoid her health began to drop and she was becoming too skinny, and sickly. So Protective of her mind privacy she would have refused to take a medicine that would in a manner of speaking sedate her.
He had asked Jackie and Pete before he had began, and they had both agreed to help administer a psychoactive drug. it was safe for both the child and for Rose.
He had every intention on telling her once she had given birth safely. and he had every intention of making it up to her for as long as it took, as long as they both where safe.
he looked towards the wardrobe where the piece of Tardis coral was growing and could help but to think of his 7th self and in that extension all of his regeneration old adventures and the many companions who entered his lifes.
Yes he had fallen in love with many of his companions how could he not, brilliant brave companions with hearts of gold each and every one of them. Before the Time War he felt no need to be romantically attached to his companions or to any one for that matter, his hearts sealed with walls to protect both him and them. Because their lives were short and fleeting compared to a Time Lord's.
Until the Time War happened, although his memories of the last days where hazy, it didn't block out the brutal violence of his people, sacrificing anything and everything in order to win. countless of species and planets disappeared overnight.
His smile disappeared as he thought about the war crimes committed by both the Daleks and the Time Lords. Should Gallifrey survived, the creatures that may once have been the indifferent Time Lords, were now instead bloodthirsty war ridden Time Lords, who would continue the war by attacking all other species until they were either dead or the last one standing.
(dun-dun-dun-dun) A flash of memory of golden energy flashed through his mind before disappearing, confused he tried to follow the thought only to meet a sealed black door shaking his head he ignored the door and continued thinking.
Looking at his Rose laying there peacefully in his arms he went back to his original thoughts
Rose Tyler, normal human shopgirl, with her compassion, loyalty, and humanity helped pick up the pieces of the man he once was. But it was her love for him that became the adhesive to hold the pieces together.
If he hadn't met Rose, he shiver with the fear of what he would have become.
It was with Rose that he finally let go of his Time War mentality, where once he would gleefully kill a dalek, he could now offer it mercy offer it a peaceful way out.
He regained his mercy, and once again became the Man who wouldn't, he regained compassion.
He regretted many things, like what he did to Harriet Jones, he regret his treatment of Martha Jones and Mickey Smith, Of leaving Jack behind at the space station.
He was not a perfect man he never was and ROse accepted that challenged him to become better, and he would alway for her strive to BE better.
(dun-dun-dun-dun) Another flash of memory this time a woman with red hair surrounded by golden light.
Shaking his head annoyed of that insistent though he followed it back to it's source once again standing before the same sealed black door, but now it seemed to be shaking, a hazy glow emanating from its edges, with determined the doctor opened the door.
Rose tried to stand with the Doctor's help, but a sharp pain caused her gasp and fall to her knees.
"ROSE." he knelt beside her, Rose was clutching the left side of her chest. she could formed the any words her tongue felt like cotton.
Rory rushed to her side.
"Rose what's wrong can you breath?" Rose shook her head, just as Rory reached her, he gave her a quick check up and almost immediately was able to tell
"Allergy..." he announced confused.
The Doctor frowned.
"Doctor is she allergic to anything?" Rory asked turning to look at the Doctor.
"No, no, Rose didn't have any allergies..." in an instant a suspicious look came upon him as he suddenly stood up quickly moving towards the Orderlies he began searching for the formula that was injected into Rose.
finding it in the folds of the clothes he pulled it out and tasted the medicine before spitting it out.
"It has acetyloxybenzoic acid" he announced as he move towards Rose,placing his finger to her temples Rose suddenly found herself in a coma Rory frowned, "It's one of the ingredients in aspirin."
Which made Rory roll his eyes, "I know that, what are you doing to Rosy- ROSE? and how would that affect Rose?"
The Doctor frowned completely ignoring Rory he instead announcing "She's in a healing coma i need you Rory to cary Rose out of here and giver her some triglycerides."
"Where am i suppose to get that from?" Rory asked before giving out a "hump" at the added weight of Rose landing on his arms.
"chocolate" was the last thing he heard the Doctor say before he was pushed out onto the elevator. Amy was returning from wheeling the patients back to the hospital, when she saw Rory carrying Rose
Rory gave her a smile,"Help the Doctor you know how he get's if his alone"
Amy kissed him on the lips before slipping through the portal.
Rory made his way to an empty hospital room laying Rose on the bed. before bussing himself in finding the necessary equipment.
Rose never paid attention to the faint drumming in her mind, she believed it was her heart beat(dun-dun-dun-dun). It wasn't intrusive or annoying, it had never bothered her.(dun-dun-dun-dun) It wasn't until she slipped into a coma that she realised that the drums where getting louder. She had no way to escape it.
(dun-dun-dun-dun)
Being unconscious was making it worse it seems, the constant dum-dum-dum-dum, grinding on her nerves. So much so Rose decided to search out the source. (dun-dun-dun-dun)following the noise deep into her mind she realised it just grew louder. until she could feel the vibrations, she stopped by a black door...
The Doctor stepped out of that room. his face pale at what he had seen and heard.
It was a past memory of his 8th self, on his left a woman with Red Hair and golden glow around her, her eyes mismatched, standing behind her was Donna and woman with brown hair. On his right a man, with a bow tie and the same brown hair girl. he was arguing with the red hair woman for the most part their conversation was inaudible,until...
"Rose, I can Save them." it was this that made him go pale looking beyond Donna his wardrobe shape Tardis the very one in his room.
he left the memory then torn between amazement at Rose and complete betrayal and loathing at the universes.
Why was he not allowed one shred of happiness, he deserve to be loved, he deserved to be happy with his beloved his Rose, and HIS child he got out of bed, to pace around the room.
With a deep breath he calmed himself stopping right under the window looking at the stars, he knew there was something wrong with this universe, he didn't know what since his Time Lord senses were dulled by his humanity. shaking his head to get back to track, maybe all of that happened way in the future maybe the brown hair girl was their daughter.
The universe couldn't be that cruel right. as it turn out to be, the universe WAS that cruel as he spotter the glint of a weapon he instinctively covered Rose with his body, feeling the bullet lodge itself in his body.
"Rose, I don't want to go I-I'm not ready! I have so much to do, do much to give," he panicked he could feel his organs began to shut down and he could feel Rose gripping his hands and he could see her crying over him, but he couldn't stop, "Please ROSE I don't want to go I want to see our child please...!" then he felt darkness envelop him.
he could hear Rose cry when his hands slacken, he could almost feel Jackie and Pete taking her away. and then he knew no more.
When he awoke his body was numbed his senses were dead and almost instantly he knew where he was: a Sensory deprivation chamber.
he could almost feel people around him sometimes asking him a question, sometimes just staring...
Every other day a piercing howling of anguish rushed through him the darkness within him grew and for 50 years it was all he knew, until one day the howling intensified and the people he had always sensed disappeared a crack appeared before him as he was swallowed into it. he put up no resistance as he fell through.
His mind filled with darkness as his memories became hazy due to the universe he had spent most of his life in dissapearing.
That was the birth of the Valeyard
Rose opened the door, or at least she tried it was sealed stepping back she gave the door a critical look surprise to see a dark mist emanating from within the moment her hand had touched the door the drumming had gone back to it's almost muted noise. with a shrug of her shoulders Rose walked away.
a few minutes late she was woke up by the Doctor looking into her eyes concerned, she smiled, and that seem to put him at ease.
"How are you feeling?" he asked, Rose was about to respond with the standard "Fine." at the same time moving to a sitting position only to feel stiff with muscle pain.
She groaned, "I feel like i went to aerobics with Shareen."
The Doctor nodded "acetyloxybenzoic acid is an active ingredient in the formula they injected you with luckily they didn't feed you aspirin that would have been fatal. if i hadn't gotten ROry to feed you chocolate quickly the damage would have been worse."
"Thanks," looking around she spotted Rory and amy, as well as her grandfather holding little Melody in his arms.
"thank you Rory." he shook his head, before a smile graced his face.
"I'll send you the bill later don't worry you'll get a family discount." Rose couldn't help but laugh even when her ribs hurt.
Even the Doctor gave his giggle, (not that he would ever admit it of course) a few minutes later the Doctor was carrying Rose in his arms as he explained how thanks to Amy he was able to figure out how use the weapon to bring a cure worldwide instantly. He also mentioned that he had met Clara while visiting Unit headquarters he had completely forgotten until then.
Wilfred was helping kids reunite with their parents, with Amy assisting Rory as a temporary nurse every once in a while blowing kisses at Melody who was "helping" Wilfred by patting all the crying children until they calmed, blowing kisses to both her mommy and her daddy.
The Doctor entered the white wardrobe settled Rose in a comfortable seat and began dematerialising back to Rose's home. Landing, before Rose tried to stand the Doctor scooped her up once more reminding her about her knee injury.
As they stepped out they were greeted with the sound of a Tardis materialising quickly turning he saw his beautiful Blue box materialising in the garden.
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