Nothin' about you is typical
Nothin' about you's predictable
You got me all twisted and confused
(It's so you)
My emotions have raged from anger to misery. I'm sure you have guessed my anger is from the one and only Damon Salvatore. He expects to be apart of the baby's life and call the shots but still is the same asshole. My misery is from of course just my crappy life in general. It has been 2 days since my fight with Damon and he hasn't been at school and I assume he isn't taking the whole being a dad thing well or maybe trying to figure it out.
I still haven't talked to Caroline or Bonnie. And I keep getting angrier and angrier at myself each day. Why can't I just tell them! They have told me everything from when they first got their periods to their first kiss. Everything. But can't tell them I am pregnant? I think I have over thought telling them so much that now I am scared to death to do it.
I get ready for another day at school and put on a skirt and a loose fitting tank top. Still not talking with Caroline still resorts me into walking. I grab an apple this time and head out. I am assuming Damon won't be at school today either. I have no clue what he has been doing but I am sure it involves drinking and sex. Though I hope he learned his lesson and makes sure his other 'partner' is protected.
I arrive at school and go straight to my locker doing the same thing that I do everyday. It's like groundhogs day when it comes to school, but I guess I better appreciate it now cause soon I will be the 'pregnant girl.' I look down the hallway and see Caroline and Bonnie talking while side glancing me when they think I'm not looking. Gee I wonder what they are talking about. I grab my stuff and head to my English class. As I am walking I see ahead of me is Damon probably going to his class as well. I look straight forward without looking at him, I can tell in my peripheral vision he saw me and looked in my direction but that's it.
After school is over I just want to leave. Nothing happened. No contact with Damon or Bonnie and Caroline. I feel so alone. I put my stuff in my locker and leave as fast as I can. As I am almost of the school property Damon's car pulls up next to me.
"Get in"
I look at him in shock. Really? We get in a horrible fight and he doesn't go to school for days and then just expects me to hop into a car like nothing happened? This guy is nuts.
"What? No."
"Elena I know fought and all but we need to talk so get in the damn car" He says firmly.
Such a control freak when he's mad. Or maybe just in general…
We do need to talk. So taking steps to being mature I get in the passenger side.
"See that wasn't so hard was it?" He says sarcastically
I cross my arms and shake my head in disbelief.
I don't know where we are going but about 15 minutes of silence later we are in front of a building. Looks like a restaurant.
"Come on lets eat. I'm sure your hungry"
Oh he has no idea. After school I can eat a meal for 3. The outside looks nice and when we walk in my mouth drops. It's a very nice restaurant. Very posh. I don't even realize the hostess is seating us until I sit down in a memory foam padded chair. Oh lord. Can I live here?
"Here are your menus, let me know when you are ready" She smiles sweetly and leaves.
"Pick whatever you want. On me" He says behind his menu.
I still haven't moved an inch. I am in shock over how nice this place is.
"You have to order you know. That's how you get food"
And just like that my excitement is gone. "Fine" I snap. And open my menu. Holy-
"This is way too expensive!" I shriek.
"I said I have it. Just choose" He says annoyed.
Reining in my anger I try to look at the food rather than the price. Wow so much of this sounds so good. I look at some dinner dishes and see raviolis, I can do that.
"You guys ready?" the cheery waitress asks.
Damon looks at me raising his eyebrow; asking. "Yes I am" I answer.
"Okay" Damon starts. "I will have the tilapia with lemon juice dish and a ice water"
"Okay…and you ma'am?" the waitress looks at me.
"Uh-hm the cheese raviolis please with a ice tea" I mumble
"Okay I will have those up soon" She says and leaves.
Once she leaves there is a uncomfortable silence and I play with my hands in my lap. I hate confrontation. Which is why barely anyone knows. I just hate it. To have everything right out in the open and making yourself vulnerable is scary.
"So about the…baby. If you haven't noticed I wasn't at school for a couple of days cause I was…dealing with it and thinking things through. I know I reacted wrong the other day but it just came as a shock to me I know that doesn't excu-"
"Damon stop. It's fine. We both said things we didn't mean. Its okay" I smile to reassure him. Because I said some not so nice things you know with the whole sociopath thing…We need to move on cause holding onto those petty things won't do good for the baby and that's why we are here after all.
He smiles. And probably one of the most genuine smiles I have ever seen cross his gorgeous face. Not a smirk not a half smile but a full smile.
"Thanks that means a lot because…I really want to be there for you and the baby. My parents have never been around and I want to be there for him or her. And I know it's weird and early for it but I already care for it. That's why I was reacting the way I did to adoption and you taking it away…."
Oh my god.
Am I in a parallel world? Like wow. I did not expect that. Damon Salvatore sure does surprise me. So is the bad boy front just a front? I guess I will have to find out…Still in shock I haven't moved or said anything. He probably thinks I'm crazy but in reality I am just shocked. And a little relieved. Its good to know someone will be there for the baby besides me. The baby will have a dad. If that's a relief I don't know what is.
"Elena?" Damon asks after awhile. "I know I have no right for you to forgive me but-"
"I forgive you Damon" I say looking up at him with tears in my eyes.
"Elena I didn't mean to make you cry…"
I shake my head and laugh. "No it's a happy cry…I just have felt so alone the past few week and it feels good to know someone will be there through it all…." I say and sob again. Damn freaking hormones. This is embarrassing!
"Hey it's okay…I'll be here. To be honest I thought I would freak out and bolt but I don't know…There is just something about this that I can't leave…." He trails off lost in thought.
I know what he means. The old Elena would have done what's right which is probably adoption or abortion but I just can shake this baby. I already feel connected to it and would protect it with my life. This baby might not have been made out of love or will have the most greatest up bringing but I am damn sure it will be loved and that's all a child needs to be honest.
"Sorry for crying" I finally say. "I have been all over the place lately" I sniffle and rub my nose with one of their satin cloths.
He chuckles. "It's understandable I mean you are carrying a baby that has an asshole for a father and a stubborn woman for a mother" He grins.
I gasp playfully. "What. I am not stubborn"
He laughs. "Yeah sure and Mac n cheese doesn't have cheese in it" He mocks.
I shake my head. This guy pushes all my buttons and he 100% knows it. But I learned deep down he is just a guy that is scared. But he is genuine and has a good heart so I may have to break his barriers at points but maybe this isn't so bad after all.
"I want to thank you Damon" I say boldly.
He crinkles his forehead in confusion. "For what?"
I take a deep breath. "For being there for me. I didn't want to tell you at first cause I thought you would bolt so I told myself for a long time I was going to do this alone but it's a big relief to know me and the baby will have someone." I say and look up at him. After my speech I can see his eyes soften and look vulnerable.
After a few moments of getting himself together he speaks. "No problem Elena. If I am going to be honest I can't wait to meet him or her" He smiles.
Shock number two. Its two different things saying you will be there because it's your responsibility than saying you want to be there. That it is something you want. And crave. Two totally different things. And he just blew my mind.
After that heart to heart we move on to move safe topics and laugh and joke and he is definitely back to his cocky self but I don't mind. I am starting to like it. Which is weird. Before I found it infuriating but now I think it's cute. Stop hitting on him Elena! Been there once you do not want to do it again….Or do you?
Finally our food arrives and the waitress sets down our dishes in front of us. Thank god I am starving. But then again, when aren't I these days. I start to take a few bites when it hits me.
Damon's fish dinner.
I feel the familiar wave of nausea roll through me and I drop my fork loudly trying to fight it.
"Elena what's wrong" Damon's voice says with concern.
"I think I am going to be sick" I rush out before standing up and bolting for the bathroom. I barely make it there in time but I throw up my breakfast and lunch and what few bites of dinner. I can't wait to be out of first trimester and not be sick all the damn time. I wipe my mouth with a paper towel and wash my hands before going back out. When I reach the table Damon seems concerned and almost stands up when I reach him.
"Sorry" I mumble. "I have been throwing up a lot lately…"
"Oh…That's the morning sickness huh? But it's almost evening...?"
"Tell me about it"
"So when are you going to tell your dad and brother?" Damon asks after a few minutes of eating in silence. I inwardly groan. Of course he is wondering. I am too. I just hate hearing 'are you going to tell' and 'dad' in the same sentence lately.
"I am really soon. I have wanted to for awhile but…I guess I am just scared…"
His eyes soften again at my words and he reaches his hand across the table and squeezes mine. "I would be scared to. But I am sure it will be fine. They are your family and love you. Though they might not be happy I am sure they wouldn't hate you or anything" He tries to reassure me.
"I know. I just don't want to disappoint them" I whisper.
"Well that part is inevitable" He tries to joke but when I don't laugh he turns serious. "Did your dad know you use to sleep around and go to parties?" Damon asks softly.
"Parties, sometimes. And even when he did know he would still be disappointed in me. As for sleeping around, No. I didn't really sleep around too much. I have probably only slept with 2 guys other than you so 3 in total. People just think I sleep with a lot of people cause I get really close to doing it then stop…"
"Why" Damon asks. "And if you don't want to answer that's fine" He adds.
I sigh. "No its fine. Its nothing big I just….A lot of times guys make me uncomfortable and I just can't do it.." I explain
"But you were comfortable with me?" He smirks. "I like that"
"Pretty sure I only slept with you to prove that I could do it" I scoff.
"Sure you did" He winked. "Had nothing to do with my amazing body"
"You do know your vain right?"
"Proudly" He says. "Though I do have a reason to be, don't you agree?" He smirks again.
Oh lord.
A few minutes after our playful banter the waitress came by with the check. But before I could see how much it was, Damon paid for it before I could even blink. He walks me outside and even opened the car door for me. What a gentleman. If he wasn't such a ass I might even dat- no Elena! Don't think like that, I tell myself.
"So have you gone to the doctors yet?" Damon says casually.
"Nope" I answer.
"What? What the hell Elena? You need to go! You need to see if the baby is healthy and I don't know maybe to make sure it doesn't have three heads or something!" He exasperates.
I laugh. "Damon it won't have three heads trust me"
"You don't know that" He says seriously.
I shake my head into disbelief. He is more worried about this pregnancy than I am. Which is good because I am a person to brush off pain or something that is wrong hence why I didn't think I was pregnant till 2 months after I had no period. Yeah I can be stubborn at times….
"I know I need to go okay? I just…Have no one to go with…" I gulp
Silence rags on. "I can go with you Elena" He says softly.
I look at him and I suddenly see a different Damon Salvatore again. I see a Damon that yearns for affection and acceptance. A Damon that is scared but excited for the new challenges in life. I see…him
"O-okay" I smile.
He smiles back. "Okay I will call around and see what I can do"
All I can do is nod.
After Damon left I felt like a giddy kid from her first date. We finally exchanged numbers and had quite a few good laughs. He's not all that bad. I mean he is still a dick but only when he chooses and today he let that go to let me see the real him. I still feel a little sick after that restaurant maybe my body just needs greasy food. Figures. I go to my room and plug in my dead phone. It died shortly after Damon gave me his number and as it turns on I get many notifications. All from Caroline and Bonnie sayings sorry over and over, voicing how they just wanted to help me but didn't know how and that they want to talk to me. I am mad that they kind of abandoned me but I also agree that I should have told them. I mean they tell me everything its only fair. I make a pact to myself that I will tell Caroline and Bonnie tomorrow.
Review please to let me know what you think :)
Yep. Bonnie and Caroline will find out next chapter and Elena wont chicken out this time. After this chapter things will go pretty fast paced.)
THANKS TO OLIVIA SHE GAVE ME A COUPLE OF IDEAS AND SHE IS A MAJOR FANGURL TO THIS FIC AND HELPS INSPIRE ME.
xo