Maybe you're not even human 'cause
Only an angel could be so unusual
Sweet surprise I could get used to
Unusual you

I ignored all calls from Bonnie and Caroline Sunday asking if I was well because I don't want to lie anymore. I'm tired of it. It's now Monday and I'm getting ready for school. I did the math last night and figured out I should be around 9wks and I started to panic cause it was more than I thought. I was in denial for so long my mind pushed away any thought of that night or my pregnancy. But now I'm 9 weeks and I'm scared. In about 3 weeks I should start showing a little. That doesn't give me a lot of time. Letting out a shaky breath I put on a yellow dress I bought at the store with Caroline and Bonnie along with a sweat over it and some sneakers. I straighten my hair add natural makeup then head downstairs to start another agonizing day.

When I hit the bottom stairs I smell bacon and eggs. My dad must be heading in late again. I would usually love it when he does this but to be honest I wanted to eat as much as I wanted without people looking at me weird and suspecting. But I think at this point I'm just paranoid.

"Hey 'Lena I have bacon, eggs, toast for you this morning." He smiles warmly at me.

"Where's Jer?" I ask curiously.

My dad sighs heavily. "He stayed out again tonight. Probably to a party again and staying at a girls or friends house. Who knows"

Poor dad. He did try for a long time to parent Jeremy and tell him the things he was doing and acting on were wrong. He was like this since he was about 12 but really amplified after our mom's death. Who could blame him? I did sort of the same thing. Which kind of got me into the situation I'm in now.

"He will be back soon" I assure my dad. I mean Jeremy might get into trouble a lot and do bad stuff but he hardly misses school. I mean that is where his friends are and he might make wrong decisions but he isn't stupid, he knows if he wants to get anywhere in life he has to get an education.

Whenever I'm in the same room as my dad I want to scream to him what is going on but I can't find the words. I can never find the words.

My dad and I make small talk until we hear the horn of Caroline's car and I know I'll have to face her for ignoring her yesterday. I wave goodbye to my dad and get in Caroline's car. When I get in she has both concern and scowling marked on her face.

"What?" I say self consciously.

She shakes her head. "Nothing"

The drive to school is silent and she doesn't bring up me ignoring her calls, probably because she expects me to bring it up but I am not about to do that. More lies. We pull up to school without any words spoken which is very unusual for Caroline obviously.

"Well I am off to class. Bye." She says and just leaves me standing by her car.

Well then….

I walk through the heaves of people and I finally reach my locker and get ready for the day before I feel a tap on my shoulder.

"Huh, what?" I say and turn around. I turn around to see a smiling Bonnie.

"Hey" She says.

"Hi…" I say awkwardly.

"So going to talk about avoiding me and Caroline yesterday?" Bonnie asks casually.

"Nope" I say bluntly.

She sighs. "Well when you're ready to talk come find us for the meantime….figure things out"

"What?" I gasp surprised.

"Come on Elena! You have been acting weird and secretive for a month now and especially the last 2 weeks. We know your hiding something and were hurt you won't tell us. We would never cut you off from us completely but were done having you use us as playthings till then" Bonnie rants.

I feel tears welling up in my eyes. "Look I'm sorry I am just not ready to tell people" My voice cracks at the end.

"What is it Elena? What could be so bad?" She whispers.

"It's pretty bad" I say even quieter.

"Elena, unless you murdered someone I don't care." She says firmly.

"Well then I guess I'll have to figure it out before I have the privilege to hang out with you guys" I snap and slam my locker leaving her there with her jaw hung open.

God why is everything going downhill! I don't get it. I walk into the ladies bathroom and let the tears fall but before it can ruin my makeup I crap a paper towel and dab my eyes. I'm going through this all alone and I guess I deserve that this I won't tell anyone but it still really sucks. I let out a few more sobs before doing my daily round of throwing up in the toilet. Morning sickness and school do not match fyi.

The bell rings and I actually make it to my English class on time. Wow. It's a miracle. I go through the list of people I could tell first. First being Damon the father. Of course he deserves to know but he is actually last on the list of people I want to tell and I think the reasons are obvious. Part of me thinks it would literally be easier to raise it on my own than to have him drop is lavish lifestyle and argue over custody and cause more harm than needed. Second being my dad and Jeremy. Both fiercely protective and love me so much but the doubtful part of me thinks that this would be the last straw and they would disown me or something. Yes like I said I'm paranoid. Also they would probably beat up Damon and tell him which brings me back to the first one. I don't want Damon to know. Then there's my 'best friends' that just drop kicked me from their life 2 hours ago. Out of them all I would tell them first but our lives are heading in such different directions now I don't want to loose them.

Which leaves me with, no one.

The day passes agonizingly slow. I become an expert to avoiding Caroline, Bonnie and Damon. I go in all the exact opposite halls they are in. Lunch finally seems to roll by and I spend it puking in the bathroom from all the different smells around me. Ew. My smelling is definitely stronger now that I am pregnant so I can smell everyone's individual food expect it's mashed together in one smell. Almost makes me not want to eat again. Almost. After the rest of my classes the bell rings signals the end of a day and I couldn't be happier. I decided around 4th period I would walk. Don't want Caroline to drive me plus with my gaining weight soon this is probably for the best.

I am walking to my locker when I trip over my own feet and crash into the ground. Ow. That's going to leave a bruise. I look over at my back and my books and things have fallen out of my bag. Dammit. I crawl over and start picking up everything that fell out when I pair of hands help me.

"Here let me help you"

Him.

I sigh and try to ignore him while putting things back into my bag.

"Why the hell do you have these?" He demands.

I look up and my heart stops.

My prenatal vitamins.

I gulp not knowing what to say. Shit. He wasn't supposed to find out let alone find out first. I can feel myself sweating up a storm and it feels like time is moving slowly…

"Elena, I am going to ask you again. Why do you have these?" His eyes glow with something unknown.

"I-I…they are mine and it's my business" I snap grabbing the vitamins from his hand.

"You're pregnant" It wasn't a question.

What am I suppose to say to that? No? I just like carrying them around? He knows. There is not a damn thing I can do about it besides slapping yourself on the head for this happening. I am screwed right now.

I quickly shove the rest of the things in my bad including the vitamins and stand up but I don't move. I don't know how to fix this. Or if it can even be fixed.

"Elena" He says softly.

"Don't'" I plead.

"Elena talk to me" He pleads back.

"I can't I'm not ready" I cry. "And don't act like you care" I say bitterly.

"Care?" he says angrily. "Of course I care!" He roars.

"Why!"

"Because it takes two to tango Elena!" He yells. "And I might seem like a dick sometimes but I'm not a horrible person!"

I look down ashamed. I judged him. I assumed everything and didn't even give him a chance. I listened to everyone around me and judged his personality on that.

"Sorry" I whisper. " I just assume-"

"Obviously" He snaps and runs his hand through his hair stressfully. He looks around at the now deserted hallway. We are kind of in a corner of the hallways so no one heard us at least.

"Look" He begins again. "Are you sure it's mine?"

I look at him in shock with my mouth open. "Of course!"

"Well what about Mason?" He fires back.

I look around trying to avoid this question.

"Elena answer me!" he hisses. "What about Mason? You slept with him right before me! And what if you slept with someone after!?"

Angrily I look back at him with fire in my eyes. How dare he! "I didn't sleep with Mason! We saw each other a couple of times but never had sex. Happy!?" I hiss back. "Oh and as for after, I didn't have sex with anyone so you can go back to playing your little 'Elena is trying to trap' me card now" I say bitterly.

He sighs. "That's not what I was trying to do and you know it. I'm just trying to figure out how this happened.."

I laugh sarcastically. "How do you think it happened Damon? We fucked all over the beach all night without using any condoms!" I laugh dryly.

He turns back to me anger in his eyes again. "Well why the hell aren't you on birth control?!"

"I changed pills! That's why I didn't have sex with Mason! I switched brands. And don't act like it's my job to protect myself while you shoot your crap inside of me with nothing to case it!"

"Well I'm sorry but usually people who have casual sex are on birth control so I normally don't have to worry!"

"Cause your stupid!" I shot back.

"So are you!" He snaps back.

"God you're so infuriating!" I exasperate.

He laughs. Laughs! Seriously I feel like slapping him and he is laughing like he can't stop. Ugh!

"Seriously?" I stomp my foot.

"You're so adorable when you're mad" He smiles a goofy smile.

That makes me angrier. "Is that why you do it? To push my buttons?" I shout.

He crosses his arms over his chest and smirks. "Basically"

I throw my hands up in the air. "Look we are just talking in circles so we will talk later about this.."

I go to leave but he catches my arm.

"Do you have a ride?" He asks concern etched in his voice.

"I did but I am going to walk home. I'm fine" I say and rip my arm out of his.

"Hell no. You are coming with me Gilbert"

"No" I raise my voice. "You can't make me"

He walks ahead of me and grabs my arm and opens the school doors so we are outside. He keeps leading me to the parking lot and I don't even try to get away because his grip is so tight and I know he is persistent.

"Get in" he says flatly.

"What? No. I'm not getting into a car with a stranger!" I shriek.

"Oh please. We will be seeing a lot of each other. I am no wear near a stranger" He smirks knowing he is right

I sigh defeated and get into the passenger side of his car. He gets in his side after me and buckles himself in before heading out.

"Where to?"

"My house I live-"

"I know"

I frown. "How do you know where I live?"

"I know Jeremy"

I scoff. Of course he does. Oh when Jeremy finds out one of his 'buddies' knocked up his sister…. If I was scared before about Jeremy killing Damon I am terrified now. Jeremy will look at this as betrayal and it will anger him more.

"He's going to kill you" I with no emotion.

"Yep" He says popping the 'p'. "So I assume your keeping it?" He asks as casually as he can.

I let out a big breath. "I can't muster the thought of doing an abortion. And adoption I don't know if I'm strong enough but it might be what's for the best"

"What?!" He shouts. "Hell no. I'm not having you give up our kid to some random couple. No. We will figure this out. Got me?"

I don't know what it is but when he said our child it brought butterflies into my stomach and made me all warm and fuzzy on the inside.

"I agree Damon but I'm a sophomore and you're a senior. Were too young and don't have jobs!" I shriek trying to explain to him our situation.

"Money isn't a issue. My dad owns a business on the west coast and were heavily funded. Wont be a issue"

Is this guy stupid? Just because he has money from the gods doesn't mean it solves our problem.

"Won't be a issue? Were teenagers who are having a kid!" I shout incredulously.

"Elena once again, that's not what I meant" He says a little annoyed. Good.

I sigh in defeat and lean against the seat. "Also I don't want you to tell anyone"

He turns his head slowly towards me while still driving. "Am I the only one who knows?"

"Yes" I mumble, ashamed of myself.

"So you were going through this alone?" He asks. And when I don't answer that is enough for him. "Dammit. You need to tell people Elena. You can't go through this on your own. If I didn't see your vitamins fall out would you have ever told me?" He asks vulnerably.

I turn my head and look out of the window ignoring his question. I thought before it was a good idea to not tell him thinking he wouldn't want a part in it. Seems like I was wrong. He almost seems supportive and ready to take it on. I would have never guessed this was his reaction so yeah I admit I do feel a little bit of guilt for thinking those things. But who could blame me? He put's himself out there with that image not letting people see the real him so how was I to know?

"Seriously Elena? Are you telling me you wouldn't have told me? I am the father!"

"Well obviously! But did you even think that maybe I didn't want to tell you cause of the way you act and the things you do? Hell I thought you wouldn't want anything to do with the kid!"

"Yeah it has come as a shock and I didn't expect it but that doesn't mean I want nothing to do with it! It is half me!"

"Thank you for the science lesson MR Salvatore"

"Does pregnancy make you bitchy or something?"

"This is going to be a fun 18 years" I scoff.

He smirks "Fighting with you is fun"

"Yeah well that's how we got into this situation so maybe you should rethink that"

"Touché"

After that we are in silence still reeling from the past 10 minutes. He just found out he is going to be a father and is probably freaking out. A part of me is happy someone knows now but the other part of me is panicking cause I have to tell everyone else. If its not one thing it's the other. But he weirdly seems supportive of this whole thing which I did not expect so it is kind of a relief to see that. He is still an asshole but an asshole with meaning if that makes sense.

After what feels like a hour but in reality 5 minutes we make it to my house. I make a move to get out but I feel his hand on my upper arm.

"When are you going to tell your dad?"

I feel my breathing pick up with just the thought of it. "I don't know. To be honest I never want to tell him…"

"I get that." He says sympathetically "I think the worst one will be Jeremy. But since you're alone through all of this I just want to let you know you can come to me. I'm scared shitless and freaking out a bit but I will be here for you" He half smiles.

I smile back at him. "You don't have to be you know. I was perfectly fine before with giving you a jail free card and I am still offering you it. You don't have to do this Damon" I whisper.

"I want to"

After Damon dropped me off I ran up to my room and cried. It's become a daily habit. Its now morning right before school and I realize we never exchanged numbers. Weird to think I am having a kid with someone and I don't even have their number. I am now standing in front of my mirror in my bra and underwear looking at a small bump that miraculously appeared on my belly. It's only noticeable if I wear tight clothing and/or naked. But still. It's there. Everything is starting. My tears haven't stopped since I found the bump. At first they were tears of terror now it's more 'this is my baby. Mine. Growing inside of me' and I weirdly have a connection with it already. That's a good sign right?

I still haven't contacted Caroline or Bonnie though it doesn't scare me as much the thought of them knowing now that Damon knows. It shows me that this isn't the end of the world, its bad yes but nothing I can't handle.

I sigh and leave the mirror and put on a loose white cotton T shirt and some flare jeans and sneakers. Good enough. Since Caroline refuses to drive me until I tell my deepest darkest secrets I am just going to walk. I grab an orange and walk out to start my 20 minute walk.

About halfway through my walk and almost through my orange Damon's Camaro comes cruising next to me.

Suddenly he rolls down the window. "Get in" He orders.

I sigh knowing if I say no it will result in our 5 year old arguments I'm getting tired of and slip into the passenger seat.

"Anything new?" He asks conversationally.

"No. Just having really bad morning sickness" I tell him.

"So that isn't a myth?" He jokes.

"Oh no, I can confirm it is not a myth" I say sternly.

"Good to know"

Its silent for a few moments before I remember something. "Oh there is something new I guess. I don't know if you want to hear it but when I was getting changed this morning I saw a little bump on my stomach. Not big or really noticeable but still growing" I tell him.

"What?" he says a little flustered. "Isn't that too soon?" He asks nervously.

"No they said every woman is different but because my body is smaller and I'm younger so ill show sooner" I explain.

"Oh" he says dumbly.

He is kind of cute when he has no clue what I am talking about or what is going on. Cute? Calm down Elena. Don't give the boy compliments now.

"So what are you going to do about school?" Damon asks.

I take a deep breath. "I don't know. I think I will still go and just take time off when I have the baby but come back when I can. Should work out. Thought I don't know who would watch it during the day…." I trail off. "You see this is why adopt-"

"Don't say adoption would work out. I am all for woman's rights but come on Elena I am not going to have my son or daughter raised by someone else. It will be raised by me whether I'm 18 or 40." He declares passionately.

Whoa it's like I am talking to a different Salvatore. Could it just be a bad boy front he puts up at school and parties? Is there another side to Damon Salvatore?

He drops me off at school and I assume we will go our separate way but he follows me to my locker.

"Why are you stalking me?" I half joke.

He freezes as if caught. "I-I just…I feel guilty you're going through this alone and that is my fault" He stumbles.

I laugh which surprised him and me. "Damon it is far from your fault. 'it takes two to tango' remember?"

He chuckles but then becomes serious. "You need to tell your dad because you need to see a doctor sometime"

I sigh. "I know…" I stop and bite my lip. I am dreading that.

"Look I will keep this our little secret but one day you're going to have to tell them. Its not something you can hide"

"Trust me I know" I say and put my books in my locker and take out my journal.

The bell rings. "Well gotta go. See ya" He smirks and leaves.

In my classes this morning all I think about is Damon and the front he puts on. I am pretty good at reading people and I didn't expect there to be a raw and juicy center to Damon Salvatore. And this is only the beginning the more time I spend with him the more I get to the center.

Around lunchtime I am not feeling too nausea's since I threw up right when I woke up, maybe that helped. I walk into the lunchroom to find a place to sit and I look over and see Damon sucking face with the she bitch.

I giggle as Damon hovers me and sucks my neck.

"Let's go another round"

"How can you do that? I am about to pass out!"

"Let's just say I have great stamina" He says and I can practically hear the smirk in the darkness.

"Okay fine but be quiet this time it was embarrassing when that couple saw us."

He scoffs. "Oh please I bet we get more action than they do and the sex is way better"

"True" I agree.

After a whole other round and this time we controlled our sounds better he pulls out and flops on his back and stares up at the stars with me.

"I've never had sex like this before and that is coming from someone who has a lot of it"

"Is that a compliment?"

"Yes Elena it is. In the highest order"

I blush at that statement. Good to know I am better than a lot of his whores who probably have way better experienced than me.

He rolls over on top of me again and I'm surprised he has enough energy to do that but he looks at me intensely before he brings his lips down to meet mine and we are met in a passionate kiss. This kiss feels more than anything I have ever experienced. It's more than sex and passion. It's something else I can't name.

"Well look who is entertaining my man. You can leave now Betsy he is mine for tonight."

Katherine.

Katherine Pierce. I hate her. Not because she ruined that night and was a brat about it but because she thinks she owns everyone cause her dad is the mayor. She think she can get whatever she wants when she wants it. She's basically your stereotypical rich snotty teenager. But worse. I am a little mad he is so supportive around me and seems like he is going to change then turns around and makes out with his whore. I try to ignore that and it but it is extremely hard.

After that agonizing lunch I am just left to brood over and over again in class. I feel betrayed not for the kiss but for his attitude, I thought was trying to change for the better and help me i this situation yet the second his back turns from me he is the same. I am back to feeling like I have no one and alone. Finally the bell rings and I practically fly out of the classroom wanting to cry alone in my room with Ben and Jerry all alone. I quickly grab some books out for homework and put some in and run outside. I swear to god If he offers a ride I think ill loose it today.

As if reading my mind just as I am about to walk the trail to my house I hear my name being called. By him.

"Elena!"

I continue walking anyways. After a few moments his car is next to me on the road.

"Elena are you deaf! I was calling you!"

I ignore him and continue walking.

"Come on and get in" He says annoyed.

"No! Stop acting like you care Damon you don't. I know. I am not stupid anymore and I am not the same girl you knocked up so don't pull this supportive crap around me when you haven't changed at all!" I snap.

"What the hell are you talking about?!" He bellows.

"You're still using your whores! If you going change you need to set-"

"I never said anything about changing! I said ill support you and be there for my kid but I never said anything about changing everything that I love and who I am for you!"

"So you're not willing to change huh?"

"Jeez…I don't know! I am just a kid Elena! I am not perfect! I am still going to have fun I am not 30 I'm 18!"

"Yeah and you know what I am 15 Damon! And I can't go to party's or do the same things but forget it, you know what go ahead and do what you want never wanted you around for the baby anyways."

"You can't keep me from it!"

"Watch me!"

"All of this because I am with other woman? Are you jealous?" He hounded.

"Oh yeah, totally! I totally want a self serving sociopath with no redeeming quality's and I want him all for my freaking self! And if anyone stands in my way I am going to throw a hissy fit!"

His face darkens and I suddenly feel afraid. He gets out of his car and walks towards me and is suddenly an inch from my face. "You listen to me Elena Gilbert. I will not change for anyone not you or that baby. I will be supportive and help out but I will change when I want to change." He says "Oh and don't think you can keep the baby away from me" He adds and gets into his car and drives off.

REVIEW?

Really want to hear your thoughts.

Yeah Damon is all over the place but when isn't he? Elena definitely will have a hard time trusting him after this.

They have come pretty fast so far but don't get use to it haha i am just very inspired right now but there will come a time where it will be slower so soak it up haha.

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